Lucia (gta 6) is gonna be my first gf

[JBGpill]

Lucia from GTA 6 is genuinely going to be my first gf and I’m not sad but neither happy. I’m a khhv and I just think that others out there in the same position as me have never had someone to caress and love them which is really brutal if you think. You never got the trembling first hand hold under a streetlight at fifteen, palms slick with sweat while both of you pretended not to notice; never felt someone bury their face in your neck after a bad day and breathe like you were the only solid thing left; never tasted cherry lip gloss in a clumsy kiss behind the gym or heard your name spoken in that soft, half in love way that only happens when everything still feels infinite. Every dance, every party, every hallway glance that could have meant something passed you by, leaving the air around you permanently empty, so that now the places on your body that should have been mapped by another person’s hands remain blank and the knowledge sits in your bones that teenage love, the raw, free, stupidly tender kind, closed its window years ago and no amount of later touch can reopen it or erase the quiet, lifelong amputation of having arrived too late to a party that ended without you.