looks don't matter when you're schizophrenic

[justloltbh]

i use to browse this forum, get upset over things like my dicksize or whether a girl would ever stay with me without cheating, regular human problems

around 2 years i had my first psychotic episode and it has reccurred many times over trying to quit my meds, psychosis is pure hell on earth, its like uve lost the right to live in your own brain, constant commentary on everything u do and making u feel bad for all ur habits, life decisons everything u do, and no free room to think, just constant chatter making you wanna suicide immediately, when it ends u think ur in heaven again, and that was the real hell. i felt like this when it ended for a while. then i got hospitalized and recieved a potent antipsychotic injection that doesnt wear off for years, and still have to take antipscyhotic pills reguarly

Now, I cant sleep at all wake up every 3 hours and only get 6 or so, cant take naps, have tics, ocd now, cant feel cigs alcohol or any drugs at all, cant enjoy activities like tv music vidya anything, you cant excercise it destroys you physical ability u get tired in 2 secs, ruins cognitive function, makes memory bad, reflexes bad, cant study or retain information anymore so school is impossible, caffeine and energy drinks dont work, severe depression, no emotions cant feel moods or magical feelings anymore i used to drift off into bliss, no imagination, ruins your ability to socialize or have a conversation, cant form thoughts, blank mind, cant do anything a human does anymore basically, i have ED, my dick is like 2 or 3 inches max now, from 5.5, porn does absolutley nothing, i have no copes, no music, no vidya, no anime, no movies, no netflix. life is not worth living for me at all. you should all be glad you have your copes and not take what you have for granted, alot of folks on here get depressed over things when they have so much that life has to offer still at their hand. i feel jealous of each and every one of you, would trade places in a gigasecond

i would trade places with hamlossus or st bo2cel in a millisecond and get my normal life back, fuck looks

 

[Deleted member 2214]

If u were Chad, genuine 6 PSL+, u would've never made an account here, and u would get more professional help in real life than via venting.

Simple as, but I get it, u can't apply the blackpill to everything. U probably wouldn't be happier, but u would be definetly be having more sex.

 

[Deleted member 2403]

Schizophrenia is truly the worst thing that can happen to someone

Worst of all they have to take meds which have all sorts of life long horrific side effects

Would only wish it upon my worst enemies

 

[justloltbh]

If u were Chad, genuine 6 PSL+, u would've never made an account here, and u would get more professional help in real life than via venting.

Simple as, but I get it, u can't apply the blackpill to everything. U probably wouldn't be happier, but u would be definetly be having more sex.

i dont think u get the point of the post, being chad and having sex becomes meaningless when this happens to you, me being on here or not doesn't make a difference, i don't even quite understand ur logic

also i literally cant have sex, i have ED from the meds

 

[Deleted member 11414]

brutal
schizophrenia is one of the worst thing someone can deal with

 

[freiza]

I'm sorry

 

[RichardSpencel]

Tales from Amnesia's bunkmate

 

[Deleted member 11758]

dnrd

 

[Be_ConfidentBro]

I’m really sorry that you have to suffer like that man

 

[JimmyDreamsOfZygos]

Just close your eyes nigga

 

[turkproducer]

I can’t imagine what psychosis is like, when I go lots of time without sleeping + smoke I sometimes get auditory hallucinations and it’s pretty weird jfl

was it drug induced op

 

[justloltbh]

I can’t imagine what psychosis is like, when I go lots of time without sleeping + smoke I sometimes get auditory hallucinations and it’s pretty weird jfl

was it drug induced op

it started with marijuana, at first i only used to hear voices on marijuana, and it went away when i was sober, but i kept smoking and eventually went into full on psychosis that also went away after a day, this happened more times as i kept smoking, and eventually it become permanent even with no drugs, happens even when im fully sober for years, now if i quit my meds it comes back, im hoping i can eventually quit them successfully though, i regret ever smoking weed in the first place in my life

 

[Deleted member 13495]

it started with marijuana, at first i only used to hear voices on marijuana, and it went away when i was sober, but i kept smoking and eventually went into full on psychosis that also went away after a day, this happened more times as i kept smoking, and eventually it become permanent even with no drugs, happens even when im fully sober for years, now if i quit my meds it comes back, im hoping i can eventually quit them successfully though, i regret ever smoking weed in the first place in my life

was ur fault for messing with your mind with drugs when if u were 5+ psl your life would give you enough dopamine anyways wo the need of weed etc, was destined to happen so