loser

[chestermador]

i live the life of a bohemian goodlifer knowing damn well I am a subhuman with a decent background. any setbacks in my life i brush off as if it was divine intervention and it is meant to be this way, i am not even religious? the only way i justify being a failure is by thinking about my "good features" which are easily achievable by any regular joe willing to take better care of themselves. I actually do have nothing to live for and that why I don't gaf about anybody or anything but myself yet i continue to try maintaining some facade of being attractive and confident. The only person im fooling is myself my nigga people actually get scared when they see me and im sure can easily tell i am unsure of myself. the effect of positive reinforcement in your youth cant be understated and i am reminded every single day when im incapable of even making conversation with people I see daily