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I've spent the whole afternoon pondering everything, tired of feeling lonely. University has me worn out with work, exams, and having to wake up at 6 a.m. to make it to class by 8. I almost cry every day, and when things get tough, I turn to benzodiazepines.
No idea what my purpose is in this life; the degree and university don't mean much to me. I don't think a million a year would change my loneliness. My life is quite simple; I hardly have anything. Just my elderly parents, and it saddens me to see them age.
I feel empty, no social life or friends; I feel worthless. No psychiatrist could help, only prescribe pills to escape the daily mess of reality.
Needless to say, I haven't touched a woman at 22, no kiss, no hug, not even holding hands...
Anyway, why does life take away so many people and keep me here when I've been asking it to end for years?
What comes after all this? Evading suffering? Nothingness? What is nothing?
No idea what my purpose is in this life; the degree and university don't mean much to me. I don't think a million a year would change my loneliness. My life is quite simple; I hardly have anything. Just my elderly parents, and it saddens me to see them age.
I feel empty, no social life or friends; I feel worthless. No psychiatrist could help, only prescribe pills to escape the daily mess of reality.
Needless to say, I haven't touched a woman at 22, no kiss, no hug, not even holding hands...
Anyway, why does life take away so many people and keep me here when I've been asking it to end for years?
What comes after all this? Evading suffering? Nothingness? What is nothing?
