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Yo. Idk bro no offense to yall but I didn't think the day would come I'm venting here. I only got like one rly close friend who I can vent to like dis but he lives in another city now



Idrk what to do anymore. Past few months I was severely addicted to a pill (pregabalin) and experimented with some other drugs too. Parents found out + my self harm, and they sent me to therapy n stuff.



I got caught 4-5 times after and got beaten awfully, last time my mother literally watched me almost jump off the roof cuz she wouldn't stop beating me (they wouldn't let me go outside either) but my father came to his senses n stopped me



I was using drugs cuz I have severe anxiety issues, depression + suicidal thoughts and self harm since I was 11, and some other issues that are p much unfixable. Now I don't even have that pillar of support



Okay though, we move on. I'm studying multiple hours everyday now and scoring well in exams. But just a few hours ago I saw weird texts bw my father n some woman (not 1st time but i kept silent). Mother saw it. She acting depressed. She once told me she don't even care if he remarries but idk





TLDR: Point is IDK what to do. If I do drugs again my mother will probably leave the house (they won't kick me out even though I insist on getting a job). I will turn an adult when I'm 19 (legal issues) and my parents prob won't let me get a job till I finish uni. Plus I got a bunch of mental health issues and it's very hard for me to focus or study in general


(had to add bold text for ma low attention span brothers)
 
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Yo. Idk bro no offense to yall but I didn't think the day would come I'm venting here. I only got like one rly close friend who I can vent to like dis but he lives in another city now



Idrk what to do anymore. Past few months I was severely addicted to a pill (pregabalin) and experimented with some other drugs too. Parents found out + my self harm, and they sent me to therapy n stuff.



I got caught 4-5 times after and got beaten awfully, last time my mother literally watched me almost jump off the roof cuz she wouldn't stop beating me (they wouldn't let me go outside either) but my father came to his senses n stopped me



I was using drugs cuz I have severe anxiety issues, depression + suicidal thoughts and self harm since I was 11, and some other issues that are p much unfixable. Now I don't even have that pillar of support



Okay though, we move on. I'm studying multiple hours everyday now and scoring well in exams. But just a few hours ago I saw weird texts bw my father n some woman (not 1st time but i kept silent). Mother saw it. She acting depressed. She once told me she don't even care if he remarries but idk





TLDR: Point is IDK what to do. If I do drugs again my mother will probably leave the house (they won't kick me out even though I insist on getting a job). I will turn an adult when I'm 19 (legal issues) and my parents prob won't let me get a job till I finish uni. Plus I got a bunch of mental health issues and it's very hard for me to focus or study in general


(had to add bold text for ma low attention span brothers)
I take like 5 xans a day, AWESOMEEEEE!!!:soy:
 
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Jerk off to milf porn, steal old womens panties, sleep, eat, org
 
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I take like 5 xans a day, AWESOMEEEEE!!!:soy:
Ngl I was really creative with my hiding spots, would've never got caught if I wasn't walking around like a pocong on xanax 😭
 
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Man I can't even go out without giving them the number of every friend or without my parents standing outside the whole time. It's why I literally just stopped going out w frens since a few months
 
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Ngl I was really creative with my hiding spots, would've never got caught if I wasn't walking around like a pocong on xanax 😭
Bro I did meth xans and oxy all at once I COULNDT FUCKING WALK FELT COOL ASFFF
 
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Bro I did meth xans and oxy all at once I COULNDT FUCKING WALK FELT COOL ASFFF
man u a fiend 🙏 damn u quit now tho or...?
 
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man u a fiend 🙏 damn u quit now tho or...?
Hellll nahhhhhh I just don’t have an addictive personality so I do it like every 5 months if I have some
 
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Hellll nahhhhhh I just don’t have an addictive personality so I do it like every 5 months if I have some
wish I could say the same bro. first time I tried a vape I finished the whole cartridge in a day 😭 like idk 3k puffs at least
 
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wish I could say the same bro. first time I tried a vape I finished the whole cartridge in a day 😭 like idk 3k puffs at least
Hey man, that just means you have something to work on, you can do it bro. Only you have the power to take control of your life. On some life advice shit
 
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Hey man, that just means you have something to work on, you can do it bro. Only you have the power to take control of your life. On some life advice shit
For real, I appreciate that. Even tho u know what u gotta do it be easier said than done yfm? Gotta pull thru tho
 
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Nothing really to do keep taking the pregabalin tho it's good for your mental health
 
Everyone have anxiety
 
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Keep ur head up n don’t stop trying
 

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