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ElySioNs
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little background on us. We went to high school together and were best friends, we relied on each other to blow off steam and just unload our problems to each other throughout our senior year. We went to separate colleges but I ended up transferring to hers and that's when we started dating.
We've lived together for 3 years and gotten along great! We go on dates regularly, take trips together and rely on each other for support with all of our problems. She's been wanting to get married for the past year or so but I asked her to wait until she finishes grad school next year. I dropped out of college and have a stable job and financially support both of us. She contributes to meals and groceries now and then but for the most part she works just to save money in case we need it for an emergency.
My job is very time consuming. I work on call and am at different times of day and sometimes I can be gone for a few days but we always text or call each other while we're apart. Sometimes when I'm gone she'll go out with her girlfriends and have a few drinks, I don't stress it as I trusted her completely. She's never shown any signs of infidelity and had had a friend who cheated on one of her other girlfriends so she shunned the guy. She even hates cheaters on movies and tv!
Well this past Friday I went to work at 11pm and she was just getting ready to go out with her friends. We kissed said our I love yous and went on about our business. The whole night I had a shaky feeling so around 3am I text her saying I loved her and hope she's having a good night. Obviously no response but that's not uncommon. She'll usually text in the morning when she wakes up. I got off work at 11am and was home about 12pm. As I was pulling in she pulled in right behind me. When she got out she was wearing the same clothes as the night before and looked a mess. She kissed me on the cheek timidly and we walked inside. As soon as I closed the door she broke down in tears and was just holding onto my legs for dear life. She said her friends met a guy at the bar who started buying them shots. He was touching her shoulders and mainly paying attention to her or so she says. She said she got my text, he saw it and grabbed her phone telling her to ignore it and have fun. This pissed me off to no end but I didn't say anything, I let her tell her stories. She said she made out with him and he drove her car back to his place and they had sex. I stood there quiet for what seemed like 10 minutes and started putting my work bags away and getting ready for a shower. I was emotionally gone, I felt absolutely nothing for her at that moment. I scared myself in my mind because my body went on autopilot and just started doing my normal home routine. She followed me like a puppy dog asking if I was going to say anything. I asked her if she enjoyed it and she stood there shocked and asked if I even cared about what happened. I told her "Why would it matter to me what you do? You're a single woman, you can do what you want." She started wailing and flooding tears and it just didn't phase me. I was done. I told her I was going to take a shower and she needed to be gone when I got out. She tried stopping me from going in the bathroom and begged me to talk to her but I wasn't having it.
Well she was gone when I got out. I didn't hear from her at all Saturday but I heard from her mom who was apologizing to me. She had told her mother everything that happened and apparently she hung up on her ken daughter. She tried calling me over 20 times Saturday but I was still just not there emotionally. I thought I had ended this strongly, completely over her instantly but here I am today with nothing but her on my mind. Missing her and wanting her. I wanted to hear her voice so I called her and we both cried over the phone. I want to take her back even though I know I shouldn't. It's just now starting to eat me apart inside and it sucks! I don't know what happened to the strong me that was just there but now I'm a wreck. What am I supposed to do here? Try talk to her? Try rekindling this thing? I've always said I'd never take back a cheater AND she's always hated cheaters with a passion! Every time I think about it I despise her but then I start longing for her. I'm just confused right now.
We've lived together for 3 years and gotten along great! We go on dates regularly, take trips together and rely on each other for support with all of our problems. She's been wanting to get married for the past year or so but I asked her to wait until she finishes grad school next year. I dropped out of college and have a stable job and financially support both of us. She contributes to meals and groceries now and then but for the most part she works just to save money in case we need it for an emergency.
My job is very time consuming. I work on call and am at different times of day and sometimes I can be gone for a few days but we always text or call each other while we're apart. Sometimes when I'm gone she'll go out with her girlfriends and have a few drinks, I don't stress it as I trusted her completely. She's never shown any signs of infidelity and had had a friend who cheated on one of her other girlfriends so she shunned the guy. She even hates cheaters on movies and tv!
Well this past Friday I went to work at 11pm and she was just getting ready to go out with her friends. We kissed said our I love yous and went on about our business. The whole night I had a shaky feeling so around 3am I text her saying I loved her and hope she's having a good night. Obviously no response but that's not uncommon. She'll usually text in the morning when she wakes up. I got off work at 11am and was home about 12pm. As I was pulling in she pulled in right behind me. When she got out she was wearing the same clothes as the night before and looked a mess. She kissed me on the cheek timidly and we walked inside. As soon as I closed the door she broke down in tears and was just holding onto my legs for dear life. She said her friends met a guy at the bar who started buying them shots. He was touching her shoulders and mainly paying attention to her or so she says. She said she got my text, he saw it and grabbed her phone telling her to ignore it and have fun. This pissed me off to no end but I didn't say anything, I let her tell her stories. She said she made out with him and he drove her car back to his place and they had sex. I stood there quiet for what seemed like 10 minutes and started putting my work bags away and getting ready for a shower. I was emotionally gone, I felt absolutely nothing for her at that moment. I scared myself in my mind because my body went on autopilot and just started doing my normal home routine. She followed me like a puppy dog asking if I was going to say anything. I asked her if she enjoyed it and she stood there shocked and asked if I even cared about what happened. I told her "Why would it matter to me what you do? You're a single woman, you can do what you want." She started wailing and flooding tears and it just didn't phase me. I was done. I told her I was going to take a shower and she needed to be gone when I got out. She tried stopping me from going in the bathroom and begged me to talk to her but I wasn't having it.
Well she was gone when I got out. I didn't hear from her at all Saturday but I heard from her mom who was apologizing to me. She had told her mother everything that happened and apparently she hung up on her ken daughter. She tried calling me over 20 times Saturday but I was still just not there emotionally. I thought I had ended this strongly, completely over her instantly but here I am today with nothing but her on my mind. Missing her and wanting her. I wanted to hear her voice so I called her and we both cried over the phone. I want to take her back even though I know I shouldn't. It's just now starting to eat me apart inside and it sucks! I don't know what happened to the strong me that was just there but now I'm a wreck. What am I supposed to do here? Try talk to her? Try rekindling this thing? I've always said I'd never take back a cheater AND she's always hated cheaters with a passion! Every time I think about it I despise her but then I start longing for her. I'm just confused right now.
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