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I went from lltn to htn (not larping if anyone wants I’ll put pics) between 16 and 17
Part of my ascension in life was a social ascension. Once I started looksmaxxing more seriously, I sort of got invited into a more popular group at school. This group has an average height of 6’1 and average looks of htn. There are frequent meets with groups of girls and the group sort of drifts between a few groups of girls who basically love them.
before when I first joined, I was khhv, never smoked, drank once or twice, never used any form of nicotine, never gambled, didn’t jerk off much.
I befriended someone in the group specifically, one of the most popular guys in school, who is pretty much one of my best friends now (6’3 htn). This guy is the biggest nic addict ever, and we had some meets when I first joined that were just me, him and some girls. This is when I first started learning to talk to girls properly.
He kept offering me snus, vapes etc and eventually I accepted. Over time I started getting invited to parties etc, and in the last half year, had a couple talking stages / got with some of the girls in groups that we hung out with. This was simultaneous with me getting more hooked on Nic, using it in social settings and just trying to be cool and fit in.
Over the course of the last year I have basically sacrificed my school grades, meaning unless I pull off a miracle in the next week when my final exams are, I probably won’t make it into a good university. I’ve also become properly addicted to nicotine, next to me right now I have cigs, vapes and snus and the snus I use is strong (50mg). I haven’t gone a day without nicotine in a while which is just embarrassing because as a child I always promised myself I would never vape or anything and that was for losers.
I’m also obsessed with girls. All I did today was jerk off twice, pop snus, smoke, talk about girls to my friends online, and lose £15 gambling online. I haven’t done any proper revision in a week and these incredibly important exams are literally in 6 days. I just can’t motivate myself to do anything productive. I haven’t even left the house in 2 days.
ascending did open my eyes to how the world works through countless social interactions with girls and boys that I never even got the opportunity to have when I was still subhuman. I have been blackpilled since 2022 from wheat waffles however I never shared this to anyone I know, and I can confirm it is the complete truth as I have experience both ends of the looks spectrum. The height pill is also brutal, I’m 5’10 on the mark barefoot evening height which is bang on average, and has both helped and hindered me depending on scenarios. One of the boys in the new group is 6’7 and I remember specifically one night last summer I was with the 6’3 htn friend I mentioned earlier, sitting in a random field at 3am with some girls and the one I liked said that the 6’7 guy was attractive purely because he’s super tall even tho he’s ltn.
The crushing realisation of how the world works, combined with my new found addictions have honestly ruined my life. There are many things I have to accept in my life that I can’t change, not just bp related.
I don’t know how I’m going to quit nic, porn and focus on getting my life back on track. Despite being Khhv, I was 10x happier before my ascension.
The worst part of all is how disappointed my parents are. My parents have found my snus a few times and watched my academic prospects slip in real time. I wish they were mad but their attitude so far has just been dissapointment and they seem to have given up on me tbh.
My only cope is that I can get girls now, however that’s outweighed by how miserable I am. Even the girls I do get I end up losing after a while, and at this point I’m just numb to girls. Whenever a new prospect comes along I can’t get romantically attached even after getting head, making out, cuddling for hours etc.
On the other hand my ugly oneitis who I never even got play from before my ascension literally had me obsessed. I honestly wish I could feel for girls what I felt for her, but just be first theory is real for both boys and girls.
I know this is pure ramblings but I’ll just post anyway
Part of my ascension in life was a social ascension. Once I started looksmaxxing more seriously, I sort of got invited into a more popular group at school. This group has an average height of 6’1 and average looks of htn. There are frequent meets with groups of girls and the group sort of drifts between a few groups of girls who basically love them.
before when I first joined, I was khhv, never smoked, drank once or twice, never used any form of nicotine, never gambled, didn’t jerk off much.
I befriended someone in the group specifically, one of the most popular guys in school, who is pretty much one of my best friends now (6’3 htn). This guy is the biggest nic addict ever, and we had some meets when I first joined that were just me, him and some girls. This is when I first started learning to talk to girls properly.
He kept offering me snus, vapes etc and eventually I accepted. Over time I started getting invited to parties etc, and in the last half year, had a couple talking stages / got with some of the girls in groups that we hung out with. This was simultaneous with me getting more hooked on Nic, using it in social settings and just trying to be cool and fit in.
Over the course of the last year I have basically sacrificed my school grades, meaning unless I pull off a miracle in the next week when my final exams are, I probably won’t make it into a good university. I’ve also become properly addicted to nicotine, next to me right now I have cigs, vapes and snus and the snus I use is strong (50mg). I haven’t gone a day without nicotine in a while which is just embarrassing because as a child I always promised myself I would never vape or anything and that was for losers.
I’m also obsessed with girls. All I did today was jerk off twice, pop snus, smoke, talk about girls to my friends online, and lose £15 gambling online. I haven’t done any proper revision in a week and these incredibly important exams are literally in 6 days. I just can’t motivate myself to do anything productive. I haven’t even left the house in 2 days.
ascending did open my eyes to how the world works through countless social interactions with girls and boys that I never even got the opportunity to have when I was still subhuman. I have been blackpilled since 2022 from wheat waffles however I never shared this to anyone I know, and I can confirm it is the complete truth as I have experience both ends of the looks spectrum. The height pill is also brutal, I’m 5’10 on the mark barefoot evening height which is bang on average, and has both helped and hindered me depending on scenarios. One of the boys in the new group is 6’7 and I remember specifically one night last summer I was with the 6’3 htn friend I mentioned earlier, sitting in a random field at 3am with some girls and the one I liked said that the 6’7 guy was attractive purely because he’s super tall even tho he’s ltn.
The crushing realisation of how the world works, combined with my new found addictions have honestly ruined my life. There are many things I have to accept in my life that I can’t change, not just bp related.
I don’t know how I’m going to quit nic, porn and focus on getting my life back on track. Despite being Khhv, I was 10x happier before my ascension.
The worst part of all is how disappointed my parents are. My parents have found my snus a few times and watched my academic prospects slip in real time. I wish they were mad but their attitude so far has just been dissapointment and they seem to have given up on me tbh.
My only cope is that I can get girls now, however that’s outweighed by how miserable I am. Even the girls I do get I end up losing after a while, and at this point I’m just numb to girls. Whenever a new prospect comes along I can’t get romantically attached even after getting head, making out, cuddling for hours etc.
On the other hand my ugly oneitis who I never even got play from before my ascension literally had me obsessed. I honestly wish I could feel for girls what I felt for her, but just be first theory is real for both boys and girls.
I know this is pure ramblings but I’ll just post anyway