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My life isn’t even going bad rn. This should be the best I’ve felt in a very long time. The only way that I feel that is how it’s easier to pretend I’m happy.
Life is going pretty decent, I’ve stopped lurking on SS, and I’m not in any trouble or fights rn, I’m just not happy with it.
It’s easy for me to pretend to feel however I want. I don’t need to think about my expression, body language, or speech. I can just choose how I want people to view my emotion as that moment or day.
But I don’t feel anything. I’m think I’ve ruined myself from so much faking happy that I can’t be real happy. I just feel nothing, like there’s a cavity in my chest
Idk I just feel like I expired. My body forgot how to feel, my brain forgot what it likes about my looks, and I forgot how to cope.
It’s so cold in my room too. I hate it
Life is going pretty decent, I’ve stopped lurking on SS, and I’m not in any trouble or fights rn, I’m just not happy with it.
It’s easy for me to pretend to feel however I want. I don’t need to think about my expression, body language, or speech. I can just choose how I want people to view my emotion as that moment or day.
But I don’t feel anything. I’m think I’ve ruined myself from so much faking happy that I can’t be real happy. I just feel nothing, like there’s a cavity in my chest
Idk I just feel like I expired. My body forgot how to feel, my brain forgot what it likes about my looks, and I forgot how to cope.
It’s so cold in my room too. I hate it
