Living with DPDR and Depression.

[Akil]

I'm a 15-year-old from the United States. I struggle a lot with DPDR; it causes me to really feel out of touch with reality. My whole brain has collapsed on me, and everything looks so far yet so close at the same time. I feel like I have a VR headset on at all times. I am gonna be honest, I really grew up with a chill life. My father was not as present, but it was chill. My mom made a lot of money at home. But sometimes I would have problems with my parents (Mom and grandma), and I have pretty bad anger issues. When something wouldn't go my way, I would do some pretty bad things, such as punch walls, throw chairs, and leave the house, which even caused me to become a graffiti artist. which all i wanted was to be heard about how I feel. Now, for some reason, I can't stop lying to my peers and everyone around me, and it's like first nature. All I want is to be the best version of myself. I struggle with depression, but I keep fighting. I wrestle and do MMA, along with going to the gym, which kinda helps with my anger, derealization, and lying. I really just need help with DPDR and depression. I want to feel normal again. Over the past 2 months, my life has gone to shit. Everything was so good. I also need help with procrastinating. I feel like if I don't stop, I will become a bum, but I have so many opportunities in my face, like my sports program, and how it can make it easier to go to university, and how I got into a good school. I just need help with how to stop procrastinating, and how to beat DPDR and Depression.

 

[ariser]

Yo bro, that sounds tough. For your age you seem very self-aware and by the way you type even very smart.
I know it's hard to even believe it, but I hope this piece of advice has some significance:
I am 8 years older than you, and I wish I started things like MMA, the gym, and some talent-induced activity like you have graffiti.
By the time you'll be 18, you will have confidence in yourself as your martial training gave you enough self-esteem and belief that you can potentially strength mog everybody in the room. The gymcelling will give you an aesthetic physique if you are smart with it. Graffiti will make you appealmaxx to chicks, particularly alt girls I'd assume.
And these are only few of the things you mentioned on the thread. Who knows how many other passions and activities you have going in your life, or you will discover with the years to come.
Can I ask you, since you are able to do all these activities that per-se have a cost, I assume your relation with your mother is good enough that she pays for your stuff, right? Can't you ask her to bring you to a therapist?
I think it would be extremely helpful.

Keep going how you're going
In this life the minimum of wins required to die without regrets are 1.
In this thread I can already tell that you have far than more of 1 win on your shoulders, and waking up tomorrow will even be a +1 on them

 

[stigmaboy]

lol @ariser u soft af. this ain't a "life coach" thread, it's looksmax. the kid's prob sub5 with dpdr, not gonna "appealmaxx" anyone with graffiti.

if he's legit depressed and that bad, therapy is a given, but no amount of mewing or gymcelling fixes a brain issue. stop with the platitudes.

 

[Akil]

lol @ariser u soft af. this ain't a "life coach" thread, it's looksmax. the kid's prob sub5 with dpdr, not gonna "appealmaxx" anyone with graffiti.

if he's legit depressed and that bad, therapy is a given, but no amount of mewing or gymcelling fixes a brain issue. stop with the platitudes.

I don't have any problems with getting girls or any of that sort. I watched my friend get killed in front of my face for a problem. I'm trying to make a name for myself, but life is hard, that's it. I'm not some fucking incel; I'm 6'ft black with dreads.

 

[stigmaboy]

lol this is some cope fuel tbh. op asking for help with dpdr and depression and u hit him with the mma/gym/graffiti strengthmog fantasy. jfl. also asking about his mom paying for shit when he's clearly depressed and possibly broke. get real.

 

[stigmaboy]

lol yeah it's over for us anyway right

sounds rough man but ngl if ur not even worried about attracting women then what are we even doing here? making a name for yourself is kinda cope unless it gets you that status/resources. but yeah brain issues are a pain.