Primary/Middle school
I was born with a facial deformity, condition where no one in my family has. A 0.01% condition called cleft lip and palate, 1 out of 700 people have it. I’ve only met 3 people in my life that have it. Life was fucking brutal the moment I was born I had to get 3 cosmetic surgeries to fix my deformed ass face. I still remember back in primary school I got called donkey nose by this kid, I cried my eyes out when I got back home to my mom and told her what happened. I still remember his name until this day. Due to my condition I had a hard time speaking and it was difficult for people to understand what I was saying. I remember when I was year 3 I had to repeat what I said to the teacher 3 or more times for them to understand. From that moment I’ve been insecure about my voice my whole life. Even in primary it was fucking hell, girls would stare at me with disgust, this girl even asked if I showered one time in assembly when I was around year4. I switched schools in year 5 for a better education. Since it was a relatively small school there were not many girls, bc of the high inhibition I developed early on I was scared to talk to them I realised I had social anxiety. This mainly became noticeable when I was constantly sweating when I was in public thinking everyone was staring at my ugly ass fucking face. I don’t even know why I was born on this planet if I was this fucking ugly. This condition became my worse insecurity, mainly my nose and mouth. Then covid hit, we had to wear masks and I was so fucking happy I could hide my ugly deform ass behind a mask. I genuinely felt so much better about myself when I was allow to go out occasionally. A clear memory I had was when I got in trouble during online classes where I didn’t turn on my camera, not because I was gaming but rather it was because I genuinely couldn’t fucking stand looking at my face and the fact that everyone could see my face, I got in trouble so many times but it was worth it.
Highschool
High school was a different story, in year 9 everyone towered over me majority were over 6ft that started my insecurity for my height. Early 2024 was my first encounter with looksmaxxing and I saw it on TikTok. I didn’t think much of it at first but I kept it in the back of my mind. Highschool was the worse of them all. I was bullied for the whole of year9 not even by older people but by the people that were my age at the time. They would constantly pick on me and call me names, they called me like shit face, or some deformed derogatory terms. I tried to fight back but they were towering over me bc I’m a fucking manlet. I also only had one girl interacting with me at the time, she was my friend and my only friend that was a female. I made some pretty good friends and was in my tiny social circle for the rest of the year while being bullied. I told the teacher and emailed them so many times and they had no fucking empathy and could not gaf about my situation, all they did was a little telling off and they kept bullying me. In year 10 I started doing calisenthics as I was a weak ass bitch and skinny asf, overall the months I gained a decently mid physique I could do the one arm pushups and 20kg weighted pushups and shit. I started building muscle, a bit by bit. During camp everyone was surprised at my build, over the course of those months I gained sm progress and genuinely felt good about taking my shirt off for once. During the start of 2025 I started looksmaxxing as well, I found a haircut which suited me, I built muscle, I switched to a carnivore diet + fruit + carbs, I drank milk, I slept well and started doing skincare shit. It worked really well, I genuinely ascended a bit and the people that use to bully me didn’t bully me anymore. I was genuinely proud of my progress. During around July 2025 I tried bonesmashing, I heard lots about it prior to this but I didn’t believe the bullshit they were saying. I picked up the hammer and started on my zygos first. I try to find a guide on TikTok and followed it, i braced my head and allat. The immediate swelling made me addicted and it hurted sm at first. I still do it until this day and it genuinely works although it’s not bone, but the scar tissue mimicking bone works wonders. I started hammering other areas as well and my bone structure improved a lot. From a boneless ugly bitch to getting compliments on my cheekbones. I got my first gf at 15yo and the first time we cuddles, I cried in her arms, I genuinely teared up, how could someone love my ugly face, but she thought I was handsome, in her eyes I was handsome, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, I saw that somewhere I while ago. She was perfect, she talks to no guys, has no hbs, only has eyes for me I genuinely felt so accomplished for the first time in my life. I opened up to her about my insecurities and she said she loved them and that she loves me. After years and years of fucking suffering I’ve found true love and I’ve ascended and there’s still more to go. I have a Lefort surgery planned when I’m 17 and a rhino at 17 as well. I’ll make updates when the surgery procedure is finished.
Ive shared my experience here so people can unfortunately relate and realise there is still hope left.
I was born with a facial deformity, condition where no one in my family has. A 0.01% condition called cleft lip and palate, 1 out of 700 people have it. I’ve only met 3 people in my life that have it. Life was fucking brutal the moment I was born I had to get 3 cosmetic surgeries to fix my deformed ass face. I still remember back in primary school I got called donkey nose by this kid, I cried my eyes out when I got back home to my mom and told her what happened. I still remember his name until this day. Due to my condition I had a hard time speaking and it was difficult for people to understand what I was saying. I remember when I was year 3 I had to repeat what I said to the teacher 3 or more times for them to understand. From that moment I’ve been insecure about my voice my whole life. Even in primary it was fucking hell, girls would stare at me with disgust, this girl even asked if I showered one time in assembly when I was around year4. I switched schools in year 5 for a better education. Since it was a relatively small school there were not many girls, bc of the high inhibition I developed early on I was scared to talk to them I realised I had social anxiety. This mainly became noticeable when I was constantly sweating when I was in public thinking everyone was staring at my ugly ass fucking face. I don’t even know why I was born on this planet if I was this fucking ugly. This condition became my worse insecurity, mainly my nose and mouth. Then covid hit, we had to wear masks and I was so fucking happy I could hide my ugly deform ass behind a mask. I genuinely felt so much better about myself when I was allow to go out occasionally. A clear memory I had was when I got in trouble during online classes where I didn’t turn on my camera, not because I was gaming but rather it was because I genuinely couldn’t fucking stand looking at my face and the fact that everyone could see my face, I got in trouble so many times but it was worth it.
Highschool
High school was a different story, in year 9 everyone towered over me majority were over 6ft that started my insecurity for my height. Early 2024 was my first encounter with looksmaxxing and I saw it on TikTok. I didn’t think much of it at first but I kept it in the back of my mind. Highschool was the worse of them all. I was bullied for the whole of year9 not even by older people but by the people that were my age at the time. They would constantly pick on me and call me names, they called me like shit face, or some deformed derogatory terms. I tried to fight back but they were towering over me bc I’m a fucking manlet. I also only had one girl interacting with me at the time, she was my friend and my only friend that was a female. I made some pretty good friends and was in my tiny social circle for the rest of the year while being bullied. I told the teacher and emailed them so many times and they had no fucking empathy and could not gaf about my situation, all they did was a little telling off and they kept bullying me. In year 10 I started doing calisenthics as I was a weak ass bitch and skinny asf, overall the months I gained a decently mid physique I could do the one arm pushups and 20kg weighted pushups and shit. I started building muscle, a bit by bit. During camp everyone was surprised at my build, over the course of those months I gained sm progress and genuinely felt good about taking my shirt off for once. During the start of 2025 I started looksmaxxing as well, I found a haircut which suited me, I built muscle, I switched to a carnivore diet + fruit + carbs, I drank milk, I slept well and started doing skincare shit. It worked really well, I genuinely ascended a bit and the people that use to bully me didn’t bully me anymore. I was genuinely proud of my progress. During around July 2025 I tried bonesmashing, I heard lots about it prior to this but I didn’t believe the bullshit they were saying. I picked up the hammer and started on my zygos first. I try to find a guide on TikTok and followed it, i braced my head and allat. The immediate swelling made me addicted and it hurted sm at first. I still do it until this day and it genuinely works although it’s not bone, but the scar tissue mimicking bone works wonders. I started hammering other areas as well and my bone structure improved a lot. From a boneless ugly bitch to getting compliments on my cheekbones. I got my first gf at 15yo and the first time we cuddles, I cried in her arms, I genuinely teared up, how could someone love my ugly face, but she thought I was handsome, in her eyes I was handsome, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, I saw that somewhere I while ago. She was perfect, she talks to no guys, has no hbs, only has eyes for me I genuinely felt so accomplished for the first time in my life. I opened up to her about my insecurities and she said she loved them and that she loves me. After years and years of fucking suffering I’ve found true love and I’ve ascended and there’s still more to go. I have a Lefort surgery planned when I’m 17 and a rhino at 17 as well. I’ll make updates when the surgery procedure is finished.
Ive shared my experience here so people can unfortunately relate and realise there is still hope left.
nice glow up good ending mirin
