DnrGriffith
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I ll talk to u about my life.
So the only thing that is an obsession and my only goal in mind is to ascend and I ll do anything to be more beautiful. It all started when I was 13 but all my life before that I was bullied idk why maybe cause I was younger than the other or different looking...I was that kid with glasses freckles and always smarter and more wise than the other kids at school. Until I was 12 yo 13 I don't remember exactly I had enough of it I started to do martial arts to be able to defend myself following the advice of my father. Soon I started doing workouts to be big...and...like many kids on the Internet I fall into the red pill. I was fucking obsessed with hamza's videos or other redpillersgiving advices on how to build your empire or why should u trade your youth for your 30s...I was 14 when I was the deepest into that self destruction shit. I was ghosting everyone and even my family. I had a lot of opportunities with girls butvi was 'sacrificing' them for my future. After some time I discovered Brett Maverick and looksmaxxing. Slowly but surely I felt into that, pal god mindset, Nero angelo or other youtubers started to replace my redpill copes. I started mewing chewing hard stuff getting more social... soon I got my 1st of after I turned 16. She was an orthodox girl from Georgia I had great time with her and she brought me into religion that I soon quitted because it s fucking stupid and I started to listen to Goatis at that time. So because she was fucking annoying about religion and she look mid and even quite bad without make up I dumped her. Until recently I was a retarded healthmaxxer thinking raw primal diet ll ascend me but I joined .org and had great advices from people here. Now I look better than anyone at school but I still hate myself and most of the girls. I have few friends I spend most of my free time or week ends watching mogger edits, getting on .org, or playin video games with friends sometimes. My life is empty. I don't enjoy anything or anyone but i hate most. I am not depressed or sad I just feel weightless. I ve asked a random girl for a date she said she loves me but can't go cause her parents don't want her to see man nor have a bf. So I stopped texting her cause it took me time that I had to spend on useless things that I mentioned before. When I speak yo people I use a personality that is in link with how they like people or see the world. Idk why I do that. I don't know who I am inside. I m kinda lost in my life rn so I ask advice on random people on Internet...Does anyone had a similar feeling? If so why did u do to be where u are now? Is it better? How can I find who u am?
So the only thing that is an obsession and my only goal in mind is to ascend and I ll do anything to be more beautiful. It all started when I was 13 but all my life before that I was bullied idk why maybe cause I was younger than the other or different looking...I was that kid with glasses freckles and always smarter and more wise than the other kids at school. Until I was 12 yo 13 I don't remember exactly I had enough of it I started to do martial arts to be able to defend myself following the advice of my father. Soon I started doing workouts to be big...and...like many kids on the Internet I fall into the red pill. I was fucking obsessed with hamza's videos or other redpillersgiving advices on how to build your empire or why should u trade your youth for your 30s...I was 14 when I was the deepest into that self destruction shit. I was ghosting everyone and even my family. I had a lot of opportunities with girls butvi was 'sacrificing' them for my future. After some time I discovered Brett Maverick and looksmaxxing. Slowly but surely I felt into that, pal god mindset, Nero angelo or other youtubers started to replace my redpill copes. I started mewing chewing hard stuff getting more social... soon I got my 1st of after I turned 16. She was an orthodox girl from Georgia I had great time with her and she brought me into religion that I soon quitted because it s fucking stupid and I started to listen to Goatis at that time. So because she was fucking annoying about religion and she look mid and even quite bad without make up I dumped her. Until recently I was a retarded healthmaxxer thinking raw primal diet ll ascend me but I joined .org and had great advices from people here. Now I look better than anyone at school but I still hate myself and most of the girls. I have few friends I spend most of my free time or week ends watching mogger edits, getting on .org, or playin video games with friends sometimes. My life is empty. I don't enjoy anything or anyone but i hate most. I am not depressed or sad I just feel weightless. I ve asked a random girl for a date she said she loves me but can't go cause her parents don't want her to see man nor have a bf. So I stopped texting her cause it took me time that I had to spend on useless things that I mentioned before. When I speak yo people I use a personality that is in link with how they like people or see the world. Idk why I do that. I don't know who I am inside. I m kinda lost in my life rn so I ask advice on random people on Internet...Does anyone had a similar feeling? If so why did u do to be where u are now? Is it better? How can I find who u am?
