misery

[Nixytorus]

I’ve posted once before months ago. I took Reta with my only friend and we got caught. I got everything taken away from me and I was no longer allowed to talk to my friend anymore. I now have gotten most of my stuff back, but I'm completely isolated and alone. I see people on Insta with their friends going out everyday. I wake up and just feel constant misery. I don't know what to do with my life and wonder everyday if things will change, but nothing has. I'm sick of people treating me like I'm not human. Even though I don't talk to anyone to avoid being judged, my uncle tells me I didn't even look human when my hair was long. I CUT MY HAIR A WEEK AGO. I can't stop thinking about my past and everyone that publicly humiliated me, especially in 8th grade. The worst parts about that year is that everyone would make fun of me in group chats or in class—really everywhere. I was even jumped because people thought it would be funny. And there were these girls that came up to me in class and started rubbing my shoulders and jokingly calling me hot and cute while the other was laughing, but no one seemed to care and just looked and smiled. I don't know how to stop thinking about all these times everyday and I wish my life would end in my sleep.

 

[BK..]

My dms are open bro if u need someone to talk to hope everything gets better

 

[BleoodyOver]

I’ve posted once before months ago. I took Reta with my only friend and we got caught. I got everything taken away from me and I was no longer allowed to talk to my friend anymore. I now have gotten most of my stuff back, but I'm completely isolated and alone. I see people on Insta with their friends going out everyday. I wake up and just feel constant misery. I don't know what to do with my life and wonder everyday if things will change, but nothing has. I'm sick of people treating me like I'm not human. Even though I don't talk to anyone to avoid being judged, my uncle tells me I didn't even look human when my hair was long. I CUT MY HAIR A WEEK AGO. I can't stop thinking about my past and everyone that publicly humiliated me, especially in 8th grade. The worst parts about that year is that everyone would make fun of me in group chats or in class—really everywhere. I was even jumped because people thought it would be funny. And there were these girls that came up to me in class and started rubbing my shoulders and jokingly calling me hot and cute while the other was laughing, but no one seemed to care and just looked and smiled. I don't know how to stop thinking about all these times everyday and I wish my life would end in my sleep.

fuck your uncle what others say doesnt even mean shit anyways just work on yourself and if shit gets bad try find a therapist but shit wont get better if you wont change been through this