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Iron
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for context i am number 1 at school and there is a graduation celebration tomorrow at school and i am being forced to go i can not say my true thoughts at all because the rest of my family is all NT and when they can force me to act NT allthough even since i was a child i always wanted to be alone i do not care for my family whatsoever but need to act like i care until a few years when i am no longer in their control and out of the country, my dad especially is the one forcing me to be NT the most in my life he is 6'5 ex fighter and bodybuilder and acts like he is smart and thinks that scientists are putting fake reports and such because he calls supplements fake and ''powder of the devil'' he denies anything i say unless its to his muslim standards i am 6'4 but i am obese and weak never fought so i cant talk to him in the only language he really understands,physical violence,so i have to obey all he says for the rest of my family my mother always forces me to go out but is more caring than my father but she always tries to get me to agree with her by using moral tactics even though i have said before i do not care about ethics nor morality and dont do it nowadays because anytime i do it there is a huge argument and i am always the one getting abused,i know i will do nothing productive at home but it is better for me to stay at home and play games and ponder than be at a social gathering where i will be at a stage and be forced to be looked at by hundreds of people (i do not say anything about my teachers as they know i am ND so they do not pressure me). i also think this is an insult to me and what i stand for as my family tries to bait me to think this is a huge thing when i only studied once every few months or so this year my main thrive is seeing progress in science as i am a scientist as of a few months ago (february 14th) focusing on quantum mechanics.i do have a gun but my mother hid it from me thinking i would shoot my school up because some school shootings in our area happened i took this as an insult i do know where my gun is.i came here to see what i should do because it is inevitable that i go to the graduation celebration i do not have a single friend at school except the teachers but i am not their favorite at all not even top 10.i do not have friends so i came here to ask as AI always gives generic responses.help me out.(i am not good looking if this whole pharagraph isnt making it obvious and neither am i average i am 4.5/10 at best.i wont use the gun for violence it is just an example of how i am treated)
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