Reason?
Mother abandoned me after trying to stab my father at birth and then at eleven my father killed himself and all I had was my sister, she left me for a better foster family who wouldn't take me in and ever since I've hated women and been socially inept, been 5 years in foster care and life will not get better, sometimes I larp like I just accept it
i expect this kind of backstory since u r on .org
Jesus christ wtf
Brutal, how do u cope? Me personally I just remember the futility of suffering/living , in the end everybody loses.
I seriously don't understand how I cope, I just let my mind do it for me, I'm still pretty young so I understand my brain puts a lot of walls up so I'm less cognizant of certain feelings, In a few years when my brain lets go I have no clue how I'll cope
Yes I don't feel anymore
its annoying how the mind limits our understanding due to its own feelings and whatever. But when it comes to “winning” it’s like pigs being happy they’re being fed a bunch of food before heading into the slaughterhouse, it’s delusional, false, transient and will ultimately end in suffering, they’ll lose their loved ones at one point. You shouldn’t entertain these desires of yours, but I understand how uncontrollable it is , I’m young aswell. I’ve dedicated my life to understanding existence and to build an indifferent nature to existence but it’s near impossible and I’ve accepted that I’ll be a fool for the rest of my days. There’s probably a bunch of flaws and things I’m not considering but whatever man. I recommend you read Reverend insanity though, it gave me my way of coping and should give u some wisdom if u haven’t read it, it’s a fun read too -> https://www.lightnovelpub.com/novel/reverend-insanity-05122222
I cope through Reverend insanity but it's such a shitty method cause its banned so it just gets worse after u finish reading it
I haven’t finished it yet
You will not be blackpilled if u adopt fang yuans mindset
