Loss of morale

[Happycel69]

Always been having great grades since being introduced to the concept of becoming a better person or whatever you wanna call it. It’s come at the cost of my happiness for but literal quality of life has improved academically socially and physically, but ya alone I’m sad as fuck with my thoughts . Fun with friends or contemporary moments are the only thing bringing proper also temporary joy. Either ways I strive to always just excel in whatever are my responsibilities. Today ( ik it sounds stupid as fuck but it’s just how I feel), I got a shitty as grade for an exam which I genuinely studied hard for. And this is coming from someone who went from like failing grades to top 1 percentile in under a year after my realisation, so I feel like fuck rn. Not like sad but empty as fuck right now. Wonder why the fuck I work tirelessly everyday. Anyways, I will do smth about it but ya my mental has somehow retarded once more after I thought it was at its absolute low already. Smth needs to save me lol