ryderb
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My entire life is actually all rope fuel. I've ascended probably 3 points up naturally, which sounds great, except for the fact I literally get no bitches now and I get called transgender. I have pretty good dimo, so I don't know why I can't get girls, but I am 5'8", 17, haven't grown for a bit, and it's just like I don't know what to do. I can't get a job, and I've applied to places. I LDAR every day. I hope to go to university, but I have shit grades and will have to take an extra year.
I'm inside my house right now just staring in my mirror, writing this as my parents argue like every other fucking day. I wish I could just tell them to shut the fuck up. They make fun of me for failing religion, but I hate being at a catholic school. I'm higher IQ than both of my parents and they treat me like an 8 year old. They literally buy shit to feed raccoons when we barely have food. They won’t give me my health card to go to the doctors because I wanna see if i can get a acne medication, because they say “I dont need it” same when I asked for a ortho when we have coverage, but I’ve had bad acne for years even after trying benozyl peroxide and salyicic acid routines and other otc methods. I hear this shit every day and get yelled at for my toothbrush being in the wrong place and for going outside for a walk. So I don't do shit but goon and LDAR all day.
I have no social skills. I want a girl, but I'm afraid to talk to them. I get less bitches than I did when I was LTN, and I'm just an insecure incel. I've had multiple relationships for months and haven't got to smash and was getting cheated on the whole time just being a cuck. Even my friends just clown me. I swear every time I get a little bit of confidence, someone kills it immediately and puts me in a LDAR cycle again.
I had some fat ass tell me I'm cheek biting when my zygos are big and I'm low bf, but I proved it and fat ass goes around with his friends calling me hullo bro. I'm going insane in this house and outside. I need pregabalin to cope most of the times I go out, and I keep telling myself I'll stop smoking and vaping and I'll start locking in, but I'm just a loser. And I look at my dad right now, bro has no job, goons, and smokes and vapes all day. I just failed my parents when I was 15, and now they won't ever trust me or treat me the same ever again. I can't live if the cycle is gonna repeat. I need to do something now or just end it.
the mental decline is brutal. i look in the mirror just focusing on my downward maxilla growth and under eye support while listening to absolute retard arguments through the wall. It is over for my mental health if I stay in this house. The gym feels pointless when i cant even eat nothing but ramen noodles and i’d rather not bloat, from the second i wake up to the sound of screaming. I am completely done wasting my prime years rotting on forums and not getting anywhere while my hair line gets ruined by stress. i need to dump the substances and gooning.
I'm inside my house right now just staring in my mirror, writing this as my parents argue like every other fucking day. I wish I could just tell them to shut the fuck up. They make fun of me for failing religion, but I hate being at a catholic school. I'm higher IQ than both of my parents and they treat me like an 8 year old. They literally buy shit to feed raccoons when we barely have food. They won’t give me my health card to go to the doctors because I wanna see if i can get a acne medication, because they say “I dont need it” same when I asked for a ortho when we have coverage, but I’ve had bad acne for years even after trying benozyl peroxide and salyicic acid routines and other otc methods. I hear this shit every day and get yelled at for my toothbrush being in the wrong place and for going outside for a walk. So I don't do shit but goon and LDAR all day.
I have no social skills. I want a girl, but I'm afraid to talk to them. I get less bitches than I did when I was LTN, and I'm just an insecure incel. I've had multiple relationships for months and haven't got to smash and was getting cheated on the whole time just being a cuck. Even my friends just clown me. I swear every time I get a little bit of confidence, someone kills it immediately and puts me in a LDAR cycle again.
I had some fat ass tell me I'm cheek biting when my zygos are big and I'm low bf, but I proved it and fat ass goes around with his friends calling me hullo bro. I'm going insane in this house and outside. I need pregabalin to cope most of the times I go out, and I keep telling myself I'll stop smoking and vaping and I'll start locking in, but I'm just a loser. And I look at my dad right now, bro has no job, goons, and smokes and vapes all day. I just failed my parents when I was 15, and now they won't ever trust me or treat me the same ever again. I can't live if the cycle is gonna repeat. I need to do something now or just end it.
the mental decline is brutal. i look in the mirror just focusing on my downward maxilla growth and under eye support while listening to absolute retard arguments through the wall. It is over for my mental health if I stay in this house. The gym feels pointless when i cant even eat nothing but ramen noodles and i’d rather not bloat, from the second i wake up to the sound of screaming. I am completely done wasting my prime years rotting on forums and not getting anywhere while my hair line gets ruined by stress. i need to dump the substances and gooning.
