Chubbycel
The fat makes you vulnerable
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I turned 20 last month and I feel like I haven't experienced anything. I have social anxiety, I think it has manifested itself since I was little by the fact that I care too much about what people think, sometimes I want to go out just to get some fresh air and go further than the terrace of my apartment but even the neighbors make me paranoid. I stopped my studies temporarily to discover the world of work in a call center just to situate myself and to tell myself that I don't want to do this shit all my life even if I actually like what I do. Literally my best days are on Wednesdays and Thursdays because I get to talk to people with a common interest other than my mom, sometimes the last day I start in the morning and finish at 12:30 just to be able to talk to people on the night shift because I know that from this Thursday to next Wednesday I'll be locked up in my room for fear of going out I'm a fucking fatcel, recently I found out I don't have diabetes but a high glycemic index, I want to work out in the gym and maybe get a bodybuilder's shape anyway taking steroids and ending up like zyzz (rip legend) will always be better than what I'm living now but I just don't have the motivation or the fucking discipline to stick to a program plus since I'm living at my mom's house (I can't find a place to live because I'm being guardiansed by my dad) I won't be able to follow proper nutrition. Of course I'm a virgin because I have zero social life and I'm fat as shit although I know I've attracted girls but that only happens a couple of times a year if I'm lucky, I've thought about taking my virginity in a brothel in Belgium but every time I think about it I jerk off and in the end I'm disgusted with it even though I'm addicted to this brain fog.
Welcome to the life of a "white" fatcel loser.
Welcome to the life of a "white" fatcel loser.