Lost my chance at 14 years old

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When I was like 12 to 15,I was really in to acting, I wasn't too bad, not good either. I was in this class for movie acting like 4 hours a week. When I just turned 14,my coach, probably the sweetest and most understanding women ever offerd me a role in a small german children / young teen shows as a side character. My nigga ass declined because I was an insecure idiot. Later I stopped cause I didn't think I had the looks or confidence. One of the guys also attending this class just got accepted in to germanys most prestigious actidng school and is frequently visting and working with guys in Babelsberg studios, germanys best film producer. I feel so retarded


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Especially because german productions often times aren't full of chads and Stacys like in Hollywood but htn and mtns since germans like their movies to be a bit closer to real life