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I started lusting arount the age of 10 and have continued to 16 watching such a massive range of different content from h***tai with weird categories to ph to even memory or to someone in person and i hate myself for it. I often go to sites to find H* and see really weird content involving younger ages in the background and hate it, But i think its slowly corrupting my mind. I was with my babysister and had been randomly semi hrd. I had really bad and regretful intrusive thoughts that my sister was the cause and i hated the thought. But i was close to my sister and couldnt shake the thoughts out of my head. After having these thoughts i hugged my sister while we were on my bed to get rid of the thoughts but i regret it so much. I acted upon such a bad thought that i shouldnt have needed clarification for yet i still in the moment acted. I hate myself and believe the only way to forgive myself is to feel pain for the rest of my life physically and mentally. I plan to do the physical part when i live alone and im currently doing the mental part by severing a relationship ive been in for a long time as i know it will hurt but i dont believe i deserve something as pure as love.
