My death would be a great blessing

[.*my*.]

God has cursed me and made my life a living hell. My parents didn’t work out, I had low T as a teen, my left nut is smaller than my right because I had varicocele, my friends didn’t work out, I don’t live where I’m supposed to, I can’t develop any skills, I got dumped 15 times by girls, I have no motivation or desire to live. I gained 25 pounds of fat on antidepressants and now I can’t lose it.

I hope that K get cancer because I’m tired