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So I came across this post https://looksmax.org/threads/truth-...oing-it-wrong-as-an-htn-low-chadlite.1530878/. Reading through it spiked my cortisol like nothing else. During this summer I had two girls that I sort of fumbled that showed interest, while for one of them she made it easy it felt like a chore having to remember all this YBC pua stuff. At some point she invited me to her place after we had dinner (I had been in her place before tho, but this time she asked for us to watch a movie). I feel like I kind of sperged out as I talked too much and while we made out, when I tried to take her pants off it was a hard no. She eventually had to move away from the area I was in for school. I feel like I fucked up by not being lower inhib, but part of me thinks its cope and related to my looks (mtn manlet, mayo).
The second girl she would come over to mine before we would go out with mutual friends. We had gone out on a date one on one and we would spend time, but I couldn't tell with her. After our "date" she slept on my shoulder during our bus ride, we went shopping but I think I fucked up by doing redpill cringe after I said no to carrying her shopping bag. There were moments I could have kissed her when I dropped her off but i dont know. I kind of second guessed myself.
The brutal part is that I am still hung up on these two foids and both have ghosted me at this point (the second girl hits me up sometimes but for the most part I am in the cuck zone). I have brutal oneitis for both. Reading the above post made me realize I will never be a low inhib flirter, and in my late 20s I feel my inhibition rising more and more. This redpill shit is more brutal than the blackpill for me if I am honest, like the thought of foids just fucking attractive guys is nothing for me. But her fucking low inhib guys who treat her like shit makes me feel more of a certain way. I am too much of a cuck mentally and get attached way too quick. Anyway sorry for the faggot diary post but yeah, how the fuck can I lower inhibition. I am currently back in my hometown rotting at home, and my motivation to talk to foids is all time low. Saving up for some surgeries but I feel like its cope, my problem is I am a neurotic faggot. Over for romancecels
The second girl she would come over to mine before we would go out with mutual friends. We had gone out on a date one on one and we would spend time, but I couldn't tell with her. After our "date" she slept on my shoulder during our bus ride, we went shopping but I think I fucked up by doing redpill cringe after I said no to carrying her shopping bag. There were moments I could have kissed her when I dropped her off but i dont know. I kind of second guessed myself.
The brutal part is that I am still hung up on these two foids and both have ghosted me at this point (the second girl hits me up sometimes but for the most part I am in the cuck zone). I have brutal oneitis for both. Reading the above post made me realize I will never be a low inhib flirter, and in my late 20s I feel my inhibition rising more and more. This redpill shit is more brutal than the blackpill for me if I am honest, like the thought of foids just fucking attractive guys is nothing for me. But her fucking low inhib guys who treat her like shit makes me feel more of a certain way. I am too much of a cuck mentally and get attached way too quick. Anyway sorry for the faggot diary post but yeah, how the fuck can I lower inhibition. I am currently back in my hometown rotting at home, and my motivation to talk to foids is all time low. Saving up for some surgeries but I feel like its cope, my problem is I am a neurotic faggot. Over for romancecels
