larpngrey
KHHV stonecold trucel
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2 days ago, i finally found the courage to tell her that i dont wanna be in a relationship anymore. maybe one day ill regret this decision, maybe one day ill look back at this moment with emptiness in my chest, but for now, it feels like the only choice left for me. ever since my past relationship, love doesnt feel warm anymore. it feels dangerous. every promise sounds temporary, every i love you feels like a sentence waiting to rot. i dont think i can trust foids the same way again, not after everything she turned me into. if someone asked me how i feel about my past foid now, id say hatred mixed with grief. because the person who once made me feel alive is also the same person who slowly killed the way i see love. i still remember when she told me she would never repost those “ihatemybf” posts like she was different from everyone else. but one day, i accidentally found her second account, and there she was, reposting things that made me look like some terrible boyfriend, as if i was the monster in her story and thats what hurts the most. i was misunderstood by someone i loved with everything inside me. i was turned into the villain even though all i ever did was try my hardest to keep her happy. i gave her patience, loyalty, effort, my time, my heart — pieces of myself ill never fully get back. meanwhile, she made me feel replaceable so easily. sometimes i still stare at the ceiling at night and wonder what exactly i did to deserve this kind of pain. was loving her too much my mistake? was caring too deeply the reason i ended up broken? all i ever wanted was love. not games, not manipulation, not temporary feelings. just love. something genuine enough to make me feel safe for once but instead, love became the reason my heart learned how to hate
