MDMA Comedown...

[EverythingMattersCel]

Just like to get some shit off of my chest.

Took a pill of e tonight. It was alright... I guess. The vibe was dead. I am in comedown mode rn.

Some things really hit me.

In the club, I met with my roommate that I had stayed with last year. I helped this guy lose weight, got him on a gym program and was always there for him when he was down. Literally blanked me.

As we exit the club, a randomer saying he wanted to body slam me. I didn't even do anything to this guy...

FACEd a lot of rejection ofc. It's easy for everyone else. A chadlite prettyboy telling me of his exploits. Told me I just needed to grow my hair out and download TInder. Jfl, like my hair is going to fix my bone structure. He slayed 5 girls in a matter of 10 days in Milan. I can't get a single match on Tinder.

I just realised how out of place I am. How ugly and weird I am. No matter what I do... shit isn't going to change for me. I see the disgust and incongruencies that I induce on every level.

And at the end of the day, no one cares and why should they? Ppl got their own shit to deal with. If you're an ugly male and socially inept, life will be 10x though

 

[EverythingMattersCel]

Gonna go for a walk, praying I don't jump off the bridge of the train station.

 

[EverythingMattersCel]

Second thoughts. I am recovered now.

Just gotta listen to what my mum says. She tells me to stop being soft and a little bitch.

 

[EverythingMattersCel]

PPl have hacked me and are making fun of me. It sucks btw. This happens every accommodation I stay at. They hack me, insult me and mock me. Demonic ppl. Evil to the core.

 

[Moggie]

are you actually Austrian?