Lonely? Void?

[chve07]

I have friends almost too much of them , I still feel extremely lonely , such disparity late at night , and even in classes .Dont get me wrong I’m not one of those retards that would ignore people on purpose I just don’t find anything common between them and me , I’ll laugh at their stupid jokes because that’s the only way for me to socialize with them , sure I’ll sit next to them in classes because they invite me to , and I’ll eat food with them because we are together. Some classes are free periods so my “friends” will play games together and what not while they play together ofc they invite me i usually decline politely instead I’ll scroll a bit because that’s the way I distract my self and after that I’ll legit just stare at walls and do nothing , again I’m not trying to be cringe . You , the reader might not understand the dept of the situation which I don’t mind. I just want to find people who might remotely be in this situation. Note I don’t have problem with girls I get noticed praised and complimented frequently. My family is supportive and positive . And I post on social media I do get interactions. But yet there’s this hole I just can’t seem to fill.

 

[TopTierIncel42]

dopamine overload sounds like what you are experiencing or you might be depressed.

 

[chve07]

dopamine overload sounds like what you are experiencing or you might be depressed.

What could be the main cause?

 

[TopTierIncel42]

too much shit happening at the same time. Talk to a therapist about this.

 

[chve07]

too much shit happening at the same time. Talk to a therapist about this.

Cant, im18 parents still compute every shit that i do.

 

[TopTierIncel42]

Cant, im18 parents still compute every shit that i do.

do you think your parents are over controlling?

 

[chve07]

do you think your parents are over controlling?

Not particularly , i could go out but theres a limit to where and when . And if it was to see a therapist it would really ring a bell for them.

 

[TopTierIncel42]

Not particularly , i could go out but theres a limit to where and when . And if it was to see a therapist it would really ring a bell for them.

ring a bell in what way?

 

[chve07]

ring a bell in what way?

It would alert them that theres sum wrong with me . I never really showed myself to them.

 

[TopTierIncel42]

It would alert them that theres sum wrong with me . I never really showed myself to them.

when was the last time you slightly opened up to them? how did they react? How do they react when you do something wrong?

 

[chve07]

when was the last time you slightly opened up to them? how did they react? How do they react when you do something wrong?

Recently , it was pretty huge too but they didn’t overreact or haunt me in anyway even supported me and comforted me . but that’s not the issue they seem to be positively reactive to materialistic things e.g. wounds,pain, visibility in general. But something like mental state or concepts they seem to brush it off.

 

[TopTierIncel42]

Recently , it was pretty huge too but they didn’t overreact or haunt me in anyway even supported me and comforted me . but that’s not the issue they seem to be positively reactive to materialistic things e.g. wounds,pain, visibility in general. But something like mental state or concepts they seem to brush it off.

do you know if their parents did this to them? how old do you have to be to book a meeting with a therapist in your country?

 

[chve07]

do you know if their parents did this to them? how old do you have to be to book a meeting with a therapist in your country?

Would be logical to think that it was their parents . But honestly I don’t think I need a therapist , it’s not like I’m depressed it’s a fact that I feel lonely tho . I see people in my class hurdling up together . Most of them at the same attractiveness level , they are Asian so am I , but I’m mixed so I don’t look you know feminine Asian? Would say that they are intimidated by me or moreover so that in my class males seem more comfortable to befriend me , those “popular” girls however seem to talk to me just fine. But those other girls have a visibly hard time maintaining eye contact and conversating. And they are the one who organizes class events . They group up with themselves. I missed chunk of events and socializing because of this.

 

[Lympho]

I have friends almost too much of them , I still feel extremely lonely , such disparity late at night , and even in classes .Dont get me wrong I’m not one of those retards that would ignore people on purpose I just don’t find anything common between them and me , I’ll laugh at their stupid jokes because that’s the only way for me to socialize with them , sure I’ll sit next to them in classes because they invite me to , and I’ll eat food with them because we are together. Some classes are free periods so my “friends” will play games together and what not while they play together ofc they invite me i usually decline politely instead I’ll scroll a bit because that’s the way I distract my self and after that I’ll legit just stare at walls and do nothing , again I’m not trying to be cringe . You , the reader might not understand the dept of the situation which I don’t mind. I just want to find people who might remotely be in this situation. Note I don’t have problem with girls I get noticed praised and complimented frequently. My family is supportive and positive . And I post on social media I do get interactions. But yet there’s this hole I just can’t seem to fill.

Honestly I would use AI and self analyze your behavior, then feed emotional data through, find a answer, answer extremely truthfully, even mentioning how you react to an answer whether you don’t care for a topic or something. It’s a 2000iq robot and will easily figure out what’s wrong with you, have a 25-45 minute conversation. Psilocybin also helps with meta cognition and self analysis. You can’t leave any bias on the table if you want an actual solution to depression, coming from someone that was clinically diagnosed since 10