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I am Richard
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ive been asexual for this 3 months , but suddenly a few days ago my asexuality was interrupted by urges . i resisted , just age regression ASMRmaxxed which distracted & comforted me . but all this did was delay the inevitable , apparently . last night i awoke & couldnt sleep , i just had to coom . i hadnt felt this in a while , since being asexual ive been a robotmaxxed efficientcel . i was thinking : i must get sex , masturbation bad . i just thot of getting outside & like getting some random female . but this couldnt work out , & thinking about this was anti satisfaction & made me more sexual . so i take 40 mg melatonin to maybe suppress sex drive , it not work . i grab mirror & have dim light so i cant see my hairy legs & i put my chest at an angle so it looks feminine , this make me turned on & i end up kissing the feminine creature i see in the mirror . brutal , 3 months nofap broken . well now i just computermax read semantic scholar cuz y not . at least i find some big breaktrhoughs about melatonin . but oh no i get urge again , im thinking like that mirror is a female cuz my sexual brain is dumb & tricked easily now i coom again . this time its worse tho cuz not all of it go into the cup so i cant regain fully the nutrients . i take like 50 mg more melatonin to counter the pro ageing effect of sexual . by this time its day time & now i feel bad cuz melatonin makeing me biologically percieve it night , so like its harder to think & i feel grumpy . i will become asexual again , i cant be ageing faster .
