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“Rage, rage against the dying of the light”
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Whether it be through clothes, hobbies, how I spoke to people, the music I allowed myself to consume, even the personality I tried to put on myself, I always chose the safe option rather than what I wanted
I always felt limited in how I could portray myself, because the most fundamental aspects of me, bones and brains, were inferior beyond repair. I was beaten into conformity and the surrender of who I am because of all the times I stood out in a bad way.
Maybe one of the biggest reasons I’m doing what I’m doing is so I can be free to express myself without denial from the world. Clearly I’m not doing this for sex. I castrated myself with hair loss pills because ultimately I want to make something of my image. A part of me doesnt give a fuck about the basic primal desires, it puts these things aside in the pursuit of something bigger and beyond explanation for myself. A response to the questions I used to ask God as a kid. I think there’s nothing worthwhile left for this current version of who I am.
I always felt limited in how I could portray myself, because the most fundamental aspects of me, bones and brains, were inferior beyond repair. I was beaten into conformity and the surrender of who I am because of all the times I stood out in a bad way.
Maybe one of the biggest reasons I’m doing what I’m doing is so I can be free to express myself without denial from the world. Clearly I’m not doing this for sex. I castrated myself with hair loss pills because ultimately I want to make something of my image. A part of me doesnt give a fuck about the basic primal desires, it puts these things aside in the pursuit of something bigger and beyond explanation for myself. A response to the questions I used to ask God as a kid. I think there’s nothing worthwhile left for this current version of who I am.
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