
CriminalLurker
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Ive never been an emotional guy but my cat died less than 2 hours ago it just feels like im in the wrong timeline. Like it was so random I came home from school booted up my pc played for a lil bit and then I hear my mum shouting from outside "God no, Ive killed it, I've killed it" like distressed and sad. I thought it was a joke or maybe thats what I wanted to believe but I looked outside and I saw the body of my cat just laying there blood everywhere.
it was raining too.. The blood just sat on top of the rain gaining size with every min. It jolted for a little second I thought it might still be alive but then.. nothing. My mum had run over the cat and it died just like that,
The one day she doesnt check under the car... One day is all it takes. She was just completely stiff, think of a dead bird that was my cat. It just felt weird to look at, a sentient being that was licking my hand, sleeping next to me, purring and showing affection not even a day ago, gone just like that.
I put her body into a plastic bag, and then into my shoe box so I could bury it in the backyard. Bro... I didnt cry but it just felt empty. And everytime i try focus on doing something i just get these random feelings of emptiness and just mood switches.
I tried to eat and I literally couldnt. Because all I could think about was the times I used to feed her, Bro my favourite feature about her was her bright green eyes always staring at me, yet one of her eyeballs is completely popped out, when I saw that I retched, the other eyeball is just fully drowning in blood staring aimlessly. i feel sick to my stomach. I just sat down on the floor looking at her body in the plastic bag. My other cat that played with her everyday was meowing for her but he will never get a meow back he saw her dead body but tried to lick it I doubt he even knows shes dead.
Anyway im writing this post right now because its gotten to the point i get sick at the thought of eating. I've never had anyone or anything die in my life until today so I dont know how to deal with this, what should I do
it was raining too.. The blood just sat on top of the rain gaining size with every min. It jolted for a little second I thought it might still be alive but then.. nothing. My mum had run over the cat and it died just like that,
The one day she doesnt check under the car... One day is all it takes. She was just completely stiff, think of a dead bird that was my cat. It just felt weird to look at, a sentient being that was licking my hand, sleeping next to me, purring and showing affection not even a day ago, gone just like that.
I put her body into a plastic bag, and then into my shoe box so I could bury it in the backyard. Bro... I didnt cry but it just felt empty. And everytime i try focus on doing something i just get these random feelings of emptiness and just mood switches.
I tried to eat and I literally couldnt. Because all I could think about was the times I used to feed her, Bro my favourite feature about her was her bright green eyes always staring at me, yet one of her eyeballs is completely popped out, when I saw that I retched, the other eyeball is just fully drowning in blood staring aimlessly. i feel sick to my stomach. I just sat down on the floor looking at her body in the plastic bag. My other cat that played with her everyday was meowing for her but he will never get a meow back he saw her dead body but tried to lick it I doubt he even knows shes dead.
Anyway im writing this post right now because its gotten to the point i get sick at the thought of eating. I've never had anyone or anything die in my life until today so I dont know how to deal with this, what should I do