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ᵉᵛⁱˡ ᶜᵃᵗᵇᵒʸ
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About me:
- 19 years old
- KHHV
- 5'6 (in germany)
- Unemployed
My life has never been good but everything has gone downhill in the last 1.5 years
The girl I liked and thought would get me out inceldom suddenly blocked me and since then I've only been losing really. Im not here to cry around but rather to explain my situation. I dont want to complain about all the bad things that have happened to me.
Currently my entire day consists of sitting on my pc, i sleep for 12h and usually wake up around 10pm just to be a troll on the internet and do disgusting stuff on there, I unironically havent seen the sunlight in about a week.
It's pretty comfortable living like this, giving up everything and chasing dopamine. I don't talk to anybody anymore cause they just tell me to get a job, they don't know that I've long given up.
I will be living like this until society forces me to get a job or my family kicks me out the house, I will either rope then or chase death with activities that get more and more dangerous each time.
I still get sad sometimes when I think about my potential but it's beyond saving now, this is my destiny.
I don't even want to kill myself that bad and I still have to get comfortable with the idea of suicide but I'd rather not live at all then life a live wasted, not achieving anything I have ever dreamt of.
(I dont wan't any sympathy here, I know people will most likely be toxic. It'd just be nice to talk to people with similar mindsets and exchange with them)
- 19 years old
- KHHV
- 5'6 (in germany)
- Unemployed
My life has never been good but everything has gone downhill in the last 1.5 years
The girl I liked and thought would get me out inceldom suddenly blocked me and since then I've only been losing really. Im not here to cry around but rather to explain my situation. I dont want to complain about all the bad things that have happened to me.
Currently my entire day consists of sitting on my pc, i sleep for 12h and usually wake up around 10pm just to be a troll on the internet and do disgusting stuff on there, I unironically havent seen the sunlight in about a week.
It's pretty comfortable living like this, giving up everything and chasing dopamine. I don't talk to anybody anymore cause they just tell me to get a job, they don't know that I've long given up.
I will be living like this until society forces me to get a job or my family kicks me out the house, I will either rope then or chase death with activities that get more and more dangerous each time.
I still get sad sometimes when I think about my potential but it's beyond saving now, this is my destiny.
I don't even want to kill myself that bad and I still have to get comfortable with the idea of suicide but I'd rather not live at all then life a live wasted, not achieving anything I have ever dreamt of.
(I dont wan't any sympathy here, I know people will most likely be toxic. It'd just be nice to talk to people with similar mindsets and exchange with them)
