My grandpa is dead and everything’s worse now

[PsychoDsk]

It’s genuinely my fault

My last words to him 4 months ago were ‘i hate you i don’t know if i wanna see you again’
Now he’s dead

When my grandma passed 8 years ago, he was on the verge of going too because his body couldn’t handle the pain he had from her leaving, it’s the same thing all over again but it’s just completely over now

My mom said he abandoned his hygiene and was just generally pessimistic after we had that argument.

I have no clue what to feel
I’m so fucking lost and there’s not a single person i can talk to about this irl

My life’s a mess

He literally raised me until i was 10
How could i act like that i genuinely don’t know

I hate who i am so much
My mom’s in a deep hole too now and I left her 4 months ago too
She’s trying to reconnect but i genuinely can’t

Why did i turn out like this
I’ll never understand

Oh well

 

[Yuqwi]

It’s genuinely my fault

My last words to him 4 months ago were ‘i hate you i don’t know if i wanna see you again’
Now he’s dead

When my grandma passed 8 years ago, he was on the verge of going too because his body couldn’t handle the pain he had from her leaving, it’s the same thing all over again but it’s just completely over now

My mom said he abandoned his hygiene and was just generally pessimistic after we had that argument.

I have no clue what to feel
I’m so fucking lost and there’s not a single person i can talk to about this irl

My life’s a mess

He literally raised me until i was 10
How could i act like that i genuinely don’t know

I hate who i am so much
My mom’s in a deep hole too now and I left her 4 months ago too
She’s trying to reconnect but i genuinely can’t

Why did i turn out like this
I’ll never understand

Oh well

Sorry for your loss brother, I know it’s hard but really don’t blame yourself you couldn’t have known

 

[Nyrо]

Who tf speaks like this to his Grandpa

Don’t blame ur self tho

Emotions are stronger than anything

 

[PsychoDsk]

He’s been in the hospital for more than a week
I had enough time to visit but didn’t

I was too busy obsessing over myself for fucking what

Good god i’m dying before 30

 

[Mansur]

You were behaving selfish and ungrateful but I obv cant look into the argument

The only thing you can do now is learn from your mistakes

Regardless you should always try to keep good contact with family, Its a tradition in mine to never leave the house without saying goodbye to everyone, as anything could happen. And the opportunity to make things good again or make this person think about you in a better way after they are dead is gone forever

There are levels to it but you get my point

And Im sorry for your loss

 

[ltbsmagnet]

It’s genuinely my fault

My last words to him 4 months ago were ‘i hate you i don’t know if i wanna see you again’
Now he’s dead

When my grandma passed 8 years ago, he was on the verge of going too because his body couldn’t handle the pain he had from her leaving, it’s the same thing all over again but it’s just completely over now

My mom said he abandoned his hygiene and was just generally pessimistic after we had that argument.

I have no clue what to feel
I’m so fucking lost and there’s not a single person i can talk to about this irl

My life’s a mess

He literally raised me until i was 10
How could i act like that i genuinely don’t know

I hate who i am so much
My mom’s in a deep hole too now and I left her 4 months ago too
She’s trying to reconnect but i genuinely can’t

Why did i turn out like this
I’ll never understand

Oh well

holy fuck. rip grandpa

 

[anondude]

I think the best thing you could do is reconnect with ur mother and rip to ur grandad

 

[romanstock]

You are the male version of the foids that you hate.

 

[Lundgren]

Restore your relations with your mother while you still can

 

[Bars]

Shit happens

 

[chromednash]

man up nigga