My cosmetic surgery is getting delayed [Serious]

[Prøphet]

I am extremely distraught rn

I probably will get delayed for my strabismus surgery because I am sick rn

Have been waiting for a year

Literally just doing nothing with my life waiting for this

And the surgery date was perfect

I had a plan it was perfect

I was so excited

To begin my life

Fuck

Now I have to piss away more of my limited time here just waiting and staying a subhuman in the meantime

Lost time is never gained back and it hurts more and more every day

I’m just falling more and more behind

I don’t know why I bother fighting when I have such misfortune always in my life

It’s all useless

I’m just some genetic mistake pissing away everything to try and stay afloat

 

[Prøphet]

I hope all this suffering is worth it

I dream for a day where I can even be average

That would be heaven for me

But first

So much suffering ahead of me

 

[cortisolman2]

I am extremely distraught rn

I probably will get delayed for my strabismus surgery because I am sick rn

Have been waiting for a year

Literally just doing nothing with my life waiting for this

And the surgery date was perfect

I had a plan it was perfect

I was so excited

To begin my life

Fuck

Now I have to piss away more of my limited time here just waiting and staying a subhuman in the meantime

Lost time is never gained back and it hurts more and more every day

I don’t know why I bother fighting when I have such misfortune always in my life

It’s all useless

I’m just some genetic mistake pissing away everything to try and stay afloat

 

[chang cypionate]

Serious

 

[Canthus23]

worth the wait

 

[Prøphet]

@cortisolman2

1/6

 

[cortisolman2]

@cortisolman2

1/6

?

 

[Prøphet]

Serious

My life is crumbling apart

Actually it already has

And I’m so ugly even my own family doesnt give a shit about me

Nobody cares and no one is. Coming to save me

Only I can do it

But I don’t have the things I need to even start

Because of my deformities

 

[Prøphet]

?

1 for 6

 

[cortisolman2]

1 for 6

1 for 6 i dont get the reference elaborate

 

[valentine]

don't lose hope you'll still get it and ascend
this is just another retarded test from life
life is a joke

 

[Prøphet]

worth the wait

I’m still gonna be fucking hideous even after this surgery

Just at least I won’t look retarded

I need to do jaw surgery next and I haven’t even started

Because I’m afraid

Of the pain

But the pain of being subhuman is worse

I’m kind of going crazy looking at all the time lost / wasted

I lost my youth

For what

For nothing

 

[Prøphet]

1 for 6 i dont get the reference elaborate

Your pic was only accurate for one of the points

 

[killuacel]

brutal

I had that surgery when I was younger, thankfully covered by healthcare so i didn't have to pay

 

[cortisolman2]

Your pic was only accurate for one of the points

yes so your still a fag

 

[Acquiescence]

At least ur not halfway to 30…

 

[cortisolman2]

brutal

I had that surgery when I was younger, thankfully covered by healthcare so i didn't have to pay

what did you get?

 

[Prøphet]

don't lose hope you'll still get it and ascend
this is just another retarded test from life
life is a joke

Man I’m going insane

I’m about to be so old

I’ll never be here again, I’ll never be this young again, I’m just forced to wait and I literally am so ugly that I can’t go outside it’s fucking crippling people think I’m retarded when they see how crosseyed I am so I can’t even be around people without panicking

My life is extremely grim this is my only hope and my only way out and now I just have to sit in this misery for longer I almost can’t bear it

 

[Sub->CL]

When I was 16, surgery for my deformity was denied.

Have been LDARing since then, quite recently I had imaging again and it will be covered by insurance, I have it scheduled in a few months.

I hate waiting.

 

[killuacel]

what did you get?

strabismus surgery

 

[Prøphet]

brutal

I had that surgery when I was younger, thankfully covered by healthcare so i didn't have to pay

Yes Same here this is my 2nd time

And I don’t have to pay luckily

But I’m going crazy from how long I have to wait

I’m gonna cry bro I literally can’t go outside I can’t talk to people I can’t look in the mirror I just want to rot in my bed but it’s such a fucking waste this shit doesnt make any sense

 

[killuacel]

Yes Same here this is my 2nd time

And I don’t have to pay luckily

But I’m going crazy from how long I have to wait

I’m gonna cry bro I literally can’t go outside I can’t talk to people I can’t look in the mirror I just want to rot in my bed but it’s such a fucking waste this shit doesnt make any sense

Fuck this illness you have

 

[Prøphet]

At least ur not halfway to 30…

I mean by the time I manage to salvage some semblance of a normal life and get all my surgeries I’ll probably be there

Hopefully I won’t take it for granted once my eyes can be straight

At least that

Even being ltn is ok with me

It’s at least bearable

 

[Prøphet]

When I was 16, surgery for my deformity was denied.

Have been LDARing since then, quite recently I had imaging again and it will be covered by insurance, I have it scheduled in a few months.

I hate waiting.

Good luck man

What deformity

I really regret ldaring but at the same time there was really no other way

 

[Canthus23]

I’m still gonna be fucking hideous even after this surgery

Just at least I won’t look retarded

I need to do jaw surgery next and I haven’t even started

Because I’m afraid

Of the pain

But the pain of being subhuman is worse

I’m kind of going crazy looking at all the time lost / wasted

I lost my youth

For what

For nothing

you will still look better, thats all that matters

 

[Prøphet]

yes so your still a fag

Dragging

 

[Sub->CL]

Good luck man

What deformity

I really regret ldaring but at the same time there was really no other way

I have the Nuss for Pectus Excavatum pretty soon. I have two other deformities, jaw (from a disease I had as a kid) and ears (mild and I cover it with my hair, but will pay for private surgery). I'm seeing a jaw surgeon soon though but no plans yet.

I regret LDARing too, sometimes my mind even wanders to the point of wishing I worked harder and tried to be normal in school.
Try to take it easy on yourself, it's not your fault, I spend my time either learning or doing random stuff high (like use looksmax.org).

 

[xye]

I have the Nuss for Pectus Excavatum pretty soon. I have two other deformities, jaw (from a disease I had as a kid) and ears (mild and I cover it with my hair, but will pay for private surgery). I'm seeing a jaw surgeon soon though but no plans yet.

I regret LDARing too, sometimes my mind even wanders to the point of wishing I worked harder and tried to be normal in school.
Try to take it easy on yourself, it's not your fault, I spend my time either learning or doing random stuff high (like use looksmax.org).

So you have 3 deformities?

 

[Sub->CL]

So you have 3 deformities?

I have more
but those 3 are the only ones that look bad so they're all I care about

 

[valentine]

Man I’m going insane

I’m about to be so old

I’ll never be here again, I’ll never be this young again, I’m just forced to wait and I literally am so ugly that I can’t go outside it’s fucking crippling people think I’m retarded when they see how crosseyed I am so I can’t even be around people without panicking

My life is extremely grim this is my only hope and my only way out and now I just have to sit in this misery for longer I almost can’t bear it

same i just refuse to socialize until I'm in my prime because i think then it will be easier
but it's retarded and a mental trap and i can't stop thinking that way even if i know it's dumb

you're very young. you only think you'll soon be old because most people put zero effort into maintaining their youth so their looks expire around 25. they're all fat and always stressed and have shit diets and no skincare

barrett is 30, thom strijd is 33, prime ian was in his 30s, prime bomer was 32