My fear at 15 was genuine

[Deleted member 19442]

I was scared of death because I didn’t want to go to the afterlife as a degenerate who accomplished nothing. I had honest concerns over my lack of a real life. My inability to defend myself and confront others, my poor social life, my studies etc. Then I retreated back into my comfy fantasy world and fell off hard. I’m incredibly disappointed. I had a lot of potential at that age. I was making legit strides. Given I kept that momentum I could’ve reached excellence