revelations214
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even if you're athletic, 6'3 and above, charismatic, kind, any of that bullshit, but ur ugly, no girl would ever date you. You're never getting a teenage love or being loved for being yourself. Even if you get a gf u would probably get used or will just be her wallet. I would give everything I have to experience true teenage love.
Since I was 11-12, I started fearing death so much that I had panic attacks from even thinking about it. I asked myself a lot, whats the point of life? What do I even exist for? I thought I existed to find true love. To be loved and cared about by someone. But here I am bedrotting for 4 years straight, still khhv. What am I even living for then? Im just wasting my time and my life stuck in my own room just because im not that good looking. I really tried talking to women, but every woman I confessed to or just tried to talk just made fun of me behind my back, screenshotting and sending that shit straight to their normie friends. One of them was nice for 2 weeks, really excited to talk to me. She even went out with me. She was the prettiest girl ive ever seen, I just knew she was way out of my league. 3 days past the walk we had, she started ignoring me, giving me cold responses and all that stuff. A day later she posted a photo of her holding hands with some guy that looked thousand times better than me, recreating some couple pic. I really thought that could get anywhere lol. My parents are really disappointed, always asking me why dont I have a girlfriend. I just dont know how to tell em that in the modern world if you're slightly above average, u aint ever finding true love.
I would rope if I wasnt scared of death so much. Im scared that I will stop existing and feeling something.
I just dont know what to do with my life anymore
Since I was 11-12, I started fearing death so much that I had panic attacks from even thinking about it. I asked myself a lot, whats the point of life? What do I even exist for? I thought I existed to find true love. To be loved and cared about by someone. But here I am bedrotting for 4 years straight, still khhv. What am I even living for then? Im just wasting my time and my life stuck in my own room just because im not that good looking. I really tried talking to women, but every woman I confessed to or just tried to talk just made fun of me behind my back, screenshotting and sending that shit straight to their normie friends. One of them was nice for 2 weeks, really excited to talk to me. She even went out with me. She was the prettiest girl ive ever seen, I just knew she was way out of my league. 3 days past the walk we had, she started ignoring me, giving me cold responses and all that stuff. A day later she posted a photo of her holding hands with some guy that looked thousand times better than me, recreating some couple pic. I really thought that could get anywhere lol. My parents are really disappointed, always asking me why dont I have a girlfriend. I just dont know how to tell em that in the modern world if you're slightly above average, u aint ever finding true love.
I would rope if I wasnt scared of death so much. Im scared that I will stop existing and feeling something.
I just dont know what to do with my life anymore
