Me right now thinking about my life and inceldom

[johnsmithcel]

 

[Pendejo]

You are the biggest faggot on this forum.

 

[johnsmithcel]

You are the biggest faggot on this forum.

 

[Danish_Retard]

Stop thinking about it then faggot

It's all you ever think and talk about

 

[johnsmithcel]

Stop thinking about it then faggot

It's all you ever think and talk about

what's more there to think about?

 

[Danish_Retard]

what's more there to think about?

these balls on your face



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idk man. My loneliness from autism consumes my thoughts throughout the day and makes it extremely hard to be motivated to do anything I don't want to.
Why should I go to work to get plastic surgery when I will be as alone if I do it or not.
Why should I study, watching normies live their glorious lives from the outside while I feel like my brain is rotting.

Dropped out of education, don't have a job currently and I can't be bothered to find one. I'm just burning savings that I had put aside for surgery at this point. Basically all I do at this point is go to the gym and browse .org.

When it feels like all your suffering is pointless, when you get no reward for your suffering, it's really fucking hard to go on. But perhaps the reward for the suffering is simply to have suffered, to gain the insight or knowledge of having overcome the suffering.

idk man you gotta read Nietzsche like every other person that has given up does.

 

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fakecels.org

 

[Deleted member 24586]

Some days I am at peace with life whereas other days I truly can't believe I'm a khhv in my 20s and it makes me depressed

 

[johnsmithcel]

these balls on your face



...

idk man. My loneliness from autism consumes my thoughts throughout the day and makes it extremely hard to be motivated to do anything I don't want to.
Why should I go to work to get plastic surgery when I will be as alone if I do it or not.
Why should I study, watching normies live their glorious lives from the outside while I feel like my brain is rotting.

Dropped out of education, don't have a job currently and I can't be bothered to find one. I'm just burning savings that I had put aside for surgery at this point. Basically all I do at this point is go to the gym and browse .org.

When it feels like all your suffering is pointless, when you get no reward for your suffering, it's really fucking hard to go on. But perhaps the reward for the suffering is simply to have suffered, to gain the insight or knowledge of having overcome the suffering.

idk man you gotta read Nietzsche like every other person that has given up does.

yeah, basically how I feel. Why work hard when you can't play hard? It's not possible for anyone that isn't a complete schizo.
What were you studying and what age are you?
I feel I might drop out soon because all I can think about is inceldom. But once I drop out I may as well kill myself because then I automatically have 0 social life and will be working a shit job because no skills.

 

[Danish_Retard]

yeah, basically how I feel. Why work hard when you can't play hard? It's not possible for anyone that isn't a complete schizo.

idk about that tbh. When I die I want to be able to feel that I didn't wast the tiny amount of time I've been given. It is just that this crushing and immediate loneliness has put heavy chains on my mind.

If you are content not playing hard then you should look for the path of least resistance. IDK what you're studying but if you can finish it and work for a decade you could retire in a third world country. If you don't have the motivation at all I'd work a dead end job for 6-12 months and then live 1-2 years in a cheaper place, repeat till death or change of heart.
If you go to SEA, India or Africa you could find geniuine affection from whatever femcels inhabit these places, you could also just buy cheap hookers. More importantly you could live for 5€/day.

What were you studying and what age are you?

Gymnasiet, final year before university. I'm 19, I was 18 when I dropped out. I was planning on going into medicine and I had the grades for it. Before I knew I was autistic too, it was very painful to see NT's in friendships and romances, and not understanding why I was too broken to do any of that. At that point in my life I had not met a single person whom I had a more than surface level friendship with. (In which I was always masking)

So not much is lost, a year and my dignity.

What about you?

I feel I might drop out soon because all I can think about is inceldom. But once I drop out I may as well kill myself because then I automatically have 0 social life and will be working a shit job because no skills.

It is not worth it at all. Every day is somehow more boring and shit than the one before.

You get to experience having a bit of money, but now that you've experienced it you also know what you have to give up for 6 years when getting educated if you ever want to have more than just the tiniest bit. On the other hand you will then know the brutal monotomy and slave-like worth your seen as having in this type of job, which may help you finish whatever education you're pursuing.

Also, you're socially dead, no people the same age as you is working that dead end factory or warehouse job. And if you're incel you won't have the best time in costumer service or sales jobs. (Tho interestingly unattractive male bartenders earned equally as many tips as attractive male bartenders IIRC)

Whatever "friends" I have only come when I invite to stuff, I invite my friends every other week to play cards and talk because otherwise I have no social interactions at all outside of work. I am never invited to anything despite this.

Not to mention dating, you might have a chance of BB some becky if you're pursuing a non-shit degree, kiss that goodbye. Also when a girl asks you what you do, have fun answering that... Oh yeah, I'm on my 8th sabbatical year, gonna finish that education anytime soon!

 

[johnsmithcel]

idk about that tbh. When I die I want to be able to feel that I didn't wast the tiny amount of time I've been given. It is just that this crushing and immediate loneliness has put heavy chains on my mind.

If you are content not playing hard then you should look for the path of least resistance. IDK what you're studying but if you can finish it and work for a decade you could retire in a third world country. If you don't have the motivation at all I'd work a dead end job for 6-12 months and then live 1-2 years in a cheaper place, repeat till death or change of heart.
If you go to SEA, India or Africa you could find geniuine affection from whatever femcels inhabit these places, you could also just buy cheap hookers. More importantly you could live for 5€/day.

Yeah, tbh i'm already full of regrets and and i'm at an age when I don't have much more time. I need to act now. So i'm doing the best I am capable of without going way out of my comfort zone, which isn't all that much as an abused dog failure.
Fuck going to third world shitholes looking for whores pretending to love you. Might work for some but i'd rather kms.

Gymnasiet, final year before university. I'm 19, I was 18 when I dropped out. I was planning on going into medicine and I had the grades for it. Before I knew I was autistic too, it was very painful to see NT's in friendships and romances, and not understanding why I was too broken to do any of that. At that point in my life I had not met a single person whom I had a more than surface level friendship with. (In which I was always masking)

So not much is lost, a year and my dignity.

What about you?

Well at least you got good grades. That's more than I can say. by the end of highschool, I had zero motivation to do anything. Skipped some final exams and others I wrote down a few words and left. I was way too depressed. I'm doing a codecel degree now.
If you have the brains and some motivation, you should look to get back into it.

 

[Time]

I try not to think about it because of suicidal thoughts.

Then again, it's all I can think about.