Celibataire
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JFL i'm just saying what comes to mind, im not even going to proof read anything. Read for fun as my mind tells me what to write by instinct.
I'm really tired right now but i have to write about this when i have it in my head, or its' never ever gonna come back out again so..
Clavicular and his frauding ego filled ass needs to fall down or some shi because the only reason looksmaxxing got mainstream is bc of him, just witnessed a bunch of international chinese kids joke about MTN and True Adam at my school lunch today and that made me so mad for some reason. The "do i have potential?" tiktok fraudcels and the fucking randoms rating them with ridiculous bumps and delusional thinking with 0 knowledge and IQ actually makes me so mad. OFC I don't actually get mad bc i don't want to have a high cortisol, but i do think these to myself everytime it happens and it makes me very angry
My normie friends are all sending me BP edits and i just tell them to get a job that these are bs that looks don't matter, but the amount of attention BP and looksmaxxing since october is getting is quite out of hand and sometimes dangerously disturbing.
Looksmaxxing is a belief and kind of lifestyle that is tied to science, harsh truth and a wake up call for those who want to maximise their potentials in their appearances by learning, adapting, and researching ways that will help them in their disadvantageous lives. I want to accentuate on disadvantageous life, because as a normie that fits into society without problem, looksmaxxing shouldn't even be known to them at all in the first place as their brains won't comprehend it at all.
Looksmaxxing should be introduced to those who suffered, experienced, and lived through the harsh events of life because of their looks, not to normies with mid IQ and who's personality and looks make them easy to fit into society, (generally speaking of fluffy hairs and dreadhead hoopers) who do not have a single issue or anything of the sort that brings them down to the bottom of the life's social pit.
I'll give myself as an example: I was first introduced to looksmaxxing late 2021, when I had a pretty bad breakup with my long term GF (haven't held hands ever since 2021) and I was bullied for the rest of the school year, as all her friends and her were 'popular', pretty, and handsome kids. They were all in most of my classes, which made my life miserable. Constant laughters behind my back, the eyes, pushing me in the hallways, intentionally screwing me over whenever i was trying to talk to anyone, and sabotaging my social life too. My parents eventually decidedto move schools and cities so I could start a better life there
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That's when i first learned about looksmaxxing on reddit, I thought to myself that these looksmaxxers were bs and unattractive and what matters is how you show yourself to others; this is true but obviously none of this would matter if I'm chopped asf. I started getting depression, faked my emotions infront of my parents so they wouldn't worry, and my friendgroup was reduced to 4 of autistic history nerds and a gymcel. I started finishing vapes after vapes, started drinking and cried myself to sleep countless times, all while blaming my ex and her friends, not realising that the problem was me. After my mental health was a little better, I tried talking to other girls from quick add, tried to 'rizz' my way up the social ladder in my school. Obviously, none of these worked because i'm not conventionally attractive. When these girls saw my face, it was always all over. There was this one girl I really thought was the prettiest, the nicest and frankly, our personalities matched pretty good too. She was Eastern Euopean, confident and brunette, which is basically my type. We talked for a couple of days, making me rush to my phone everytime I heard a buzz from my phone, texting while i eat, shower, shit, whatever and staying up until she slept first. Turned out she lived in my city, so I was so excited and wanted her to be my way out of my extremely sad school life. And then the question came; "wyll?".
When i did not see her response after opened 1 min ago, i was still hopeful. And then it became 10 mins, 1 hour, and eventually opened 1 day ago. And it was over.
I was wondering why, and I started by blaming my race. I've always lived outside my home country, and the difference on culture and looks always played a negative part of my life. When I was a kid i tried pulling my asian nose up so it would look like my classmates, tried to make my monolids eyes look bigger, intentionally avoiding other asian kids at school to prove myself that I wasn't like them, and even tried to cut my eyelids to make them appear like double eyelids. I wanted to be white, appreciated, fit in, and wanted to have female friends and girlfriends like all the other conventionally attractive guys i had as friends or acquiantances from school. I blamed God for making me a minority immigrant, short, fat, and ugly, and not even being gifted with the asian school smart brain, althought my IQ is above 130. I couldn't understand it at first, even tried to YN max by buying nike tech, acting tough when they picked on me, bringing knives to school, smoking in the bathroom, acting up in class and tried to join a small drug dealing gang in my school's neighbourhood, all a desperate attempt to get attentions from girls. Only if I realised that it was because i was a fat chud back then. Of course, none of these bs worked and I just fucked up my rep even more and how people perceived me.
Anyways by 2023, our family moved cities as they did not want me to keep being bullied at this school, so I came to my city now and really thought my new life here was going bo be amazing, just like how highschool was promised by seniors and movies. Oh I was so wrong. It was only the beginning of the year that I realised that the highschool life people see as a fun, social experience ONLY applied to popular, handsome and pretty kids. At my new school, (which i graduate from this year), I immediately noticed the seperated groups of nerds, international chinese kids, the popular kids and the average kids. I know its corny af to say popular kids but theres no other way to say this so bare with me I could feel the popular kids judged everything the non-popular kids did, which were sometimes as simple as humming a tune in class, laughing at his phone, the way they would ask a question to a teacher, or anything that would be perceived as normal if that non-popular kid was not a sub 5 or hardstuck LTNs with a crazy autism about valorant and computer science. The way they chuckled and giggled at these poor kids, I realised I could be one of those kids soon if I didn't make friends with the popular kids. I tried talking to them, and although they were chill enough, I knew I couldn't fit into their groups. I wondered why, but back then I was still oblivious to why I was being rejected indirectly and subconsciously. Because it was a private school, this time i suspected that it was status that didn't allow me to fit in with them, as my parents are retired middle middle class families. Eventually, i found my friend group whom I still am friends today, however I still cannot be like in the 'main' part of my group because of the image they first got of me 2 years ago; a fat, kind of weird and autistic, short, not ugly but 0 appeal no confidence incel that I was. However I was still delusional, and was bragging about my ex's and i's relationship, talking about how she gave me head and wanted to have sex with me but I declined as I try to be a good Christian or whatnot, in a desperate attempt to make them admire me, so that I may feel respected for once in my life by a group of people. This worked at first, but as my true face showed, I sucked at school soccer, a sport i've been playing at Academy level prior, and becoming even more fat after getting my first debit card and being able to purchase food, I became the groups' roasting and easy target. I knew it was all jokes and they only said mean stuffs cus I look like an easy target to pick on, and I do, but listening to crude jokes, laughing with them with a smile and crying like a pussy when I got home, my supposed new life here seemed no different. Girls at my school obviously also didn't work, and i haven't even talked or interacted with more than half my grade's girls even ONCE in the past 2 and half years. My confidence shattered, I considered MULTIPLE times throughout 2024's summer, did not get invited to any after school friend activities, parties, hangouts, got left out from everyone's inside jokes, multiple groupchats without me, being completely excluded from discussions and lunch. I sometimes sat alone in the bathroom, which smelled like shit, playing DLS 24 as it brought me extreme dopamine and brief happiness when I won a game against a bot on the games. Eventually, some friends who haven't had their first kiss until 2024 got their first hook ups, first party, than the second, and third, and fourth, and the girls and meetups kept on coming for them. I never asked, but I was hoping that maybe once, just once, these conventionally attractive normies would put me on, bring me on a 2 man, party, or any of the sort but that never ended up happening. I had to lie about my hook up count to seem cooler, again coping with fakeness and lies. This continued for another whole insufferable incel life year until the start of 2025. Something inside me snapped, and everything started to make sense. I learned about mewing in early summer days of 2025, and discovered com.
At similar times, I was just starting to feel confident at Day trading, which I had been learning since late 2024, and bought my first prop firm challenge, (which is where you get funded big bucks to trade for little commission when you pass their sort of test to prove your a good trader) and thought to myself, hey, why not try these looksmaxxing stuff? So I got a gym membership, a trainer from there and started working out, aiming for 10% BFP as I was at 20% when I first measured with the trainer. I started talking about my plans with this one extremely ND friend, and he introduced me to BP and the rabbit hole of looksmaxxing. At first, I felt even worse as I discovered about my recessed maxilla, terrible height, etc. But now, it serves me as fuel (NOT ROPEFUEL) to maximise the looks I was given, and to reach my highest potentials through various softmaxes. This friend took me on the first 2 man of my life with a bunch of jewish girls, and we had a good time together although neither of us talk to them aymore. End of summer, when BP started to go mainstream, I started looking deeper into the rabbit hole, discovering this forum. It was advised from guys online to not make an account here and post, but my heart got the best of me and made an account in august, which got rejected because of a non valid reason. So I made one on com instead, started posting and talking about things here and there, until someone told me to go check out org. That's why im here and research threads, things online that could potentially ascend me to a higher tier. Right now, people would say im LMTN or MMTN but that doesn't even matter since im Korean and asians have 0 appeal in Canada (all the k-pop fan girls only look at the top 1% surgery frauds i guess) and unfortunately my type is mostly white girls and middle eastern (cus of my ex). Now ik some of yall think and say never mix white, and ur probably got the right mindset, but it's just my preference and i've had two lucks before so leave me alone (also doesn't help i grew up in France most my life)
And my goal is to achieve LHTN or more, which i think would be possible since i don't have terrible bones and bonemass like most asians. Since early 2025, i've lost around 15-20 ibs, and my face is already starting to look less like a chopped basketball.
I'm already on ashwagandha, Magnesium and zinc, D3, monoxidil, benzoyl peroxide for my fucked up skin and hopped on carnivore a couple of weeks ago. also gym 3-4 times a week, no legs obviously. I've quit soccer completely, so maybe i'll add some cardio here and there as well. Thinking of roids soon, might hop on with a friend if we can also get cardiovascular health and hormonal support backups too.
And whenever i feel like eating junk food with friends, i remind myself by looking at my pictures from 1-2 years ago and i gag because of how hideous i looked back then. After this 3-5% ascension, the attitude people had towards my LTN fattie self changed a little bit. People started to compliment my looks for the first time in my life, and seem to include me more in their plans, justifying with "oh you got more social and chill than last year" but i already know their sunconscious reasons so i jus laugh it off
I went to my first ever halloween party in october, talked to a bunch of LTBs who approached me first and one HMTB greek girl whom i got the instagram that night. These sudden change of attitudes towards me and experiences made me realise that if I can reach my fullest looks potential, I genuenly might have a chance to start my life and start LIVING my own life. This is why I am so into and obsessed with it now, because as i'm almost 18, it seems like my last chance at living a life that treats you like a human being and not a joke.
Would all these thoughts and conclusions towards the direction of my life have been possible without the past experiences that shaped me for who i am today? Probably not. The fact that looksmaxxing is mainstream, (not saying I was super OG and niche) makes me feel really mad as people with normal functioning brain, people with normal thinking, who already fit in with their respective social groups do no need looksmaxxing at all. People who do not have any problems / experienced harsh realities of what being chopped is as bad as me will NEVER understand why people like me needed looksmaxxing in my life, nor would they be subject to comprehend, change, and work towards becoming a better person as a whole. I'm not saying i've fully ascended, but the weight loss and posture change and building my personality upon how I look and act has already made me experience things Ihave never before, like getting looks from freaky girls in younger grades and friends starting to aknowledge me as a human being and not just an easy joke target walking around with them as a side character. The fact that such little change has this significant shift in my life made me realise that I really need to lock in with bettering myself so that I may, as said before, have a chance of living a normal life that some people are simply born with. Although my looks put me at a disadvantage at start, with consistency, hard work and grind I could maximise what my parent's genes could pass down to me and hopefully, just hopefully, finally get a girl after these past 3 or 4 lonely, incel, fat chud life. Believe it or not, my grades are going up, i feel happy, i'm no longer rude to my parents, i quit drinking, smoking, becoming a nicer, more joyful person and sometimes i don't even need to pretend anymore with my normie friends as I can fully be autistic and weird with them, and they will no longer perceive me as just weird, but subconsciously note the fact that i'm no longer THAT ugly and fat and that my facial bones are starting to show.
I forgot what the main point of my venting journal was but again, everything i said here is a fiction, looks don't matter, and everyone should shut the hell up about looksmaxing in public. JFL
pov you talking about looksmaxing and rating normies:
I'm really tired right now but i have to write about this when i have it in my head, or its' never ever gonna come back out again so..
Clavicular and his frauding ego filled ass needs to fall down or some shi because the only reason looksmaxxing got mainstream is bc of him, just witnessed a bunch of international chinese kids joke about MTN and True Adam at my school lunch today and that made me so mad for some reason. The "do i have potential?" tiktok fraudcels and the fucking randoms rating them with ridiculous bumps and delusional thinking with 0 knowledge and IQ actually makes me so mad. OFC I don't actually get mad bc i don't want to have a high cortisol, but i do think these to myself everytime it happens and it makes me very angry
My normie friends are all sending me BP edits and i just tell them to get a job that these are bs that looks don't matter, but the amount of attention BP and looksmaxxing since october is getting is quite out of hand and sometimes dangerously disturbing.
Looksmaxxing is a belief and kind of lifestyle that is tied to science, harsh truth and a wake up call for those who want to maximise their potentials in their appearances by learning, adapting, and researching ways that will help them in their disadvantageous lives. I want to accentuate on disadvantageous life, because as a normie that fits into society without problem, looksmaxxing shouldn't even be known to them at all in the first place as their brains won't comprehend it at all.
Looksmaxxing should be introduced to those who suffered, experienced, and lived through the harsh events of life because of their looks, not to normies with mid IQ and who's personality and looks make them easy to fit into society, (generally speaking of fluffy hairs and dreadhead hoopers) who do not have a single issue or anything of the sort that brings them down to the bottom of the life's social pit.
I'll give myself as an example: I was first introduced to looksmaxxing late 2021, when I had a pretty bad breakup with my long term GF (haven't held hands ever since 2021) and I was bullied for the rest of the school year, as all her friends and her were 'popular', pretty, and handsome kids. They were all in most of my classes, which made my life miserable. Constant laughters behind my back, the eyes, pushing me in the hallways, intentionally screwing me over whenever i was trying to talk to anyone, and sabotaging my social life too. My parents eventually decidedto move schools and cities so I could start a better life there
.That's when i first learned about looksmaxxing on reddit, I thought to myself that these looksmaxxers were bs and unattractive and what matters is how you show yourself to others; this is true but obviously none of this would matter if I'm chopped asf. I started getting depression, faked my emotions infront of my parents so they wouldn't worry, and my friendgroup was reduced to 4 of autistic history nerds and a gymcel. I started finishing vapes after vapes, started drinking and cried myself to sleep countless times, all while blaming my ex and her friends, not realising that the problem was me. After my mental health was a little better, I tried talking to other girls from quick add, tried to 'rizz' my way up the social ladder in my school. Obviously, none of these worked because i'm not conventionally attractive. When these girls saw my face, it was always all over. There was this one girl I really thought was the prettiest, the nicest and frankly, our personalities matched pretty good too. She was Eastern Euopean, confident and brunette, which is basically my type. We talked for a couple of days, making me rush to my phone everytime I heard a buzz from my phone, texting while i eat, shower, shit, whatever and staying up until she slept first. Turned out she lived in my city, so I was so excited and wanted her to be my way out of my extremely sad school life. And then the question came; "wyll?".
When i did not see her response after opened 1 min ago, i was still hopeful. And then it became 10 mins, 1 hour, and eventually opened 1 day ago. And it was over.
I was wondering why, and I started by blaming my race. I've always lived outside my home country, and the difference on culture and looks always played a negative part of my life. When I was a kid i tried pulling my asian nose up so it would look like my classmates, tried to make my monolids eyes look bigger, intentionally avoiding other asian kids at school to prove myself that I wasn't like them, and even tried to cut my eyelids to make them appear like double eyelids. I wanted to be white, appreciated, fit in, and wanted to have female friends and girlfriends like all the other conventionally attractive guys i had as friends or acquiantances from school. I blamed God for making me a minority immigrant, short, fat, and ugly, and not even being gifted with the asian school smart brain, althought my IQ is above 130. I couldn't understand it at first, even tried to YN max by buying nike tech, acting tough when they picked on me, bringing knives to school, smoking in the bathroom, acting up in class and tried to join a small drug dealing gang in my school's neighbourhood, all a desperate attempt to get attentions from girls. Only if I realised that it was because i was a fat chud back then.
Of course, none of these bs worked and I just fucked up my rep even more and how people perceived me.Anyways by 2023, our family moved cities as they did not want me to keep being bullied at this school, so I came to my city now and really thought my new life here was going bo be amazing, just like how highschool was promised by seniors and movies. Oh I was so wrong. It was only the beginning of the year that I realised that the highschool life people see as a fun, social experience ONLY applied to popular, handsome and pretty kids. At my new school, (which i graduate from this year), I immediately noticed the seperated groups of nerds, international chinese kids, the popular kids and the average kids. I know its corny af to say popular kids but theres no other way to say this so bare with me
I could feel the popular kids judged everything the non-popular kids did, which were sometimes as simple as humming a tune in class, laughing at his phone, the way they would ask a question to a teacher, or anything that would be perceived as normal if that non-popular kid was not a sub 5 or hardstuck LTNs with a crazy autism about valorant and computer science. The way they chuckled and giggled at these poor kids, I realised I could be one of those kids soon if I didn't make friends with the popular kids. I tried talking to them, and although they were chill enough, I knew I couldn't fit into their groups. I wondered why, but back then I was still oblivious to why I was being rejected indirectly and subconsciously. Because it was a private school, this time i suspected that it was status that didn't allow me to fit in with them, as my parents are retired middle middle class families. Eventually, i found my friend group whom I still am friends today, however I still cannot be like in the 'main' part of my group because of the image they first got of me 2 years ago; a fat, kind of weird and autistic, short, not ugly but 0 appeal no confidence incel that I was. However I was still delusional, and was bragging about my ex's and i's relationship, talking about how she gave me head and wanted to have sex with me but I declined as I try to be a good Christian or whatnot, in a desperate attempt to make them admire me, so that I may feel respected for once in my life by a group of people. This worked at first, but as my true face showed, I sucked at school soccer, a sport i've been playing at Academy level prior, and becoming even more fat after getting my first debit card and being able to purchase food, I became the groups' roasting and easy target. I knew it was all jokes and they only said mean stuffs cus I look like an easy target to pick on, and I do, but listening to crude jokes, laughing with them with a smile and crying like a pussy when I got home, my supposed new life here seemed no different. Girls at my school obviously also didn't work, and i haven't even talked or interacted with more than half my grade's girls even ONCE in the past 2 and half years. My confidence shattered, I considered MULTIPLE times throughout 2024's summer, did not get invited to any after school friend activities, parties, hangouts, got left out from everyone's inside jokes, multiple groupchats without me, being completely excluded from discussions and lunch. I sometimes sat alone in the bathroom, which smelled like shit, playing DLS 24 as it brought me extreme dopamine and brief happiness when I won a game against a bot on the games. Eventually, some friends who haven't had their first kiss until 2024 got their first hook ups, first party, than the second, and third, and fourth, and the girls and meetups kept on coming for them. I never asked, but I was hoping that maybe once, just once, these conventionally attractive normies would put me on, bring me on a 2 man, party, or any of the sort but that never ended up happening. I had to lie about my hook up count to seem cooler, again coping with fakeness and lies. This continued for another whole insufferable incel life year until the start of 2025. Something inside me snapped, and everything started to make sense. I learned about mewing in early summer days of 2025, and discovered com.
At similar times, I was just starting to feel confident at Day trading, which I had been learning since late 2024, and bought my first prop firm challenge, (which is where you get funded big bucks to trade for little commission when you pass their sort of test to prove your a good trader) and thought to myself, hey, why not try these looksmaxxing stuff? So I got a gym membership, a trainer from there and started working out, aiming for 10% BFP as I was at 20% when I first measured with the trainer. I started talking about my plans with this one extremely ND friend, and he introduced me to BP and the rabbit hole of looksmaxxing. At first, I felt even worse as I discovered about my recessed maxilla, terrible height, etc. But now, it serves me as fuel (NOT ROPEFUEL) to maximise the looks I was given, and to reach my highest potentials through various softmaxes. This friend took me on the first 2 man of my life with a bunch of jewish girls, and we had a good time together although neither of us talk to them aymore. End of summer, when BP started to go mainstream, I started looking deeper into the rabbit hole, discovering this forum. It was advised from guys online to not make an account here and post, but my heart got the best of me and made an account in august, which got rejected because of a non valid reason. So I made one on com instead, started posting and talking about things here and there, until someone told me to go check out org. That's why im here and research threads, things online that could potentially ascend me to a higher tier. Right now, people would say im LMTN or MMTN but that doesn't even matter since im Korean and asians have 0 appeal in Canada (all the k-pop fan girls only look at the top 1% surgery frauds i guess
) and unfortunately my type is mostly white girls and middle eastern (cus of my ex). Now ik some of yall think and say never mix white, and ur probably got the right mindset, but it's just my preference and i've had two lucks before so leave me alone (also doesn't help i grew up in France most my life)And my goal is to achieve LHTN or more, which i think would be possible since i don't have terrible bones and bonemass like most asians. Since early 2025, i've lost around 15-20 ibs, and my face is already starting to look less like a chopped basketball.
I'm already on ashwagandha, Magnesium and zinc, D3, monoxidil, benzoyl peroxide for my fucked up skin and hopped on carnivore a couple of weeks ago. also gym 3-4 times a week, no legs obviously. I've quit soccer completely, so maybe i'll add some cardio here and there as well. Thinking of roids soon, might hop on with a friend if we can also get cardiovascular health and hormonal support backups too.
And whenever i feel like eating junk food with friends, i remind myself by looking at my pictures from 1-2 years ago and i gag because of how hideous i looked back then. After this 3-5% ascension, the attitude people had towards my LTN fattie self changed a little bit. People started to compliment my looks for the first time in my life, and seem to include me more in their plans, justifying with "oh you got more social and chill than last year" but i already know their sunconscious reasons so i jus laugh it off
I went to my first ever halloween party in october, talked to a bunch of LTBs who approached me first and one HMTB greek girl whom i got the instagram that night. These sudden change of attitudes towards me and experiences made me realise that if I can reach my fullest looks potential, I genuenly might have a chance to start my life and start LIVING my own life. This is why I am so into and obsessed with it now, because as i'm almost 18, it seems like my last chance at living a life that treats you like a human being and not a joke.
Would all these thoughts and conclusions towards the direction of my life have been possible without the past experiences that shaped me for who i am today? Probably not. The fact that looksmaxxing is mainstream, (not saying I was super OG and niche) makes me feel really mad as people with normal functioning brain, people with normal thinking, who already fit in with their respective social groups do no need looksmaxxing at all. People who do not have any problems / experienced harsh realities of what being chopped is as bad as me will NEVER understand why people like me needed looksmaxxing in my life, nor would they be subject to comprehend, change, and work towards becoming a better person as a whole. I'm not saying i've fully ascended, but the weight loss and posture change and building my personality upon how I look and act has already made me experience things Ihave never before, like getting looks from freaky girls in younger grades and friends starting to aknowledge me as a human being and not just an easy joke target walking around with them as a side character. The fact that such little change has this significant shift in my life made me realise that I really need to lock in with bettering myself so that I may, as said before, have a chance of living a normal life that some people are simply born with. Although my looks put me at a disadvantage at start, with consistency, hard work and grind I could maximise what my parent's genes could pass down to me and hopefully, just hopefully, finally get a girl after these past 3 or 4 lonely, incel, fat chud life. Believe it or not, my grades are going up, i feel happy, i'm no longer rude to my parents, i quit drinking, smoking, becoming a nicer, more joyful person and sometimes i don't even need to pretend anymore with my normie friends as I can fully be autistic and weird with them, and they will no longer perceive me as just weird, but subconsciously note the fact that i'm no longer THAT ugly and fat and that my facial bones are starting to show.
I forgot what the main point of my venting journal was but again, everything i said here is a fiction, looks don't matter, and everyone should shut the hell up about looksmaxing in public. JFL
pov you talking about looksmaxing and rating normies:
