MyDreamIsToBe183CM
Currently have a 86% of dying
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After a long time of deep thinking, I’ve realized there isn’t a single way I can get out of this hole I’ve been in for two years.
I’ve just been coping and coping and coping the past two years and I think today I’m finally accepting it’s ovER. I’ve tried literally everything to improve my mental health and nothing has worked
I can’t believe I’ve barely ate past few days when it was my favorite thing to do, think I’ve literally lost all my appetite. And I’m actually a fucking nasty subhuman bro I remember I used to make fun of those suicidal niggers back then because they posted on the internet about being happy they brushed their teeth or sum shit, but I literally don’t have the motivation to do any of that shit anymore. Feels like idgaf because why does it matter when I’m going to die in a few months anyways?
That being said, I’m just gonna start selling everything I own to give it to my family after I CTB. Don’t even know why I still bother with getting good grades with school, but ig it’s a way to pass time till by time comes.
I got my credit card taken away, but I have a few pieces of cryptocurrency laying around in my wallet. Should be enough to buy this highly lethal drug and other meds to ctb.
Idk why I keep rambling about my schizo ass on this forum ngl I just feel like doing it ngl cuz I got no one else to talk too without them thinking I’m a psychopath.
But anyways in around a few months, most likely around June or hopefully earlier, I’ll make my final goodbye post. Currently I don’t see anyway that will save me from roping, but maybe therapy might change my mind. Still doubt it tho
I’ve just been coping and coping and coping the past two years and I think today I’m finally accepting it’s ovER. I’ve tried literally everything to improve my mental health and nothing has worked
I can’t believe I’ve barely ate past few days when it was my favorite thing to do, think I’ve literally lost all my appetite. And I’m actually a fucking nasty subhuman bro I remember I used to make fun of those suicidal niggers back then because they posted on the internet about being happy they brushed their teeth or sum shit, but I literally don’t have the motivation to do any of that shit anymore. Feels like idgaf because why does it matter when I’m going to die in a few months anyways?
That being said, I’m just gonna start selling everything I own to give it to my family after I CTB. Don’t even know why I still bother with getting good grades with school, but ig it’s a way to pass time till by time comes.
I got my credit card taken away, but I have a few pieces of cryptocurrency laying around in my wallet. Should be enough to buy this highly lethal drug and other meds to ctb.
Idk why I keep rambling about my schizo ass on this forum ngl I just feel like doing it ngl cuz I got no one else to talk too without them thinking I’m a psychopath.
But anyways in around a few months, most likely around June or hopefully earlier, I’ll make my final goodbye post. Currently I don’t see anyway that will save me from roping, but maybe therapy might change my mind. Still doubt it tho