my first body

[madma]

I was about 3 years old, I didn’t know what sex was at the time but I knew something was wrong and evil about it. I was staying with my older female cousin who was about 14 years old at my grandpas house. I was watching a movie with her and she was forcing me to kiss her, I said no repeatedly and she grabbed my head to kiss her, I felt uncomfortable, and this was infront of my brother and my brother was laughing at me and her

Later on we were playing together and she was showing me her parts, I was confused why she didn’t have a penis, it all kind of connected into my head that women and men have different body parts down there. She made me go to the bathroom with her, undressed and was urging me to stick my penis inside of her, I said no repeatedly still not knowing what sex was and I knew this was inherently bad, that I shouldn’t be doing this but at the age of 3 I felt too pressured and just did it, I remember crying and later she forced me to do more things. And now today I feel very numb and I have a porn addiction most likely do to this
I’ve never told anyone about this

 

[madma]

 

[madma]

It was like a new area of my brain unlocked when that shit happened to me, It made me have very sexual thoughts at a young age but before that stuff happened to me it sex was so foreign and I had no such thoughts

 

[Claymoreboy0118]

How old are you now?

 

[Incelforeever]

Brag thread

 

[madma]

How old are you now?

I am 18 about to turn 19

 

[madma]

Brag thread

fakecel humble brag thread

 

[Lefty Rankin]

I was about 3 years old, I didn’t know what sex was at the time but I knew something was wrong and evil about it. I was staying with my older female cousin who was about 14 years old at my grandpas house. I was watching a movie with her and she was forcing me to kiss her, I said no repeatedly and she grabbed my head to kiss her, I felt uncomfortable, and this was infront of my brother and my brother was laughing at me and her

Later on we were playing together and she was showing me her parts, I was confused why she didn’t have a penis, it all kind of connected into my head that women and men have different body parts down there. She made me go to the bathroom with her, undressed and was urging me to stick my penis inside of her, I said no repeatedly still not knowing what sex was and I knew this was inherently bad, that I shouldn’t be doing this but at the age of 3 I felt too pressured and just did it, I remember crying and later she forced me to do more things. And now today I feel very numb and I have a porn addiction most likely do to this
I’ve never told anyone about this

Is this true?

I learned what sex was at 6 from the only ghetto black boy in our class. Told me a joke he'd heard which describes a penis going into a vagina. Shortly after that I was drawing crude pictures of men on top of women with a penis going between their legs. I drew a few on my bunk bed and my father confronted me about it asking where I learned it. There was like an inquisition about this black boy, and a strong effort from my parents to try to get me to henceforth stay away from him.

 

[madma]

Is this true?

I learned what sex was at 6 from the only ghetto black boy in our class. Told me a joke he'd heard which describes a penis going into a vagina. Shortly after that I was drawing crude pictures of men on top of women with a penis going between their legs. I drew a few on my bunk bed and my father confronted me about it asking where I learned it. There was like an inquisition about this black boy, and a strong effort from my parents to try to get me to henceforth stay away from him.

Yeah it’s true. I remember there was a lightskin kid that sat next to me in 5th grade, had the exact mannerisms of my brother and kinda looked the same. He would constantly search of animals fucking on his chromebook and try to find medical images of vaginas. Definition of The Raped

 

[KKKuroiso]

View attachment 3908178

 

[bourgeoizyzz]

only gays get with foids that are 11 years older than them

 

[madma]

only gays get with foids that are 11 years older than them

Yeah I wish my 3 year old self was worrying more about my masculinity

 

[lil rino aka summrs]

I am 18 about to turn 19

w

 

[madma]

w

Thanks summrs

 

[Latinolooksmaxxer]

I got raped by Prime Lima in Brazilian Slum

 

[madma]

I got raped by Prime Lima in Brazilian Slum

Is that even rape

 

[Latinolooksmaxxer]

Is that even rape

Its rap she got barz

 

[davidlaidisme67]

I was about 3 years old, I didn’t know what sex was at the time but I knew something was wrong and evil about it. I was staying with my older female cousin who was about 14 years old at my grandpas house. I was watching a movie with her and she was forcing me to kiss her, I said no repeatedly and she grabbed my head to kiss her, I felt uncomfortable, and this was infront of my brother and my brother was laughing at me and her

Later on we were playing together and she was showing me her parts, I was confused why she didn’t have a penis, it all kind of connected into my head that women and men have different body parts down there. She made me go to the bathroom with her, undressed and was urging me to stick my penis inside of her, I said no repeatedly still not knowing what sex was and I knew this was inherently bad, that I shouldn’t be doing this but at the age of 3 I felt too pressured and just did it, I remember crying and later she forced me to do more things. And now today I feel very numb and I have a porn addiction most likely do to this
I’ve never told anyone about this

This is actually fucking insane. I’m sorry bro. Want me to kill her?

 

[HTNGrevious]

being exposed to sex/porn at a young age can fuck u over a lot

 

[madma]

being exposed to sex/porn at a young age can fuck u over a lot

True I had porn brain at like 7 and said some very sexual things to people that I regret a lot and it keeps me up at night, now that my brain has matured

 

[HTNGrevious]

True I had porn brain at like 7 and said some very sexual things to people that I regret a lot and it keeps me up at night, now that my brain has matured

same boat , did some weird shit when I was younger that I won't forget

 

[sluttysuzy420]

I was about 3 years old, I didn’t know what sex was at the time but I knew something was wrong and evil about it. I was staying with my older female cousin who was about 14 years old at my grandpas house. I was watching a movie with her and she was forcing me to kiss her, I said no repeatedly and she grabbed my head to kiss her, I felt uncomfortable, and this was infront of my brother and my brother was laughing at me and her

Later on we were playing together and she was showing me her parts, I was confused why she didn’t have a penis, it all kind of connected into my head that women and men have different body parts down there. She made me go to the bathroom with her, undressed and was urging me to stick my penis inside of her, I said no repeatedly still not knowing what sex was and I knew this was inherently bad, that I shouldn’t be doing this but at the age of 3 I felt too pressured and just did it, I remember crying and later she forced me to do more things. And now today I feel very numb and I have a porn addiction most likely do to this
I’ve never told anyone about this

Holyshit bro 3... Seems like alot on here got some sort of rape. I feel for u bhai. Ur story way worse than mine I was 12, still prepubertal but that shit fucks w me to. If it helps u relate or feel better I struggled w porn too. Not in the way that most do like just gooning to shit, The only stuff I watched was step mom porn. ( Got fucked by an older babysitter, she was a decade and half or so older than me) I would purposely try and find videos that were very similar to my situation which was basically a dominate older woman and I dude just getting sex because a milf seduced him. I got soo addicted that I found this one vid that was extremely similar to my story that Ive probably wacthed it 50 times. I think by watching it I was trying to understand myself better and relate to the guy. Some other fuck shit is that I cant initate a move on agirl and ive fumbled the bag like 7 times after getting a girl to my room. Its most likely becuase sex was forced on me and when it happened I just froze up and dissociated, Now I freeze up, get hard immediately, and get really nervous when things get even slightly sexual. LIke it was bad the first time I touched another foid she grabbed my hadn and just started walking w me and I got instantly hard, This is not to say I get hard whenever I touch a girl. Its not only if I get touched and dont expect it. Like some girl randomly grabbing my arm and trying to compliment me. If I were to voluntarily hug a girl im fine. Another thing is, I cant stand the sound kissing and lips smacking. my offender tried kissing me and I jsut stood there stone faced close eyed and still remember the sound of her lips. Aside from that the worst thing is I seperate love from sex in my head. When I imagine sex its very violent. Much like what happened to me except im the violent one. It makes me feel better, i guess. But I could never have sex w a girl I love and respect. I have a close friend a guess shes a gf, I enjoy holding her hand and talking to her but I could never ever imagine fucking her.


The advice I can give is try to understand the weird tendcies u have that were cuaed by them, and slowly expose ur self to them to get over ur fears and issues. Like Ill eventually have to make out w my girl. Im lwk dreading it, ill have to tell her to go slow, and yeah it makes me seem beta and whatever but its better than never overcoming ur fear and problems. Soon one day I may be able to have loving not vioent sex w a girl I like. U too can have a normal happy sex life. It starts wit slowly overcoming ur fears and getting rid of whats holding u back. Quit porn, journal abt ur thoughts on this, find a girl who can understand you, maybe confront ur abuser and forgive them if u can. I still havent been able to confront my abuser but If I do i just want her to admit she wronged me and I hope that when i do im mature enough to let it go and forgive her.

This is prob the most genuine message ive written to someone hear. Im sorry this happened to u bhai. If u want to DM im happy to talk. God bless.

 

[madma]

Holyshit bro 3... Seems like alot on here got some sort of rape. I feel for u bhai. Ur story way worse than mine I was 12, still prepubertal but that shit fucks w me to. If it helps u relate or feel better I struggled w porn too. Not in the way that most do like just gooning to shit, The only stuff I watched was step mom porn. ( Got fucked by an older babysitter, she was a decade and half or so older than me) I would purposely try and find videos that were very similar to my situation which was basically a dominate older woman and I dude just getting sex because a milf seduced him. I got soo addicted that I found this one vid that was extremely similar to my story that Ive probably wacthed it 50 times. I think by watching it I was trying to understand myself better and relate to the guy. Some other fuck shit is that I cant initate a move on agirl and ive fumbled the bag like 7 times after getting a girl to my room. Its most likely becuase sex was forced on me and when it happened I just froze up and dissociated, Now I freeze up, get hard immediately, and get really nervous when things get even slightly sexual. LIke it was bad the first time I touched another foid she grabbed my hadn and just started walking w me and I got instantly hard, This is not to say I get hard whenever I touch a girl. Its not only if I get touched and dont expect it. Like some girl randomly grabbing my arm and trying to compliment me. If I were to voluntarily hug a girl im fine. Another thing is, I cant stand the sound kissing and lips smacking. my offender tried kissing me and I jsut stood there stone faced close eyed and still remember the sound of her lips. Aside from that the worst thing is I seperate love from sex in my head. When I imagine sex its very violent. Much like what happened to me except im the violent one. It makes me feel better, i guess. But I could never have sex w a girl I love and respect. I have a close friend a guess shes a gf, I enjoy holding her hand and talking to her but I could never ever imagine fucking her.


The advice I can give is try to understand the weird tendcies u have that were cuaed by them, and slowly expose ur self to them to get over ur fears and issues. Like Ill eventually have to make out w my girl. Im lwk dreading it, ill have to tell her to go slow, and yeah it makes me seem beta and whatever but its better than never overcoming ur fear and problems. Soon one day I may be able to have loving not vioent sex w a girl I like. U too can have a normal happy sex life. It starts wit slowly overcoming ur fears and getting rid of whats holding u back. Quit porn, journal abt ur thoughts on this, find a girl who can understand you, maybe confront ur abuser and forgive them if u can. I still havent been able to confront my abuser but If I do i just want her to admit she wronged me and I hope that when i do im mature enough to let it go and forgive her.

This is prob the most genuine message ive written to someone hear. Im sorry this happened to u bhai. If u want to DM im happy to talk. God bless.

Wow thanks for the message I appreciate it a lot. I kind of realized that the most evil people ive ever encountered are women. I know of women that outrank any male 'gooner'. There was this girl that was talking to me and she said she had sexual fantasies of wanting to fuck a dead corpse because she would have "full control of it", she also has fantasies about having sex with men that were asleep, another girl I knew was begging to be raped by someone and would constantly talk about her sexual fetishes. It just boggles my mind that men are seen as the creepy weirdos when so many women like this exist. Like yes men might stare at a girls ass or whatever, but some of the women in my life were straight up sexually abusive, creepy and lacked basic human empathy. It is insane that a 27 year old babysitter would even think to do that shit to a 12 year old. She doesnt even care that shes going to mentally scar you forever, probably no thought in her mind when she was doing that.

Rape is one of the most traumatizing things that could ever possibly happen to someone, sorry that happened to you bhai. Its like a 100% chance of gaining a mental illness if it happens to you

 

[madma]

Holyshit bro 3... Seems like alot on here got some sort of rape. I feel for u bhai. Ur story way worse than mine I was 12, still prepubertal but that shit fucks w me to. If it helps u relate or feel better I struggled w porn too. Not in the way that most do like just gooning to shit, The only stuff I watched was step mom porn. ( Got fucked by an older babysitter, she was a decade and half or so older than me) I would purposely try and find videos that were very similar to my situation which was basically a dominate older woman and I dude just getting sex because a milf seduced him. I got soo addicted that I found this one vid that was extremely similar to my story that Ive probably wacthed it 50 times. I think by watching it I was trying to understand myself better and relate to the guy. Some other fuck shit is that I cant initate a move on agirl and ive fumbled the bag like 7 times after getting a girl to my room. Its most likely becuase sex was forced on me and when it happened I just froze up and dissociated, Now I freeze up, get hard immediately, and get really nervous when things get even slightly sexual. LIke it was bad the first time I touched another foid she grabbed my hadn and just started walking w me and I got instantly hard, This is not to say I get hard whenever I touch a girl. Its not only if I get touched and dont expect it. Like some girl randomly grabbing my arm and trying to compliment me. If I were to voluntarily hug a girl im fine. Another thing is, I cant stand the sound kissing and lips smacking. my offender tried kissing me and I jsut stood there stone faced close eyed and still remember the sound of her lips. Aside from that the worst thing is I seperate love from sex in my head. When I imagine sex its very violent. Much like what happened to me except im the violent one. It makes me feel better, i guess. But I could never have sex w a girl I love and respect. I have a close friend a guess shes a gf, I enjoy holding her hand and talking to her but I could never ever imagine fucking her.


The advice I can give is try to understand the weird tendcies u have that were cuaed by them, and slowly expose ur self to them to get over ur fears and issues. Like Ill eventually have to make out w my girl. Im lwk dreading it, ill have to tell her to go slow, and yeah it makes me seem beta and whatever but its better than never overcoming ur fear and problems. Soon one day I may be able to have loving not vioent sex w a girl I like. U too can have a normal happy sex life. It starts wit slowly overcoming ur fears and getting rid of whats holding u back. Quit porn, journal abt ur thoughts on this, find a girl who can understand you, maybe confront ur abuser and forgive them if u can. I still havent been able to confront my abuser but If I do i just want her to admit she wronged me and I hope that when i do im mature enough to let it go and forgive her.

This is prob the most genuine message ive written to someone hear. Im sorry this happened to u bhai. If u want to DM im happy to talk. God bless.

Ive tried replacing porn with going outside more it actually works pretty well, you just have to keep yourself busy. I think its more of a boredom thing, like we need constant satisfaction or constant dopamine because of reinforcement from porn itself onto the reward system.

 

[Doesitmatter?]

Same shit my cousins used to do, i remember one of my cousin flashing her pussy to me after showering, I was 6-7

 

[Humbert Humbert]

I wish I got raped

 

[sluttysuzy420]

Yeah it’s true. I remember there was a lightskin kid that sat next to me in 5th grade, had the exact mannerisms of my brother and kinda looked the same. He would constantly search of animals fucking on his chromebook and try to find medical images of vaginas. Definition of The Raped

holyshit thats weird

 

[sluttysuzy420]

I wish I got raped

at this age u do. if it happened to u b4 puberty it fucks w u.

 

[sluttysuzy420]

Wow thanks for the message I appreciate it a lot. I kind of realized that the most evil people ive ever encountered are women. I know of women that outrank any male 'gooner'. There was this girl that was talking to me and she said she had sexual fantasies of wanting to fuck a dead corpse because she would have "full control of it", she also has fantasies about having sex with men that were asleep, another girl I knew was begging to be raped by someone and would constantly talk about her sexual fetishes. It just boggles my mind that men are seen as the creepy weirdos when so many women like this exist. Like yes men might stare at a girls ass or whatever, but some of the women in my life were straight up sexually abusive, creepy and lacked basic human empathy. It is insane that a 27 year old babysitter would even think to do that shit to a 12 year old. She doesnt even care that shes going to mentally scar you forever, probably no thought in her mind when she was doing that.

Rape is one of the most traumatizing things that could ever possibly happen to someone, sorry that happened to you bhai. Its like a 100% chance of gaining a mental illness if it happens to you

Yeah i guess u could say I had mental illness but im getting over it. Kinda like how u can get over over ADHD. I used to wet my bed alot after that shit happened but I havent pissed in my bed in like 3 years. slowly w careful deliberation these things can heal.

 

[ozuhdm]

stop mogging us

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

I smell larp.

You were 3 and you remember everything vividly? Makes no sense.

 

[pajjeetslayer]

I smell larp.

You were 3 and you remember everything vividly? Makes no sense.

thats what i was thinking

 

[holytruecoper]

i think larp. i learned about sex when i was in first grade(6 years old) i remember watching nurse porn on my dads laptop it was good but eventually i got caught later that day and since than i got this overwhelming feeling over bad ass nurses

 

[asdvek]

This literally never fucking happened

At age 3 you can't even get erect so yeah

What the fuck

 

[newgen/cel]

fakecels

 

[madma]

I smell larp.

You were 3 and you remember everything vividly? Makes no sense.

its legit the only thing i remember also i think i might have been 4 or 5. all i remember from childhood is my grandparents. that experience, and christmas

 

[madma]

This literally never fucking happened

At age 3 you can't even get erect so yeah

What the fuck

I wasnt erect I stuck my flaccid penis inside of her also I was getting erections at like 5

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

I wasnt erect I stuck my flaccid penis inside of her also I was getting erections at like 5

Impossible, you’d have a 1 inch penis and sticking it in flaccid is basically impossible.

 

[asdvek]

Impossible, you’d have a 1 inch penis and sticking it in flaccid is basically impossible.

Yeah

OP is a retard larping

 

[madma]

Impossible, you’d have a 1 inch penis and sticking it in flaccid is basically impossible.

the thing is I stuck it in for like 5 seconds. and felt too uncomfortable and almost started crying. but that wasnt the worst part. I dont know how big my toddler dick and it doesnt fucking matter, was but she would force me to eat her out and she would suck my penis

 

[madma]

Yeah

OP is a retard larping

im thinking about it and it does sound like a masterful larp and I wish it was. but the whole "doctor" and "house" experiences people have when they are young is so common. thats basically what happened to me, I wouldnt consider myself raped. but I think she was raped and I was a victim of her way of coping with that. Cuz her dad is just some guy that plays fucking call of duty in my grandpas basement and does nothing all day. it didnt really affect me that much other than the fact I have porn addiction and all the sex we did was like 5-10 seconds long. Yes I did have a micropenis at that age and yes she forced me to put it inside of her

 

[asdvek]

im thinking about it and it does sound like a masterful larp and I wish it was. but the whole "doctor" and "house" experiences people have when they are young is so common. thats basically what happened to me, I wouldnt consider myself raped. but I think she was raped and I was a victim of her way of coping with that. Cuz her dad is just some guy that plays fucking call of duty in my grandpas basement and does nothing all day. it didnt really affect me that much other than the fact I have porn addiction

BRO WROTE A FUCKING PARAGRAPH

FUCK OFF DUDE

THIS NIGGER THINKS I DONT HAVE ADHD

 

[madma]

BRO WROTE A FUCKING PARAGRAPH

FUCK OFF DUDE

THIS NIGGER THINKS I DONT HAVE ADHD

TLDR: You are raped, while I get raped it doesnt affect me. The difference between me and you is that mines physical and yours is mental

 

[madma]

i think larp. i learned about sex when i was in first grade(6 years old) i remember watching nurse porn on my dads laptop it was good but eventually i got caught later that day and since than i got this overwhelming feeling over bad ass nurses

I sound like a sympathy begging faggot but im telling the truth. I dont want sympathy I just wanted atleast someone to know this shit happened to me

 

[iblamericky]

happened to me too but kinda different I was older

 

[madma]

tmi deleted

 

[KikeishBirdcel]

Weird fantasy

 

[madma]

Weird fantasy

i knew there were going to be larp allegations lol

 

[madma]

happened to me too but kinda different I was older

I think its a really common experience. like what im saying doesnt sound too crazy and out there. I wasnt actually fucking her or was erect or anything. But most likely she was sexually abused and was coping by doing that shit to me. I did stick my penis inside her but I wasnt hard, didnt know what sex was, didnt know what an erection was, it lasted a max 10 seconds and I was wanted nothing to do with being inside her. I was forced to, I wasnt even thrusting or anything, it was completely stagnant and I was begging for it not to happen, my grandpa was even knocking at the bathroom door asking why we were both in the bathroom at the same time at the beginning before we did that stuff. "YOU HAVE A 1 INCH DICK AT 3 YOU CANT DO THAT" yeah nigger I didnt fucking want to do that

 

[PseudoMaxxer]

the thing is I stuck it in for like 5 seconds. and felt too uncomfortable and almost started crying. but that wasnt the worst part. I dont know how big my toddler dick was but she would force me to eat her out and she would suck my penis

Bro aight this is weird as fuck for you to imagine these pedo stories and right then down.

There’s no fucking way any of this happened and every detail you add makes it seem more and more obvious.

Genuinely kys.