Anon2323
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My fucking life
(sorry if anything is mistranslated, I am Spanish, so I write in Spanish and then translate it)
I’m an HLTN 5'9 and my whole life has been a nightmare. Well, let me correct that it was better when I was little because I didn't grasp the gravity of my situation. I was always a failure I was really ugly. Quarantine ruined me even more I gained a lot of weight, became a mouth breather, etc. Recently, I saw a photo of myself from a few years ago on an old phone and deleted everything. I couldn't stand seeing it remembering how I was treated and how much I hated myself. I deleted it all in a panic attack; I never wanted to see that again.
I’ve managed to ascend quite a bit—even though I’m not handsome compared to many people and still have a long way to go, I’m proud of what I’ve achieved. I’ve reached a point where people might still treat me badly, but at least they treat me like a human being, and I don't get laughed at in public anymore. I recently started a relationship with a girlan LTB, 5'1 with a great ass. Honestly, I thought I’d finally stop believing in the blackpill and be happy for once, since I’d started connecting with girls over the last few months.
But that all changed, because I forgot that I’m an HLTN and the halo effect will always be there to ruin my life. Since I can't rely on my looks, if I make even the slightest mistake, all the blame falls on me and that’s exactly what happened. This girl dumped me for posting a shirtless photo to a private account that only she and my friends could see WTF. It just goes to show how the halo effect works when you're ugly you cannot do mistakes if I were at least an HMTN, this wouldn't have happened.
My life is a nightmare all I think about is ascending. Everyone laughs at me even my friends reacted to what she did by laughing at me only a few offered actual advice. Why the hell does everyone treat me this way? Why am I the target of mockery when I treat everyone else well? And even those who don't treat me badly at first eventually do once they get comfortable with me. Everyone sells me out over nothing. I remember when a whole group asked for my Instagram just to mock me this girl spent two days talking to me and laughing at me behind my back. When her friend messaged me on Instagram to make fun of me, I told him to go fuck himself I was in such a bad place. They came over wanting to beat me up and surrounded me, and what did my so-called friends do? They sided with them, laughed at me, and became friends with them. That’s when I realized this world is absolute shit.
Sometimes I just want to stop living, though I’ll ascend before that happens. I just want to know what it’s like for someone to treat me well, to have a family that loves me or even just a real father, not some asshole living somewhere else because he’s acting like a child. I just want someone to share moments with, without being the butt of the joke or a scapegoat for people to take their tension out on. Honestly, I just want to be loved, and every day this feeling kills me a little more...
TEXTO EN ESPAÑOL (ORIGINAL)
Soy un Hltn de altura 5.9 y toda mi vida fue un horror bueno corrijo de pequeño era mejor por que no entendia la gravedad de mi vida. Siempre fui un fracaso era muy feo, la cuarentena me arruino demas, subi mucho peso, respire por la boca etc... hace poco vi una foto de mi hace unos años en un movil antiguo y lo borre todo no podia soportar ver eso como me trataban y lo mucho que me odiaba lo borre todo con un ataque de ansiedad, no queria volver a ver eso jamas.
He ascendido bastante aunque comparado con mucha gente no sea guapo y me quede mucho pero admiro haber hecho eso. he llegado a un punto que ya me tratan mal pero al menos como un humano y no se rien de mi en lugares publicos. Hace poco empeze una relacion con una chica, una ltb de 5.1 con un gran culo. La verdad yo creia que por fin dejaria de creer en la black pill y seria feliz de una vez ya que en los ultimos meses empeze a tener contacto con chicas.
Pero todo eso cambia por que no recordaba que soy un hltn y el halo efect siempre estara hay para arruinarme la vida. Como no puedo tirar de mi apariencia si tengo un minimo error toda la culpa ira para mi y eso es lo que paso... esta chica me dejo por subir una foto sin camiseta a una cuenta privada que solo estaba ella y mis amigos... esto me demuestra como es el halo efect siendo feo y si fuese al menos hmtn esto no pasaria.
Mi vida es un horror todo lo que pienso es en ascender, todo el mundo se rie de mi incluso la reaccion de mis amigos a lo que hizo esta chica a sido reirse de mi solo algunos me dieron consejos. Por que cojones todo el mundo me trata asin y soy el centro de burlas tratando a todos los demas bien y los que no lo hacen lo haran cuando cojan confianza conmigo.
todo el mundo me vende por cualquier cosa recuerdo cuando me pidieron el instagram para reirse de mi un grupo entero, esa chica se llevo hablando conmigo dos dias riendose sin yo saberlo y cuando me hablo su amigo para reirse de mi por instagram le dije que se fuese a la mierda de lo mal que estaba. Ellos vinieron y me querian pegar me rodearon y que hicieron mis supuestos amigos juntarse con ellos, reirse de mi y hacerse amigo de ellos hay me di cuenta que este mundo es una puta mierda
a veces solo quiero dejar de vivir pero ascendere antes de ello solo quiero saber lo que es que alguien me trate bien y poder siquiera tener una familia que me quiera o tan solo un padre de verdad y no un gilipollas que vive en otro lugar por que es un niño chico, o tan solo alguien con quien compartir momentos sin ser el centro de burla como un chivo expiatorio en quien liberar la tension, de verda solo quiero ser amado y cada dia este sentimiento me mata mas...
(sorry if anything is mistranslated, I am Spanish, so I write in Spanish and then translate it)
I’m an HLTN 5'9 and my whole life has been a nightmare. Well, let me correct that it was better when I was little because I didn't grasp the gravity of my situation. I was always a failure I was really ugly. Quarantine ruined me even more I gained a lot of weight, became a mouth breather, etc. Recently, I saw a photo of myself from a few years ago on an old phone and deleted everything. I couldn't stand seeing it remembering how I was treated and how much I hated myself. I deleted it all in a panic attack; I never wanted to see that again.
I’ve managed to ascend quite a bit—even though I’m not handsome compared to many people and still have a long way to go, I’m proud of what I’ve achieved. I’ve reached a point where people might still treat me badly, but at least they treat me like a human being, and I don't get laughed at in public anymore. I recently started a relationship with a girlan LTB, 5'1 with a great ass. Honestly, I thought I’d finally stop believing in the blackpill and be happy for once, since I’d started connecting with girls over the last few months.
But that all changed, because I forgot that I’m an HLTN and the halo effect will always be there to ruin my life. Since I can't rely on my looks, if I make even the slightest mistake, all the blame falls on me and that’s exactly what happened. This girl dumped me for posting a shirtless photo to a private account that only she and my friends could see WTF. It just goes to show how the halo effect works when you're ugly you cannot do mistakes if I were at least an HMTN, this wouldn't have happened.
My life is a nightmare all I think about is ascending. Everyone laughs at me even my friends reacted to what she did by laughing at me only a few offered actual advice. Why the hell does everyone treat me this way? Why am I the target of mockery when I treat everyone else well? And even those who don't treat me badly at first eventually do once they get comfortable with me. Everyone sells me out over nothing. I remember when a whole group asked for my Instagram just to mock me this girl spent two days talking to me and laughing at me behind my back. When her friend messaged me on Instagram to make fun of me, I told him to go fuck himself I was in such a bad place. They came over wanting to beat me up and surrounded me, and what did my so-called friends do? They sided with them, laughed at me, and became friends with them. That’s when I realized this world is absolute shit.
Sometimes I just want to stop living, though I’ll ascend before that happens. I just want to know what it’s like for someone to treat me well, to have a family that loves me or even just a real father, not some asshole living somewhere else because he’s acting like a child. I just want someone to share moments with, without being the butt of the joke or a scapegoat for people to take their tension out on. Honestly, I just want to be loved, and every day this feeling kills me a little more...
TEXTO EN ESPAÑOL (ORIGINAL)
Soy un Hltn de altura 5.9 y toda mi vida fue un horror bueno corrijo de pequeño era mejor por que no entendia la gravedad de mi vida. Siempre fui un fracaso era muy feo, la cuarentena me arruino demas, subi mucho peso, respire por la boca etc... hace poco vi una foto de mi hace unos años en un movil antiguo y lo borre todo no podia soportar ver eso como me trataban y lo mucho que me odiaba lo borre todo con un ataque de ansiedad, no queria volver a ver eso jamas.
He ascendido bastante aunque comparado con mucha gente no sea guapo y me quede mucho pero admiro haber hecho eso. he llegado a un punto que ya me tratan mal pero al menos como un humano y no se rien de mi en lugares publicos. Hace poco empeze una relacion con una chica, una ltb de 5.1 con un gran culo. La verdad yo creia que por fin dejaria de creer en la black pill y seria feliz de una vez ya que en los ultimos meses empeze a tener contacto con chicas.
Pero todo eso cambia por que no recordaba que soy un hltn y el halo efect siempre estara hay para arruinarme la vida. Como no puedo tirar de mi apariencia si tengo un minimo error toda la culpa ira para mi y eso es lo que paso... esta chica me dejo por subir una foto sin camiseta a una cuenta privada que solo estaba ella y mis amigos... esto me demuestra como es el halo efect siendo feo y si fuese al menos hmtn esto no pasaria.
Mi vida es un horror todo lo que pienso es en ascender, todo el mundo se rie de mi incluso la reaccion de mis amigos a lo que hizo esta chica a sido reirse de mi solo algunos me dieron consejos. Por que cojones todo el mundo me trata asin y soy el centro de burlas tratando a todos los demas bien y los que no lo hacen lo haran cuando cojan confianza conmigo.
todo el mundo me vende por cualquier cosa recuerdo cuando me pidieron el instagram para reirse de mi un grupo entero, esa chica se llevo hablando conmigo dos dias riendose sin yo saberlo y cuando me hablo su amigo para reirse de mi por instagram le dije que se fuese a la mierda de lo mal que estaba. Ellos vinieron y me querian pegar me rodearon y que hicieron mis supuestos amigos juntarse con ellos, reirse de mi y hacerse amigo de ellos hay me di cuenta que este mundo es una puta mierda
a veces solo quiero dejar de vivir pero ascendere antes de ello solo quiero saber lo que es que alguien me trate bien y poder siquiera tener una familia que me quiera o tan solo un padre de verdad y no un gilipollas que vive en otro lugar por que es un niño chico, o tan solo alguien con quien compartir momentos sin ser el centro de burla como un chivo expiatorio en quien liberar la tension, de verda solo quiero ser amado y cada dia este sentimiento me mata mas...
