My body is hideous

[Soda_Pepsi]

My entire body is filled with old scars I made on my body while growing up. Caused by the self hate I've had my whole life. The voice reminding me of what a fucking weirdo I am. Always wanted to attempt but I chose to destroy my body as punishment for what I am...a freak. I lie to my parents about the old scars, convincing them that I don't remember how I got them. They never suspected a thing, since I never got enough attention from them anyways. It hurts sure, but I don't want them to think I'm weak for what I've done.

I remember requesting therapy once or twice from my mother but it never happened. This was the time I hit rock bottom.

Girls would be thrown off because of my weird behaviour. I wasn't touching them or getting too close. I think it's how I always carried myself...A loser.

It makes me wonder that nobody will truly love or respect me because of what I've done to myself.

I have tendencies to go back and cause harm to myself cause I've had enough with this internal pain.
I lost sense of everything.

Anyways...This thread won't be seen but just throwing it out there.

 

[fynn]

My entire body is filled with old scars I made on my body while growing up. Caused by the self hate I've had my whole life. The voice reminding me of what a fucking weirdo I am. Always wanted to attempt but I chose to destroy my body as punishment for what I am...a freak. I lie to my parents about the old scars, convincing them that I don't remember how I got them. They never suspected a thing, since I never got enough attention from them anyways. It hurts sure, but I don't want them to think I'm weak for what I've done.

I remember requesting therapy once or twice from my mother but it never happened. This was the time I hit rock bottom.

Girls would be thrown off because of my weird behaviour. I wasn't touching them or getting too close. I think it's how I always carried myself...A loser.

It makes me wonder that nobody will truly love or respect me because of what I've done to myself.

I have tendencies to go back and cause harm to myself cause I've had enough with this internal pain.
I lost sense of everything.

Anyways...This thread won't be seen but just throwing it out there.

spotify hit a banger out while i was reading this

just remember to never rope or anything like that

 

[Soda_Pepsi]

spotify hit a banger out while i was reading this

just remember to never rope or anything like that

I'm just tired of never being happy. I'm seriously done with the "It'll get better" cope. I don't see a way I can find peace

 

[fynn]

I'm just tired of never being happy. I'm seriously done with the "It'll get better" cope. I don't see a way I can find peace

well ik it doesnt compare to your problems but i once was extremly broken over a girl she was worth so much to me and she just dropped me like i was nothing to her. i didnt go out for months stopped eating had close to none social contact to anyone she continued to make my life hell for the past two years sending me pics of her with a different dude and shi i was so down i didnt let anyone close to me but after time past i got back to hanging out every month once than every week and so on. it all turned out for the better i still wont let anyone come close to me like she did but at least i learnd form it. i think its not cope to say it'll get better soon bc at some point it will so i would never end it or anything like that bc theres so much in live i havent done that i wanna do.

prolly didnt help at all but i just wanted to share ig

 

[Soda_Pepsi]

well ik it doesnt compare to your problems but i once was extremly broken over a girl she was worth so much to me and she just dropped me like i was nothing to her. i didnt go out for months stopped eating had close to none social contact to anyone she continued to make my life hell for the past two years sending me pics of her with a different dude and shi i was so down i didnt let anyone close to me but after time past i got back to hanging out every month once than every week and so on. it all turned out for the better i still wont let anyone come close to me like she did but at least i learnd form it. i think its not cope to say it'll get better soon bc at some point it will so i would never end it or anything like that bc theres so much in live i havent done that i wanna do.

prolly didnt help at all but i just wanted to share ig

Really sorry to hear that man. I feel like what you're telling me is the feeling might be temporary. Either way I appreciate your input, glad things are okay with you

 

[fynn]

Really sorry to hear that man. I feel like what you're telling me is the feeling might be temporary. Either way I appreciate your input, glad things are okay with you

thanks man hope things will get better soon

 

[romanstock]

Just say, if ever asked, 'from my time in prison, but I prefer not to talk about that.' This will lend a mysterious aura to your personhood.

 

[Soda_Pepsi]

Just say, if ever asked, 'from my time in prison, but I prefer not to talk about that.' This will lend a mysterious aura to your personhood.

That can work tbh. Thanks Einstein

 

[DrRodger]

It'll heal bro