MulletM1chas
Pro Bonesmasher
- Joined
- Jun 2, 2025
- Posts
- 2,942
- Reputation
- 2,237
the reason why i quit will be said later first i want to write down my lfie story before i say last words
0-12
i was born in 2009 and since the day i was born i had asymetrical face and most visible eyes tho now i almost fixed it ( its not gone but i minimazed it as much as i could) asymetrical eyes made me apear weird and i gave creep vibe my whole life bcs one of my eyes was set much lower than second and i also had no/almost none uee in right eye and some in left which made it much worse, my familly is pretty good looking my mom tho she is like 40% bf and old she still has zygos that pop out my dad has soo low set eyebrows that even when he takes photo from down he has no uee kinda like o pry and i think he could be htn+ eyecel in his prime my brother is born chad he had hunter eyes since birth and in his prime in my opinion he mogs chico bcs they have similar features but my brother has more dimo and masculine face overall and my sis she is just copy paste of my mom tho is not my sis we just grew up toghether she is my cousin but i call her sister, she was model at a young age but unfortunaetly she was destroyed by modernity and i feel bad for her bcs she could be high class model but its her life not mine, she kinda looks like gio scotti but with thinner eyebrows and lower set eyebrows, and i was born and grew up as a ugly gnome the black ship of the familly cursed since birth. i was bullied in scholl since day 1 for some time i made friends but i and them felt i was difrent so they did not cared much about me i was like the fifth wheel, i remember one day in a changing room i loudly talked about movie i watched the day before i remember it it was man of steal with henry cavil anyways some rich kid yealed ''no one cares about this shut up'' or something like this i came to him and hit him in the face with all my strenght i was 7 at that time and everyone ignored it, later in scholl i had few more incidents when i screamed and tried to kill other ppl in rage but noone really cared much to do something with it i remember in 8th grade when i was 14 some clown pourd water between my shirt and my back i was doing very important exam so i instantly become violent chasing him in the class yealling and throwing chairs at him while he was hiding behind teacher that did not gave a fuck about what's hapening some 180cm guys tried to stop me but they were skinny and i was working out at that time for i think 1+ year and my weight and bf was similar to what i have now and i am 16 and from that time i grew like 6cm anyways they tried choking me or just stoping on the ground but i thrown one over my head and pushed other on a desk he hit his head or something i don't remember i only stopped when supervising teacher and scholl director bursted into class to stop me, i had much incidents like this but it was always going to director being silent then to scholl psychologist and being silent too and they did nothing with it, back to my bullying i remeber when i was 7 we were waiting for teacher with whole class some girl was chalanged i think and started to beat me up and i tried to pretend i do not feel anything but she was kicking my whole body and punching me she only stopped when she saw teacher was coming, also i never had a stable friend group or friends well i had but they were the same 3/4 guys since 1st grade and we were Together and suddenly for no reason they were hating me and bulluying me i remember once they closed me in a scholl locker bcs i was soo small i fited there, or they were just making of me online or something like that, i was always the shortest and weakest bcs my mom did not feed me at all i was eating cereal and some bread and carbs overral until age 13 so that's also why i hate and avoid carbs so much, when i was 4 bcs my diet was so poor i had to go to hospital and they put some pipe into my throat and feed me some mush, also when i was 12 i was in hospital again bcs i was bit by a tick and bcs i came so late i almost got a tick-borne encephalitis but i survived and then they also found i was on the bottom of underweight so they injected me with some weightgainers and some random stuff, oh and also my dad left when i was 2 yo so i had to grew up in a fammily that was 95% females only male was my brother that mooved out when he was 19 and i was 6 i think so i am fucked up emotional weak retard anyways after the hospital when i was as 12yo all my new friends i had left me again and i become so depresed i stoped going out and i was playing games 12 hours a day and then i developed social anxiety which i mostly healed of but the scar is left and i strugle with many normal things ppl do and i did not went to a doc or something i had to fight it myself forcing myself to go out and i was so scared i was shaking at the age 11-12 i grew my hair at longest they were to my shoulders and suddenly everyone started to make fun of me even more bcs as i said i was short underdeveloped and easy target they called me trans gay older ppl pushed me when i was going upstairs everyday at late 12 i was forced to cut them bcs i could not take this anymore, and they targeted me specifically bcs there was other guy in my class that had longer hair then me and they did not cared about him. so combining social anxiety and all i went threw i developed this fear of judgment that i struggle with to this day i became disguisted by my face body height EVERYTHING and i was only 12 oh and for the ending of this section i want to say i tried suicide when i was 11 and all my mom and scholl did was send me to talk to some old bitch and some cool dude that's all a 11 year old that want's and tried to kill himself yeah idc i still hate my mom for it to this day well its one of many reasons but i hope you understand she is fat old comunist feminist and dumb woman + double single mom so you know i had it hard.
13-14
when i hit 13 i watched american psycho and fight club and other good popular movies clasics yeah that word describes it good and something clicked i became training i bought dumbless i began doing pushup squats educating myself about training and i was 2 months after my 13 birth day 19th march was the day i started working out EVERYDAY and i keept it for 9 months, i started eating more and healthier not healthy but normal lets say meat some vegies and carbs i fastly grew (17cm in one year) and gained much muscle suddenly when i started beating every kid that bullied me this whole time at arm wrestling they gained respect of me and stopped bullying me then i also started looksmaxing then i thoud my face is not bad but i said that litle improved is not bad so i did some softmax shit nothing to do much but idk, at age of 14 i was gymmaxxed i gues i can say strongest and leanest in the whole scholl bcs i was in the 8th grade so the highest but i remember one day it was almost end of scholl year and i was just siting and waiting for lesson to end and the teacher that was watching over us said to me ''do you work out your arms are so big and muscular'' and i shocked replied ''yeah i do'' and second after it some bop yealed from the back seat ''him good'' and started laughing that trigered some other ppl to laugh she was pretty back then bcs she was early bloomer and developed fast so she had permisions to do that but she got karma bcs as i saw her last time as 16 yo now she was ugly asf and decomposed so i guess karma bitch also same bitch found my acc and comented vomiting emojins on my gym vids i was doing at the time and showed it to everyone, it was on my first og and prob only tiktok acc szyszka_ or eliasdepoor as my last username or tag idk, anyway i reached my prime in mid 14 when i was gymmaxed and apealmaxxed but then i made the worst decision of my life
the great descension: only good decision at that time was to start kickboxing which i was doing for 6 months but i quit bcs when i joined there were buffed 180cm+ 18yo guys and there were like 5 of them maybe and when i left it was 30+ ppl and there were teens even kids woman old young every human type i mean age gender and even body type it wasn't same like when i joined so i left and now i train from time to time at home to keep my fighting skills, so my hair i became nazi and skinhead for a few months and i ofc shawed my head every 2 weeks and it looked horible ppl at scholl called me ''egg'' and it was high scholl now so there was no crying and throwing chairs and everyone that made me mad, i also wanted to bulk so i started eating a lot and with that a lot of carbs and saturated fats which made me look the worst i ever was and i did not even gained that much weight,
15
3 days before my 15th birth day i got rejected again for i think 10th time and i decided to lock in in looksmaxing and i minimized gym to maximize face development which made me loose some muscle bcs i switched mostly to calisthenics and i just lost muscle i was slowly ascending and also growing my hair and in april i think i got a haircut i did not made my hair shorter just styled it into a mullet and kept growing at late 15 i also started rock climbing which i do to this day tho i am not im my prime anymore i just do it for fun, nothing much happend here i was also bullied a litle by my ''friends'' and some guys from older class but it was mostly calling me hairy which dosen't sound bad in enligsh but they used such a word for it it hurt and my ''friends'' were guy from scholl before so og and some other guy from old scholl but we had neutral relation and did not talked much and some other guy that is definiotion of goy, later i stopped caring much about them only for the og guy bcs he was playing games with me at age 11-12 and started working out with me sometimes like we meet at the bars and just did some pullups and stuff like that, i also created acc here and idk it was pretty normal year let's say oh and i started eating raw meat in may and more raw eggs bcs i was already eating raw eggs in my shakes when i was bulking at 14 and also my violent rage atacks led me to kiling a chiken and eating it raw and drinking its blood idk i think that's it
16
the begining of 16 was harsh bcs on my birthday i started cutting myself and self harm in generall i mostly became the person i am now this raw meat eating looksmaxing psycho that apears as normal i started skipping scholl very very much and started priorotizing my looks over everyhting like if i had to get 6 hours of sleep lets say and go to scholl or skip and get 12 i skiped i also had this weird sleeping routine but i was sleeping 12h a day so maybe it wasn't that bad at all at february 24 i meat a girl that later became the love of my life i know these words are big but i'l come back to her later, i also look the best i ever looks surpasing my prime 14yo gymmaxed maybe not body not yet but facially i do i really do and i also came back to pure gym at february too and my gf she is my firt girlfriend and i won't say anything private here but she knows EVERYTHING she knows about primal looksmaxing even i post here i am also bad person and piecie of shit and sudenly i got female atention so yes i have a gf and i texted other girls nothing romantic i never thoud about cheating it was normal smalltalks with random girls i had knows before i meet my gf but she got insanly mad and said she will dump me when i wont completly change RIGHT NOW it wasn't nothing schoked bcs i planed to quit when i find a gf but i didn't so now i live threw the consequences this all would not happen if i just quit 4 months ago nothing much happend here female atention some foids texted me on ig some even came to me irl and asked for my ig but tho i was texting them i NEVER thoud about cheating later i realised when i was young when my dad was taking me for some time in a vacation or something he did the same he had a gf and he was flirting with other girls or for example when he saw young girl with nice ass he said loudly ''uuuu nice ass'' when young me sat next to him so idk if its genes or his influence but i NEVER thoud about cheating, she i able to forgive me but only if i delete my tt acc which i did and now i leave org i won't delete my acc maybe i'l comeback one day but tiktok had to be gone i send everything i had to @justtrynalookgood on discord, i know my genes are good so i will keep looksmaxing in a shadow and hoping i will ascend even more in next 2 years bcs i did changed much for better for last 1.5 year so i think this is all i said much but not everyhting i will had to spend whole day on making this post to say EVERYTHING so i think this is goodbye if you read all of this i wish the best for you ascend and left that shit bcs this is a fucking curse i will prob never recover from it but i will do everyhting for my gf and for your information i would not do that much for some random girl she is wife material that forgave me everything so goodbye idk i'l gues THIS IS MY CURSE
@justtrynalookgood @mxsonn @ezet @Canthus @turkcelfatcel @negativ_canthalshit @K34 @faciallyrecessed @tomacōck @Xazzy
0-12
i was born in 2009 and since the day i was born i had asymetrical face and most visible eyes tho now i almost fixed it ( its not gone but i minimazed it as much as i could) asymetrical eyes made me apear weird and i gave creep vibe my whole life bcs one of my eyes was set much lower than second and i also had no/almost none uee in right eye and some in left which made it much worse, my familly is pretty good looking my mom tho she is like 40% bf and old she still has zygos that pop out my dad has soo low set eyebrows that even when he takes photo from down he has no uee kinda like o pry and i think he could be htn+ eyecel in his prime my brother is born chad he had hunter eyes since birth and in his prime in my opinion he mogs chico bcs they have similar features but my brother has more dimo and masculine face overall and my sis she is just copy paste of my mom tho is not my sis we just grew up toghether she is my cousin but i call her sister, she was model at a young age but unfortunaetly she was destroyed by modernity and i feel bad for her bcs she could be high class model but its her life not mine, she kinda looks like gio scotti but with thinner eyebrows and lower set eyebrows, and i was born and grew up as a ugly gnome the black ship of the familly cursed since birth. i was bullied in scholl since day 1 for some time i made friends but i and them felt i was difrent so they did not cared much about me i was like the fifth wheel, i remember one day in a changing room i loudly talked about movie i watched the day before i remember it it was man of steal with henry cavil anyways some rich kid yealed ''no one cares about this shut up'' or something like this i came to him and hit him in the face with all my strenght i was 7 at that time and everyone ignored it, later in scholl i had few more incidents when i screamed and tried to kill other ppl in rage but noone really cared much to do something with it i remember in 8th grade when i was 14 some clown pourd water between my shirt and my back i was doing very important exam so i instantly become violent chasing him in the class yealling and throwing chairs at him while he was hiding behind teacher that did not gave a fuck about what's hapening some 180cm guys tried to stop me but they were skinny and i was working out at that time for i think 1+ year and my weight and bf was similar to what i have now and i am 16 and from that time i grew like 6cm anyways they tried choking me or just stoping on the ground but i thrown one over my head and pushed other on a desk he hit his head or something i don't remember i only stopped when supervising teacher and scholl director bursted into class to stop me, i had much incidents like this but it was always going to director being silent then to scholl psychologist and being silent too and they did nothing with it, back to my bullying i remeber when i was 7 we were waiting for teacher with whole class some girl was chalanged i think and started to beat me up and i tried to pretend i do not feel anything but she was kicking my whole body and punching me she only stopped when she saw teacher was coming, also i never had a stable friend group or friends well i had but they were the same 3/4 guys since 1st grade and we were Together and suddenly for no reason they were hating me and bulluying me i remember once they closed me in a scholl locker bcs i was soo small i fited there, or they were just making of me online or something like that, i was always the shortest and weakest bcs my mom did not feed me at all i was eating cereal and some bread and carbs overral until age 13 so that's also why i hate and avoid carbs so much, when i was 4 bcs my diet was so poor i had to go to hospital and they put some pipe into my throat and feed me some mush, also when i was 12 i was in hospital again bcs i was bit by a tick and bcs i came so late i almost got a tick-borne encephalitis but i survived and then they also found i was on the bottom of underweight so they injected me with some weightgainers and some random stuff, oh and also my dad left when i was 2 yo so i had to grew up in a fammily that was 95% females only male was my brother that mooved out when he was 19 and i was 6 i think so i am fucked up emotional weak retard anyways after the hospital when i was as 12yo all my new friends i had left me again and i become so depresed i stoped going out and i was playing games 12 hours a day and then i developed social anxiety which i mostly healed of but the scar is left and i strugle with many normal things ppl do and i did not went to a doc or something i had to fight it myself forcing myself to go out and i was so scared i was shaking at the age 11-12 i grew my hair at longest they were to my shoulders and suddenly everyone started to make fun of me even more bcs as i said i was short underdeveloped and easy target they called me trans gay older ppl pushed me when i was going upstairs everyday at late 12 i was forced to cut them bcs i could not take this anymore, and they targeted me specifically bcs there was other guy in my class that had longer hair then me and they did not cared about him. so combining social anxiety and all i went threw i developed this fear of judgment that i struggle with to this day i became disguisted by my face body height EVERYTHING and i was only 12 oh and for the ending of this section i want to say i tried suicide when i was 11 and all my mom and scholl did was send me to talk to some old bitch and some cool dude that's all a 11 year old that want's and tried to kill himself yeah idc i still hate my mom for it to this day well its one of many reasons but i hope you understand she is fat old comunist feminist and dumb woman + double single mom so you know i had it hard.
13-14
when i hit 13 i watched american psycho and fight club and other good popular movies clasics yeah that word describes it good and something clicked i became training i bought dumbless i began doing pushup squats educating myself about training and i was 2 months after my 13 birth day 19th march was the day i started working out EVERYDAY and i keept it for 9 months, i started eating more and healthier not healthy but normal lets say meat some vegies and carbs i fastly grew (17cm in one year) and gained much muscle suddenly when i started beating every kid that bullied me this whole time at arm wrestling they gained respect of me and stopped bullying me then i also started looksmaxing then i thoud my face is not bad but i said that litle improved is not bad so i did some softmax shit nothing to do much but idk, at age of 14 i was gymmaxxed i gues i can say strongest and leanest in the whole scholl bcs i was in the 8th grade so the highest but i remember one day it was almost end of scholl year and i was just siting and waiting for lesson to end and the teacher that was watching over us said to me ''do you work out your arms are so big and muscular'' and i shocked replied ''yeah i do'' and second after it some bop yealed from the back seat ''him good'' and started laughing that trigered some other ppl to laugh she was pretty back then bcs she was early bloomer and developed fast so she had permisions to do that but she got karma bcs as i saw her last time as 16 yo now she was ugly asf and decomposed so i guess karma bitch also same bitch found my acc and comented vomiting emojins on my gym vids i was doing at the time and showed it to everyone, it was on my first og and prob only tiktok acc szyszka_ or eliasdepoor as my last username or tag idk, anyway i reached my prime in mid 14 when i was gymmaxed and apealmaxxed but then i made the worst decision of my life
the great descension: only good decision at that time was to start kickboxing which i was doing for 6 months but i quit bcs when i joined there were buffed 180cm+ 18yo guys and there were like 5 of them maybe and when i left it was 30+ ppl and there were teens even kids woman old young every human type i mean age gender and even body type it wasn't same like when i joined so i left and now i train from time to time at home to keep my fighting skills, so my hair i became nazi and skinhead for a few months and i ofc shawed my head every 2 weeks and it looked horible ppl at scholl called me ''egg'' and it was high scholl now so there was no crying and throwing chairs and everyone that made me mad, i also wanted to bulk so i started eating a lot and with that a lot of carbs and saturated fats which made me look the worst i ever was and i did not even gained that much weight,
15
3 days before my 15th birth day i got rejected again for i think 10th time and i decided to lock in in looksmaxing and i minimized gym to maximize face development which made me loose some muscle bcs i switched mostly to calisthenics and i just lost muscle i was slowly ascending and also growing my hair and in april i think i got a haircut i did not made my hair shorter just styled it into a mullet and kept growing at late 15 i also started rock climbing which i do to this day tho i am not im my prime anymore i just do it for fun, nothing much happend here i was also bullied a litle by my ''friends'' and some guys from older class but it was mostly calling me hairy which dosen't sound bad in enligsh but they used such a word for it it hurt and my ''friends'' were guy from scholl before so og and some other guy from old scholl but we had neutral relation and did not talked much and some other guy that is definiotion of goy, later i stopped caring much about them only for the og guy bcs he was playing games with me at age 11-12 and started working out with me sometimes like we meet at the bars and just did some pullups and stuff like that, i also created acc here and idk it was pretty normal year let's say oh and i started eating raw meat in may and more raw eggs bcs i was already eating raw eggs in my shakes when i was bulking at 14 and also my violent rage atacks led me to kiling a chiken and eating it raw and drinking its blood idk i think that's it
16
the begining of 16 was harsh bcs on my birthday i started cutting myself and self harm in generall i mostly became the person i am now this raw meat eating looksmaxing psycho that apears as normal i started skipping scholl very very much and started priorotizing my looks over everyhting like if i had to get 6 hours of sleep lets say and go to scholl or skip and get 12 i skiped i also had this weird sleeping routine but i was sleeping 12h a day so maybe it wasn't that bad at all at february 24 i meat a girl that later became the love of my life i know these words are big but i'l come back to her later, i also look the best i ever looks surpasing my prime 14yo gymmaxed maybe not body not yet but facially i do i really do and i also came back to pure gym at february too and my gf she is my firt girlfriend and i won't say anything private here but she knows EVERYTHING she knows about primal looksmaxing even i post here i am also bad person and piecie of shit and sudenly i got female atention so yes i have a gf and i texted other girls nothing romantic i never thoud about cheating it was normal smalltalks with random girls i had knows before i meet my gf but she got insanly mad and said she will dump me when i wont completly change RIGHT NOW it wasn't nothing schoked bcs i planed to quit when i find a gf but i didn't so now i live threw the consequences this all would not happen if i just quit 4 months ago nothing much happend here female atention some foids texted me on ig some even came to me irl and asked for my ig but tho i was texting them i NEVER thoud about cheating later i realised when i was young when my dad was taking me for some time in a vacation or something he did the same he had a gf and he was flirting with other girls or for example when he saw young girl with nice ass he said loudly ''uuuu nice ass'' when young me sat next to him so idk if its genes or his influence but i NEVER thoud about cheating, she i able to forgive me but only if i delete my tt acc which i did and now i leave org i won't delete my acc maybe i'l comeback one day but tiktok had to be gone i send everything i had to @justtrynalookgood on discord, i know my genes are good so i will keep looksmaxing in a shadow and hoping i will ascend even more in next 2 years bcs i did changed much for better for last 1.5 year so i think this is all i said much but not everyhting i will had to spend whole day on making this post to say EVERYTHING so i think this is goodbye if you read all of this i wish the best for you ascend and left that shit bcs this is a fucking curse i will prob never recover from it but i will do everyhting for my gf and for your information i would not do that much for some random girl she is wife material that forgave me everything so goodbye idk i'l gues THIS IS MY CURSE
@justtrynalookgood @mxsonn @ezet @Canthus @turkcelfatcel @negativ_canthalshit @K34 @faciallyrecessed @tomacōck @Xazzy
