
wtfrj
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This is my first time ever venting, i’m out of my comfort zone right now and feel like an absolute pussy
Outside of looksmaxxing, i’m truly still a loser. I’m high htn-cl and i didn’t socialmaxx during ascension and i have absolutely no game( i can obviously pull just not over mtb for a long period of time and i dont want anything to do with a mtb whatsoever) besides looks and my “friends” are fake i can feel it. It makes me feel terrible i admire myself and then remember.. the same old me, a fatass lord farquad looking boy. Im still the same im just more appealing on the outside. Bp/lookism is making me narcissistic especially because when i was a kid i’ve had no one but myself and i developed the mindset at a young age i’d be better off alone and to love myself, because my mom and dad are hooked on hard drugs, my mom was never there and my dad took care of me but he wasn’t a great parent, he’d put a roof over my head and food in my stomach and clothes on my back and the basic needs but that’s about it. My dad also has narcissistic traits, and my grandmas the only one i could kinda talk to and she’s an alcoholic and i literally can’t talk to her when she’s drunk without starting an argument. I seen all the popular and even weird kids find love and i still can’t, seriously i’m sure that love doesn’t exist for me, im just fucking hoes which is sad honestly i don’t want to be a lust demon that slays promiscuous foids and can’t even have a real conversation, it seems like all they want to do is fuck because i know i have terrible social skills and they just want my looks. Even when i had a low-htb gf i still felt apathy, I fucked that up with my awful talking skills she said “i acted to nonchalant” once i gave her the d she slowly left me like im a piece of meat, and she acted like she liked me soo much lol. I also had a low-mtb “gf” that only wanted the d and i could tell. I do but don’t want a relationship i wish i had a girl that was loyal and i could just be distant with as much as i wanted, it’s a fantasy unfortunately and will never happen. Am i crazy do i need therapy??
Outside of looksmaxxing, i’m truly still a loser. I’m high htn-cl and i didn’t socialmaxx during ascension and i have absolutely no game( i can obviously pull just not over mtb for a long period of time and i dont want anything to do with a mtb whatsoever) besides looks and my “friends” are fake i can feel it. It makes me feel terrible i admire myself and then remember.. the same old me, a fatass lord farquad looking boy. Im still the same im just more appealing on the outside. Bp/lookism is making me narcissistic especially because when i was a kid i’ve had no one but myself and i developed the mindset at a young age i’d be better off alone and to love myself, because my mom and dad are hooked on hard drugs, my mom was never there and my dad took care of me but he wasn’t a great parent, he’d put a roof over my head and food in my stomach and clothes on my back and the basic needs but that’s about it. My dad also has narcissistic traits, and my grandmas the only one i could kinda talk to and she’s an alcoholic and i literally can’t talk to her when she’s drunk without starting an argument. I seen all the popular and even weird kids find love and i still can’t, seriously i’m sure that love doesn’t exist for me, im just fucking hoes which is sad honestly i don’t want to be a lust demon that slays promiscuous foids and can’t even have a real conversation, it seems like all they want to do is fuck because i know i have terrible social skills and they just want my looks. Even when i had a low-htb gf i still felt apathy, I fucked that up with my awful talking skills she said “i acted to nonchalant” once i gave her the d she slowly left me like im a piece of meat, and she acted like she liked me soo much lol. I also had a low-mtb “gf” that only wanted the d and i could tell. I do but don’t want a relationship i wish i had a girl that was loyal and i could just be distant with as much as i wanted, it’s a fantasy unfortunately and will never happen. Am i crazy do i need therapy??