whiteissuperior
Bu to the sinner he gives the task of gathering.
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update drink af sry
Texted her and asked her promise to not see anyone till we talk tmrw. She say " can't promise that.
Omg
That's embarrassing, I was drunk as hell last night... sorry. We had a back and forth over text with me begging to know where she was and just asking for her to promise to not see anyone until we talked more because I wasn't sure how I felt about an "open" relationship. She said she couldn't promise anything and if the relationship was going to work this is what it was gonna take no matter what, basically. It pretty much doesn't matter how I feel about it, so we don't need to talk.
Holy hell I feel like shit.
final update
Woke up this morning to the sound of the shower. Seemed like she just came home and went immediately in there to start her morning routine before work. I admit I got up and frantically looked around for her things (cell, iPad, purse, even her clothes) to look for evidence but it was locked in the bathroom with her. Not proud of that but I feel emotionally raped right now. I wasn't thinking straight.
Anyway, she left without saying much to me, more or less ignoring my pleas to talk, mostly saying she'd be late for work. But she did say she met up with a coworker named *** "K" at Taco Bell before heading to her parents last night. Says nothing happened though. I believe her because I've met the guy a few times and I know that they're friends and chill at work to vent about other coworker drama and the like. Honestly it wouldn't make any sense if she was cheating on me with HIM.
This really blew up and I can't thank you folks more for the support. I made it through almost every comment before passing out last night and I plan to do the same today. Sorry I can't respond to you all.
I'll take the rest to another post somewhere else if it looks like people care to hear about the fall out.
This. Is. Surreal.
I actually started chuckling when she first brought it up, thinking she was joking. Her stone-faced reaction to my laughter caused a drop in the pit of my stomach that made me sick.
Long story short - she's had trouble in the last 4 or 5 months orgasming during sex. I have to admit I find that concerning since she's never had that problem at any point in our past (I've always made her orgasm, made a point of it in fact). Now, I can't even get her off with my mouth. I've never thought I had a small dick. Quite the opposite, in fact. Like any guy, I've measured it. between 7 and 7.5" when fully erect.
Here's the kicker, though... she says it's not the length that's the problem, it's my girth. Basically, my girl wants to leave me because I have a pencil dick, saying that because of it she can't see me as attractive anymore. What the fucking fuck? All my rage and depression about this because really, what can I do??? She literally blindsided me with this, never having mentioned anything like it in the past. Adding to that, she's never even been all that sexual a girl!!
I don't know if she started watching porn or what, but I mean what frame of reference could she possibly be using this far into the relationship/engagement to suddenly decide my dick isn't thick enough for her?
What, if anything, can I even do about this? I'm totally lost.
TL;DR She wants to leave me because I don't stretch her out enough, apparently. - length about 7-7.5" and girth probably 3.5-4"
CONSOLIDATION EDIT: On top of everything else, I've been informed via text that she's not coming home tonight for the first time in ever. I have no fucking idea where she's going. I'll assume her parents' house but I don't even know. Says she's going to parents' house. I don't really talk to her parents though, so I have no way to check on that.
update This girl can't make up her mind. She'll be home in 10 minutes to "get some things" but she's leaving again afterwards. Do I confront her or not?
update
Ok, that was fast. She was in and then out in about 5 minutes. We did talk and... what the fuck. I'll update in a few. I need to get a fucking drink.
2.5 beers in, now, so here goes
So, she came in and I was expecting her to pack up a bunch of shit - clothes, shoes, toiletries, other misc crap, and say she wanted to separate or fuck just leave outright. Turns out she got these things, from what I could tell:
Her: "I need to spend some time alone tonight to think."
Me: "Look, this is killing me. I love you but this all seems so fucked up and ludicrous. Is this really about my dick or is it something else???"
Her: she just looks around the room, shaking her head and shrugging her shoulders
Me: "You're the girl I want to be with, you know that blah blah blah insert pouring out of my heart here. Just be straight with me and tell me what the fuck I can do, if anything, for this relationship to work. PLEASE"
Her: "I guess the only way I could ever see this working is if we were open to seeing other people."
Me: stunned silence and verge of tears/rage "Well... can we at least talk about that some more??? Where are you going tonight?"
Her: "My parents'"
Me: "Ok, so fine we'll talk about this more tomorrow. Right?"
Her: "Ok."
Then she left.
Texted her and asked her promise to not see anyone till we talk tmrw. She say " can't promise that.
Omg
That's embarrassing, I was drunk as hell last night... sorry. We had a back and forth over text with me begging to know where she was and just asking for her to promise to not see anyone until we talked more because I wasn't sure how I felt about an "open" relationship. She said she couldn't promise anything and if the relationship was going to work this is what it was gonna take no matter what, basically. It pretty much doesn't matter how I feel about it, so we don't need to talk.
Holy hell I feel like shit.
final update
Woke up this morning to the sound of the shower. Seemed like she just came home and went immediately in there to start her morning routine before work. I admit I got up and frantically looked around for her things (cell, iPad, purse, even her clothes) to look for evidence but it was locked in the bathroom with her. Not proud of that but I feel emotionally raped right now. I wasn't thinking straight.
Anyway, she left without saying much to me, more or less ignoring my pleas to talk, mostly saying she'd be late for work. But she did say she met up with a coworker named *** "K" at Taco Bell before heading to her parents last night. Says nothing happened though. I believe her because I've met the guy a few times and I know that they're friends and chill at work to vent about other coworker drama and the like. Honestly it wouldn't make any sense if she was cheating on me with HIM.
This really blew up and I can't thank you folks more for the support. I made it through almost every comment before passing out last night and I plan to do the same today. Sorry I can't respond to you all.
I'll take the rest to another post somewhere else if it looks like people care to hear about the fall out.
This. Is. Surreal.
I actually started chuckling when she first brought it up, thinking she was joking. Her stone-faced reaction to my laughter caused a drop in the pit of my stomach that made me sick.
Long story short - she's had trouble in the last 4 or 5 months orgasming during sex. I have to admit I find that concerning since she's never had that problem at any point in our past (I've always made her orgasm, made a point of it in fact). Now, I can't even get her off with my mouth. I've never thought I had a small dick. Quite the opposite, in fact. Like any guy, I've measured it. between 7 and 7.5" when fully erect.
Here's the kicker, though... she says it's not the length that's the problem, it's my girth. Basically, my girl wants to leave me because I have a pencil dick, saying that because of it she can't see me as attractive anymore. What the fucking fuck? All my rage and depression about this because really, what can I do??? She literally blindsided me with this, never having mentioned anything like it in the past. Adding to that, she's never even been all that sexual a girl!!
I don't know if she started watching porn or what, but I mean what frame of reference could she possibly be using this far into the relationship/engagement to suddenly decide my dick isn't thick enough for her?
What, if anything, can I even do about this? I'm totally lost.
TL;DR She wants to leave me because I don't stretch her out enough, apparently. - length about 7-7.5" and girth probably 3.5-4"
CONSOLIDATION EDIT: On top of everything else, I've been informed via text that she's not coming home tonight for the first time in ever. I have no fucking idea where she's going. I'll assume her parents' house but I don't even know. Says she's going to parents' house. I don't really talk to her parents though, so I have no way to check on that.
update This girl can't make up her mind. She'll be home in 10 minutes to "get some things" but she's leaving again afterwards. Do I confront her or not?
update
Ok, that was fast. She was in and then out in about 5 minutes. We did talk and... what the fuck. I'll update in a few. I need to get a fucking drink.
2.5 beers in, now, so here goes
So, she came in and I was expecting her to pack up a bunch of shit - clothes, shoes, toiletries, other misc crap, and say she wanted to separate or fuck just leave outright. Turns out she got these things, from what I could tell:
- Toothbrush and deodorant
- A clean shirt
- panties and socks
- Her iPad (???)
Her: "I need to spend some time alone tonight to think."
Me: "Look, this is killing me. I love you but this all seems so fucked up and ludicrous. Is this really about my dick or is it something else???"
Her: she just looks around the room, shaking her head and shrugging her shoulders
Me: "You're the girl I want to be with, you know that blah blah blah insert pouring out of my heart here. Just be straight with me and tell me what the fuck I can do, if anything, for this relationship to work. PLEASE"
Her: "I guess the only way I could ever see this working is if we were open to seeing other people."
Me: stunned silence and verge of tears/rage "Well... can we at least talk about that some more??? Where are you going tonight?"
Her: "My parents'"
Me: "Ok, so fine we'll talk about this more tomorrow. Right?"
Her: "Ok."
Then she left.