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theblackestofpills
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Living my fucking life is honestly worse than a nightmare.
I crave social interaction like mad because I've abstained from it for about 3 years outside of my family.
I've rarely ever spoke to girls outside my family either because I went to a shitty behaviour school where there were barely any girls and the girls there were clapped anyway.
It sucks because now I'm just sitting at home and when I say I have nothing to live for, I genuinely have nothing to live for.
Sure I've got weight to lose but fuck, that's gonna take a long long time.
Honestly sorry to say this and I don't care if I get banned. I'll probably end up doing a Jake davison before I lose weight.
There's only so much punching and beat downs I can take before I finally give up.
It's truly done and I am saying this with all my fucking emotions right now. It's fucking done. I'm done. I don't care what things I do no more. I'm a broken man.
I've been broken for ages. I talk to my fucking self until I found this forum but even this won't help me now. Nothing will. The coping can only go so far.
As I said, this is my last post. I don't care if I get banned and I know what will happen so whatever.
All I want you to know is that I might not come out of this alive and I'll go insane and do exactly what Jake davison and ER did. I can feel this happening and it really won't be long until this shit happens.
I can't take no more beatings, no more shit no more nothing.
I don't care what I do anymore.
It's totally done for me.
This is it guys. This is where it boils down to. Me just sitting here like a ticking time bomb waiting to explode. And I'm sure it isn't going to be that much longer.
Something truly bad will happen soon and I won't be able to hold back from it. My life is fully finished at this point. This is where it ends. My journey.
I am genuinely saying this with all my freaking emotions right now.
Thank you all for reading my posts. It's been a pleasure being able to know some of you guys. I probably won't come out of this battle. I am truly going to end up like Jake davison very soon.
Again thank you very much. It's been a pleasure meeting you all. Thank you. Bye.
I crave social interaction like mad because I've abstained from it for about 3 years outside of my family.
I've rarely ever spoke to girls outside my family either because I went to a shitty behaviour school where there were barely any girls and the girls there were clapped anyway.
It sucks because now I'm just sitting at home and when I say I have nothing to live for, I genuinely have nothing to live for.
Sure I've got weight to lose but fuck, that's gonna take a long long time.
Honestly sorry to say this and I don't care if I get banned. I'll probably end up doing a Jake davison before I lose weight.
There's only so much punching and beat downs I can take before I finally give up.
It's truly done and I am saying this with all my fucking emotions right now. It's fucking done. I'm done. I don't care what things I do no more. I'm a broken man.
I've been broken for ages. I talk to my fucking self until I found this forum but even this won't help me now. Nothing will. The coping can only go so far.
As I said, this is my last post. I don't care if I get banned and I know what will happen so whatever.
All I want you to know is that I might not come out of this alive and I'll go insane and do exactly what Jake davison and ER did. I can feel this happening and it really won't be long until this shit happens.
I can't take no more beatings, no more shit no more nothing.
I don't care what I do anymore.
It's totally done for me.
This is it guys. This is where it boils down to. Me just sitting here like a ticking time bomb waiting to explode. And I'm sure it isn't going to be that much longer.
Something truly bad will happen soon and I won't be able to hold back from it. My life is fully finished at this point. This is where it ends. My journey.
I am genuinely saying this with all my freaking emotions right now.
Thank you all for reading my posts. It's been a pleasure being able to know some of you guys. I probably won't come out of this battle. I am truly going to end up like Jake davison very soon.
Again thank you very much. It's been a pleasure meeting you all. Thank you. Bye.
