coolguyjames
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I am a 16 year old sophomore guy who never got a girlfriend and always was seen as a weird guy by others. But it wasn't always for my looks. I got prettier and more attractive. But my personality was always odd.
I didn't do anything bad like bully others in school for their height, looks, personality or whatever it is. I was always kind to others and I always tried to fit in. That clearly didn't work out and I was bullied for everything I named already. My face, weight, not height since I was always above average height but mostly my personality that was weird, but also very stupid socially and socially awkward too. You know, I also have this thing for girls like, I really wanted a girlfriend since I was in middle school, since 5th grade. But I really really wanted one. The thing is, I was either ugly, weird or just stupid, and that's why I never got one.
When I was so basically 5th-7th grade I had a crush on one girl who didn't like me back but was a good friend. She was my classmate and was very nice to me on 5th grade, but she started bullying me I'm 6th grade and in seventh grade she made an ig acc with her bf and it was a fake girl who messaged me stuff like hey I like u and stuff like that and later I realized it was fake and I was shocked a lot. Then she apologized in like 8th grade for everything and I was like alright it's okay and we were neutral since. But apart from her, in middle school, I got bullied by pretty much everyone, especially in my class, on the group chat too, every single day. Every single day, I got bullied for some dumb stuff either on the group chat or irl, I got pushed by someone so many times and fell as well during PE classes, in the classroom or even in school hallways and everyone laughed at me. I cried a few times but no one cared except some "homies" who also made fun of me many times and verbally, physically and mentally abused me. I remember in middle school they even throw a watermelon juice at me and I was wet a lot and they were threatening to throw me in a lake and I was like what but they didn't do anything and they said it was just a joke and that they just wanted to scare me. Also in the last weeks of 8th grade before graduation but like for middle school, I got slapped a lot od times and I was also rejected by my classmates, and I remember once a girl wanted to approach me because I was alone but when she saw my face she just went away with her bff, and that was like in 6th grade. And yeah it was just terrible there in middle school and yeah everything sucked. Also a guy broke my arm for just looking at his phone in 8th grade and nobody cared lol.
Freshman year was fantastic, new people, new friends, I also ascended real great, got a perm and my eyebrows were darker and grew and yeah it was cool but love life was also terrible.
Girls started talking to me and some had a small crush but when they saw that I'm just a guy who doesn't talk really and is alone they eventually just didn't care about me anymore. Also I remember posting threads here about how many girls just didn't accept my request at all on ig. It was annoying and also painful. But in sophomore year there was another girl I loved like no other girl and she goes to French class with me and yeah, at first when we met in freshman year we were like friends who greet each other then she started ignoring me like entire 2025 was just her ignoring me and then this year she finally talked a lot to me again after a year and yeah ofc I fucked it up, she talked to me for like 2 weeks and even sat next to me on bus station, glanced at me again like she always did since I know her and her bff, she talked to me in hallways and in class and even greeted me again for a while and that was like march-april 2026 and then on April 14th 2026 I made an alt acc chatting with her on tt and I said and lot of stuff like I love you and all that romantic stuff but she didn't know who I was because I didn't have my name on profile and when I said it was me eventually she just said okay and then in next couple of days I sent her some videos and she told me she doesn't care about me and like why would she even do anything for me and then she blocked me and I realized what an immature idiot I am and since then she didn't wanna look at me. Also she went to the same middle school with me but I didn't see her at all she was a different shift. Also recently I once again realized no one cared about my existence and everyone is like so low Iq in my class and totally annoying and NT, and they are literal npcs, also that girl from french class kissed her bf last year while looking at me and I was like shocked. They broke up in March and that's why all of that stuff happened with her again. And yeah family problems as well my parents are divorced since I was 2 I live w my mom and she is mad every single day. My grandma, aunt, sister, brothers they all dislike me too and I'm also mad a lot and shout bad stuff. Also everyone I know from middle school or high school thinks I'm weird or just don't interact with me at all. Also all these girls have boyfriends as well. They all have found love. I haven't. They all kissed and I haven't. They all hugged and I haven't.
I came to a conclusion that I am evil and cursed. Everywhere I go I bring nothing but just stupid annoying me. Even if I am liked by some or people from school they never call me to any party. They all go to parties or to a club but I never get invited. The suffering I went through is finally over. If you're like me, people only care when you're dead. I don't care about anything anymore especially about my life. My life isn't a gift but a curse. Every time I tried to enjoy life something stupid happens and it's always my fault. My social reputation is gone.
I am evil and I'm going to hell and I deserve hell. God has abandoned me. All I deserve is suffering.
Love each other.
I didn't do anything bad like bully others in school for their height, looks, personality or whatever it is. I was always kind to others and I always tried to fit in. That clearly didn't work out and I was bullied for everything I named already. My face, weight, not height since I was always above average height but mostly my personality that was weird, but also very stupid socially and socially awkward too. You know, I also have this thing for girls like, I really wanted a girlfriend since I was in middle school, since 5th grade. But I really really wanted one. The thing is, I was either ugly, weird or just stupid, and that's why I never got one.
When I was so basically 5th-7th grade I had a crush on one girl who didn't like me back but was a good friend. She was my classmate and was very nice to me on 5th grade, but she started bullying me I'm 6th grade and in seventh grade she made an ig acc with her bf and it was a fake girl who messaged me stuff like hey I like u and stuff like that and later I realized it was fake and I was shocked a lot. Then she apologized in like 8th grade for everything and I was like alright it's okay and we were neutral since. But apart from her, in middle school, I got bullied by pretty much everyone, especially in my class, on the group chat too, every single day. Every single day, I got bullied for some dumb stuff either on the group chat or irl, I got pushed by someone so many times and fell as well during PE classes, in the classroom or even in school hallways and everyone laughed at me. I cried a few times but no one cared except some "homies" who also made fun of me many times and verbally, physically and mentally abused me. I remember in middle school they even throw a watermelon juice at me and I was wet a lot and they were threatening to throw me in a lake and I was like what but they didn't do anything and they said it was just a joke and that they just wanted to scare me. Also in the last weeks of 8th grade before graduation but like for middle school, I got slapped a lot od times and I was also rejected by my classmates, and I remember once a girl wanted to approach me because I was alone but when she saw my face she just went away with her bff, and that was like in 6th grade. And yeah it was just terrible there in middle school and yeah everything sucked. Also a guy broke my arm for just looking at his phone in 8th grade and nobody cared lol.
Freshman year was fantastic, new people, new friends, I also ascended real great, got a perm and my eyebrows were darker and grew and yeah it was cool but love life was also terrible.
Girls started talking to me and some had a small crush but when they saw that I'm just a guy who doesn't talk really and is alone they eventually just didn't care about me anymore. Also I remember posting threads here about how many girls just didn't accept my request at all on ig. It was annoying and also painful. But in sophomore year there was another girl I loved like no other girl and she goes to French class with me and yeah, at first when we met in freshman year we were like friends who greet each other then she started ignoring me like entire 2025 was just her ignoring me and then this year she finally talked a lot to me again after a year and yeah ofc I fucked it up, she talked to me for like 2 weeks and even sat next to me on bus station, glanced at me again like she always did since I know her and her bff, she talked to me in hallways and in class and even greeted me again for a while and that was like march-april 2026 and then on April 14th 2026 I made an alt acc chatting with her on tt and I said and lot of stuff like I love you and all that romantic stuff but she didn't know who I was because I didn't have my name on profile and when I said it was me eventually she just said okay and then in next couple of days I sent her some videos and she told me she doesn't care about me and like why would she even do anything for me and then she blocked me and I realized what an immature idiot I am and since then she didn't wanna look at me. Also she went to the same middle school with me but I didn't see her at all she was a different shift. Also recently I once again realized no one cared about my existence and everyone is like so low Iq in my class and totally annoying and NT, and they are literal npcs, also that girl from french class kissed her bf last year while looking at me and I was like shocked. They broke up in March and that's why all of that stuff happened with her again. And yeah family problems as well my parents are divorced since I was 2 I live w my mom and she is mad every single day. My grandma, aunt, sister, brothers they all dislike me too and I'm also mad a lot and shout bad stuff. Also everyone I know from middle school or high school thinks I'm weird or just don't interact with me at all. Also all these girls have boyfriends as well. They all have found love. I haven't. They all kissed and I haven't. They all hugged and I haven't.
I came to a conclusion that I am evil and cursed. Everywhere I go I bring nothing but just stupid annoying me. Even if I am liked by some or people from school they never call me to any party. They all go to parties or to a club but I never get invited. The suffering I went through is finally over. If you're like me, people only care when you're dead. I don't care about anything anymore especially about my life. My life isn't a gift but a curse. Every time I tried to enjoy life something stupid happens and it's always my fault. My social reputation is gone.
I am evil and I'm going to hell and I deserve hell. God has abandoned me. All I deserve is suffering.
Love each other.
