my first attempt

[hax]

i was 10 years old, first failed roping attempt in the school playground.

teachers found my hidden drawings of self-harm and suicide, called my parents soon after.
classmates noticed and labeled me "the suicide kid" for too long.

it all went down when my mom sent me to my one and only psychiatrist.
months of talking before he finally diagnosed me with autism.

the only light i've found since then was self-improvement.
but my mom twisted that diagnosis into an obsession, shattering my dream.

"looks aren't important, you're just autistic, it's time to move on."
it's now been 7 years of seeing that same psychiatrist on and off.

no progress physically or mentally whatsoever.
my parents are retarded, they can take the blame for everything that goes wrong in my life.

 

[averagetotaluser]

i was 10 years old, first failed roping attempt in the school playground.

teachers found my hidden drawings of self-harm and suicide, called my parents soon after.
classmates noticed and labeled me "the suicide kid" for too long.

it all went down when my mom sent me to my one and only psychiatrist.
months of talking before he finally diagnosed me with autism.

the only light i've found since then was self-improvement.
but my mom twisted that diagnosis into an obsession, shattering my dream.

"looks aren't important, you're just autistic, it's time to move on."
it's now been 7 years of seeing that same psychiatrist on and off.

no progress physically or mentally whatsoever.
my parents are retarded, they can take the blame for everything that goes wrong in my life.

i had 4, two at 8 and the other two at 14, sad

 

[mltnisme124]

i was 10 years old, first failed roping attempt in the school playground.

teachers found my hidden drawings of self-harm and suicide, called my parents soon after.
classmates noticed and labeled me "the suicide kid" for too long.

it all went down when my mom sent me to my one and only psychiatrist.
months of talking before he finally diagnosed me with autism.

the only light i've found since then was self-improvement.
but my mom twisted that diagnosis into an obsession, shattering my dream.

"looks aren't important, you're just autistic, it's time to move on."
it's now been 7 years of seeing that same psychiatrist on and off.

no progress physically or mentally whatsoever.
my parents are retarded, they can take the blame for everything that goes wrong in my life.

i feel the same, i almost went out like sharkboa trying to hang myself with a belt, i genuinely hope you get better bro

 

[mltnisme124]

i had 4, two at 8 and the other two at 14, sad

Nigga what the hell did you have going on at 8

 

[averagetotaluser]

Nigga what the hell did you have going on at 8

A lot of shit, lot of shit, I even tried to murder my parents

 

[mltnisme124]

A lot of shit, lot of shit, I even tried to murder my parents

oh yeah i was going through that phases too bro i pulled a knife on my mom in 6th grade

 

[mangotimer]

I wanted to do it at 5

 

[zygosmasher]

never get up

 

[averagetotaluser]

oh yeah i was going through that phases too bro i pulled a knife on my mom in 6th grade

I pulled knifes and guns to my parents and siblings, bad life + i was a very messed up kid, i used to torture animals

 

[pinTOXIN]

A lot of shit, lot of shit, I even tried to murder my parents

nigga what did your parents do to you ? wont let you play with your nintendo

 

[mltnisme124]

I pulled knifes and guns to my parents and siblings, bad life + i was a very messed up kid, i used to torture animals

Yeah me too, grew up in poverty and spent most of my childhood years smoking and taking meds. I was also an edgy little shit who would post horrible shit in discord servers(you get the idea)

 

[averagetotaluser]

nigga what did your parents do to you ? wont let you play with your nintendo

yo, fuck you bitch ass nigga

 

[hax]

never get up

why is everybody fighting over who did it earlier?

this forum is shit, posting is useless, users are useless.

 

[lenvoalt]

oh yeah i was going through that phases too bro i pulled a knife on my mom in 6th grade

I forgot how old I was but when I was little I had like a huge collection of weapons like BB guns whatever high-powered airsoft guns that I would like to shoot at squirrels or whatever
And I was like 10 or 11 I think I got like really mad at something
I think it was one of my parents were yelling at me for like no reason
Because they’re fucking bitches and I hate all of them
I had this like 14 inch machete
And I was thinking of
Using it on my neck
I was really close to
But then I stopped myself and calm down
The same thing happened when I was like 13 I think

 

[pinTOXIN]

yo, fuck you bitch ass nigga

fuck you back u lil mentaly ill nigger

 

[mltnisme124]

l

I forgot how old I was but when I was little I had like a huge collection of weapons like BB guns whatever high-powered airsoft guns that I would like to shoot at squirrels or whatever
And I was like 10 or 11 I think I got like really mad at something
I think it was one of my parents were yelling at me for like no reason
Because they’re fucking bitches and I hate all of them
I had this like 14 inch machete
And I was thinking of
Using it on my neck
But then I stopped myself and calm down
The same thing happened when I was like 13 I think

LMAOO could you even saw off your own neck??

 

[zygosmasher]

why is everybody fighting over who did it earlier?

this forum is shit, posting is useless, users are useless.

whenever the topic of self harm comes up its a battle of who can get the most attention

its not only the forum its everywhere pretty much

 

[averagetotaluser]

I forgot how old I was but when I was little I had like a huge collection of weapons like BB guns whatever high-powered airsoft guns that I would like to shoot at squirrels or whatever
And I was like 10 or 11 I think I got like really mad at something
I think it was one of my parents were yelling at me for like no reason
Because they’re fucking bitches and I hate all of them
I had this like 14 inch machete
And I was thinking of
Using it on my neck
I was really close to
But then I stopped myself and calm down
The same thing happened when I was like 13 I think

i used to kill cats, racoons, squirrels and more mammals , used to take meds like vicodin and bupropion, I hate my self for doing that, i pulled a revolver to my dad

 

[lenvoalt]

l

LMAOO could you even saw off your own neck??

no it wasn’t that I was just planning on like slit my throat or something
Honestly that was probably the most happiest I’ve ever been when I was little
There was just one time that I was like hunting birds in my backyard and there was this beautiful bluebird it was like super big so I shot with my airsoft gun and I’m pretty sure it eventually died man that thing was super cool
Honestly I kind of feel bad for all the animals I killed
But I mean I was a little so

 

[lenvoalt]

i used to kill cats, racoons, squirrels and more mammals , used to take meds like vicodin and bupropion, I hate my self for doing that, i pulled a revolver to my dad

honestly I never did the pharmaceutical part because I was like super scared of medication when I was little for some reason
But no matter really what happened to anyone growing up you can have trauma but it’s honestly in the past and just thinking about it or lingering on it only makes it worse

 

[hax]

whenever the topic of self harm comes up its a battle of who can get the most attention

"oh this one time i thought about it and i was muh 2 and also i killed animals and did i mention i was only 2?"

 

[averagetotaluser]

honestly I never did the pharmaceutical part because I was like super scared of medication when I was little for some reason
But no matter really what happened to anyone growing up you can have trauma but it’s honestly in the past and just thinking about it or lingering on it only makes it worse

yeah, ig its just past, i wish i could recompensate all the animal life i took

 

[WilhelmThyWizard]

Stop being such a faggot you gotta take respondability for your life, go move to italy village and allot of your problems will vanish

 

[hax]

go move to italy village and allot of your problems will vanish

until italian chad pulls up

 

[zygosmasher]

"oh this one time i thought about it and i was muh 2 and also i killed animals and did i mention i was only 2?"

these retards dont even have a clue how it is

 

[Sub->CL]

I wanted to do it at 5

 

[mon1308]

i was 10 years old, first failed roping attempt in the school playground.

teachers found my hidden drawings of self-harm and suicide, called my parents soon after.
classmates noticed and labeled me "the suicide kid" for too long.

it all went down when my mom sent me to my one and only psychiatrist.
months of talking before he finally diagnosed me with autism.

the only light i've found since then was self-improvement.
but my mom twisted that diagnosis into an obsession, shattering my dream.

"looks aren't important, you're just autistic, it's time to move on."
it's now been 7 years of seeing that same psychiatrist on and off.

no progress physically or mentally whatsoever.
my parents are retarded, they can take the blame for everything that goes wrong in my life.

do not end your life hope you the best

 

[lurking00214]

whatever possesses you to do that shit at a young age sounds terrible, i wouldn't overly share the specifics but i sympathize with this if its srs

and i hope whatever negative thought process / home life you were having to make you attempt that is gone

 

[hax]

these retards dont even have a clue how it is

@averagetotaluser @lenvoalt
you're all pathetic, desperate for attention.

none of you actually listen to each other, just waiting for your turn to stack more tragic details onto your personal sob story.
no real conversation, just a desperate prayer for sympathy.

it's not even fluid, just a clunky pile of "look how much i've went through" for external validation.
this performative trauma is both childish and pathetic to watch.

@mangotimer can be included in there too.

 

[averagetotaluser]

@averagetotaluser @lenvoalt
you're all pathetic, desperate for attention.

none of you actually listen to each other, just waiting for your turn to stack more tragic details onto your personal sob story.
no real conversation, just a desperate prayer for sympathy.

it's not even fluid, just a clunky pile of "look how much i've went through" for external validation.
this performative trauma is both childish and pathetic to watch.

@mangotimer can be included in there too.

Ok hax

 

[hax]

do not end your life hope you the best

not counting on it, i have much to look up to.

and i hope whatever negative thought process / home life you were having to make you attempt that is gone

home life is still just as bad. this is good as it's making me look up to greater things.

 

[mangotimer]

@averagetotaluser @lenvoalt
you're all pathetic, desperate for attention.

none of you actually listen to each other, just waiting for your turn to stack more tragic details onto your personal sob story.
no real conversation, just a desperate prayer for sympathy.

it's not even fluid, just a clunky pile of "look how much i've went through" for external validation.
this performative trauma is both childish and pathetic to watch.

@mangotimer can be included in there too.

Sure hax

 

[zygosmasher]

@averagetotaluser @lenvoalt
you're all pathetic, desperate for attention.

none of you actually listen to each other, just waiting for your turn to stack more tragic details onto your personal sob story.
no real conversation, just a desperate prayer for sympathy.

it's not even fluid, just a clunky pile of "look how much i've went through" for external validation.
this performative trauma is both childish and pathetic to watch.

@mangotimer can be included in there too.

notice how none of them talk about their actual 'traumas' (because they dont exist)

all they know to talk is 'i just wanna end it mummy took my playstation and now im vewy angwy im gonna KILL myself !'

if thats what makes people kill themselves these days then i dont even know anymore

 

[ropermaxxer]

nigga what did your parents do to you ? wont let you play with your nintendo

Gived him shit genetics

 

[hax]

Ok hax

Sure hax

saying this as if i was an irrelevant user with no posts or connections.

both of you are completely unknown 2026cels with a lack of personality.

look at your messages individually and you'll recon they're all laughable and i am right.

 

[averagetotaluser]

saying this as if i was an irrelevant user with no posts or connections.

both of you are completely unknown 2026cels with a lack of personality.

look at your messages individually and you'll recon they're all laughable and i am right.

My dad lost the house and the car in a casino, and my mom ran away and left me leaving with him

 

[mangotimer]

saying this as if i was an irrelevant user with no posts or connections.

both of you are completely unknown 2026cels with a lack of personality.

look at your messages individually and you'll recon they're all laughable and i am right.

I got touched by own mom at 5 and got tied up

 

[hax]

notice how none of them talk about their actual 'traumas' (because they dont exist)

all they know to talk is 'i just wanna end it mummy took my playstation and now im vewy angwy im gonna KILL myself !'

if thats what makes people kill themselves these days then i dont even know anymore

this doesn't bother me, it's the amount of larp going on.

>completely dismisses the previous message
>stacks up a max amount of shock-content info

very childish.

 

[mangotimer]

this doesn't bother me, it's the amount of larp going on.

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>completely dismisses the previous message
>stacks up a max amount of shock-content info

very childish.

Ok hax

 

[hax]

Ok hax

triggered it seems like

 

[zygosmasher]

this doesn't bother me, it's the amount of larp going on.

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>completely dismisses the previous message
>stacks up a max amount of shock-content info

very childish.

theres no way he didnt say that unironically who tf says that

omfg these normies need to wake up

 

[lenvoalt]

@averagetotaluser @lenvoalt
you're all pathetic, desperate for attention.

none of you actually listen to each other, just waiting for your turn to stack more tragic details onto your personal sob story.
no real conversation, just a desperate prayer for sympathy.

it's not even fluid, just a clunky pile of "look how much i've went through" for external validation.
this performative trauma is both childish and pathetic to watch.

@mangotimer can be included in there too.

bro what I was literally just sharing my experiences
I’m not trying to outdo anybody I was honestly hesitant to even post what I said but I mean like I don’t see why not

 

[lenvoalt]

notice how none of them talk about their actual 'traumas' (because they dont exist)

all they know to talk is 'i just wanna end it mummy took my playstation and now im vewy angwy im gonna KILL myself !'

if thats what makes people kill themselves these days then i dont even know anymore

nigga no one ever said they were desperate for attention bro
I’ve literally never shared anything personal online before to do with anything personal with my life and the first time I do just sharing my experiences I just get like flame now not one time did I ever say I was going to end myself I was literally just talking about my childhood experiences so I don’t know how that correlates into wanting attention

 

[zygosmasher]

nigga no one ever said they were desperate for attention bro
I’ve literally never shared anything personal online before to do with anything personal with my life and the first time I do just sharing my experiences I just get like flame now not one time did I ever say I was going to end myself I was literally just talking about my childhood experiences so I don’t know how that correlates into wanting attention

idc that much everyone blows shit out of proportion you definitely do not have it 'bad' nigga or any of the other retards that are attention seeking the point being that its cagefuel if u say u wanna kys

 

[lenvoalt]

idc that much everyone blows shit out of proportion you definitely do not have it 'bad' nigga or any of the other retards that are attention seeking the point being that its cagefuel if u say u wanna kys

bro oh my God dude I’ve literally never stated anything at all on this form that I was sad or about my childhood experiences like this is the first time I’ve ever mention anything like this online
I was mainly just interacting with the other user not anything to do with anyone
You’re not understanding the intent behind what I was saying I wasnt sad when I was typing that out I was literally just like talking like that’s it
I’m not gonna lie that was kind of corny
what I said now I feel like a emo 13 year-old girl that complains in commont sections looking
For attention I can agree with you what I said was Corny I have bad impulse control
Anyway please forget I ever said that