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American born Indian woman here need help. I grew up in America, and my parents were pretty lenient people, they were cool with me dating, having boyfriends and all. Thing was they wanted me married off by 25. I ended up failing that goal, and then my entire family went into panic mode, we have an older cousin whom didn’t get married and is now beyond the point where she can have children, and since then everyone was really worried. I told my parents that I would meet the guys they would introduce me to. My parents put up ads on shadii.com, most of the guys I ran into were straight up awkward. They would be looking at the ground while talking to me, while at the same time trying to say all these machoistic things. I then ended up meeting my husband, we got a long great, he has a good job, was great at talking, also shared similar progressive views. We never talked about sex, since technically we are both supposed to be virgins, (parents tell everyone I am).American born Indian woman here need help. I grew up in America, and my parents were pretty lenient people, they were cool with me dating, having boyfriends and all. Thing was they wanted me married off by 25. I ended up failing that goal, and then my entire family went into panic mode, we have an older cousin whom didn’t get married and is now beyond the point where she can have children, and since then everyone was really worried. I told my parents that I would meet the guys they would introduce me to. My parents put up ads on shadii.com, most of the guys I ran into were straight up awkward. They would be looking at the ground while talking to me, while at the same time trying to say all these machoistic things. I then ended up meeting my husband, we got a long great, he has a good job, was great at talking, also shared similar progressive views. We never talked about sex, since technically we are both supposed to be virgins, (parents tell everyone I am).
He lives in another city so we just talk to each other on skype, learn about each other. And then in 3 months time we get married in India, have a huge wedding, lasted three days. And then when we go to have sex it was horrible. When we were in the hotel bedroom, he just started sweating, and I decided to help him out. I went to unbutton his pants and then I saw his dick. I didn’t have a ruler but it was like 4 inches long, and skinny. I thought I just needed to get him worked up so I started kissing him while trying to give him a hand job with two fingers and nothing worked. He is the first uncut I been with and I don't know how hand jobs work for them. When we went to have sex, he just got on top of me and started thrusting away, but he was dripping sweat all over me. I had no idea what to do. I could barely feel him. Every guy I had been to prior have all been above average, nothing huge.He lives in another city so we just talk to each other on skype, learn about each other. And then in 3 months time we get married in India, have a huge wedding, lasted three days. And then when we go to have sex it was horrible. When we were in the hotel bedroom, he just started sweating, and I decided to help him out. I went to unbutton his pants and then I saw his dick. I didn’t have a ruler but it was like 4 inches long, and skinny. I thought I just needed to get him worked up so I started kissing him while trying to give him a hand job with two fingers and nothing worked. He is the first uncut I been with and I don't know how hand jobs work for them. When we went to have sex, he just got on top of me and started thrusting away, but he was dripping sweat all over me. I had no idea what to do. I could barely feel him. Every guy I had been to prior have all been above average, nothing huge.
Right now I really am lost on what to do. I have given him pointers, and some things have gotten better, I can get some sort of pleasure when he uses his hands. But beyond that nothing. The sweating hasn’t gotten any better either. Also he doesn’t know how to really initiate, he kind of just expects it to happen. I want to make things better but I don’t know how, conversations go with him saying okay really quickly. No way in hell he would ever go to a sex counselor. Right now I just encourage him to have quickies before I head off to work, so I can shower afterwards. Apart from sex, we have a great relationship. Although I don’t enjoy sex with him, I really do enjoy cuddling with him, and doing stuff together. I don’t want to divorce over this, but it is getting to me. I dread the next time I have to have sex. Right now I am okay with it, but I wonder if I will regret this later down the road. I know that if I do choose to divorce my family’s image will be ruined, and the likelihood of another Indian wanting to marry me goes to 0. And, that finding a guy whom wants to be a father will also be low. I don’t want to become a crazy cat lady, so reddit please help me.
He lives in another city so we just talk to each other on skype, learn about each other. And then in 3 months time we get married in India, have a huge wedding, lasted three days. And then when we go to have sex it was horrible. When we were in the hotel bedroom, he just started sweating, and I decided to help him out. I went to unbutton his pants and then I saw his dick. I didn’t have a ruler but it was like 4 inches long, and skinny. I thought I just needed to get him worked up so I started kissing him while trying to give him a hand job with two fingers and nothing worked. He is the first uncut I been with and I don't know how hand jobs work for them. When we went to have sex, he just got on top of me and started thrusting away, but he was dripping sweat all over me. I had no idea what to do. I could barely feel him. Every guy I had been to prior have all been above average, nothing huge.He lives in another city so we just talk to each other on skype, learn about each other. And then in 3 months time we get married in India, have a huge wedding, lasted three days. And then when we go to have sex it was horrible. When we were in the hotel bedroom, he just started sweating, and I decided to help him out. I went to unbutton his pants and then I saw his dick. I didn’t have a ruler but it was like 4 inches long, and skinny. I thought I just needed to get him worked up so I started kissing him while trying to give him a hand job with two fingers and nothing worked. He is the first uncut I been with and I don't know how hand jobs work for them. When we went to have sex, he just got on top of me and started thrusting away, but he was dripping sweat all over me. I had no idea what to do. I could barely feel him. Every guy I had been to prior have all been above average, nothing huge.
Right now I really am lost on what to do. I have given him pointers, and some things have gotten better, I can get some sort of pleasure when he uses his hands. But beyond that nothing. The sweating hasn’t gotten any better either. Also he doesn’t know how to really initiate, he kind of just expects it to happen. I want to make things better but I don’t know how, conversations go with him saying okay really quickly. No way in hell he would ever go to a sex counselor. Right now I just encourage him to have quickies before I head off to work, so I can shower afterwards. Apart from sex, we have a great relationship. Although I don’t enjoy sex with him, I really do enjoy cuddling with him, and doing stuff together. I don’t want to divorce over this, but it is getting to me. I dread the next time I have to have sex. Right now I am okay with it, but I wonder if I will regret this later down the road. I know that if I do choose to divorce my family’s image will be ruined, and the likelihood of another Indian wanting to marry me goes to 0. And, that finding a guy whom wants to be a father will also be low. I don’t want to become a crazy cat lady, so reddit please help me.
