My Manifesto

[currymaxxer888]

Hey yall, I've been lurking here for quite a while now.

I was bullied at school, bullied at what i do for work (I freelance, not a 9-5)
Never really "respected"

A foid who loves reading chad fanfiction pointed out how I have narrow shoulders infront of everybody
Also pointed out how my chin is recessed and mocks my crossbite
Says my height is useless
Called me a "loser". For no other reason, just for the way I looked.

I can't maintain friends, I am avoidant vexause I know how it is all going to end. The moment i am comfortable with them, they turn on me, because they are biologivvally wired to do so, because I am a ltn framecel. I have height halo but it just makes me stick out more. I just am an advertised target because I stand out (heigtwise atleast)

I already made a thread addressing the situation with my mom's boyfriend.

I also made a thread about the chadlite stealing the rich mtb i was supposed to marry.

Brutal shit.

I always inherently try the "go out of your comfort zone" but girls talk to me out of pity.

My first love (she broke up 8 hours later) who i was totally infatuated with is now a model and is dating mr international of my country (can it get even more brutal than this bruh?)

I try to be comical here, i naturally have a humorous personality, in hindsight as a coping mechanism/ to get approval.

I have ADHD from all the fucked up things that happened to me when I was a kid

I can't focus, stick to one thing for long etc..

My mom is literally spending her time and money for rich chad (he is european and money mogs my entire bloodline 1000x) what the fuck man.

She lost 20% of a signifiant portion of money "helping a chad out" who then blocked her straight after

She treated me like shit when I argued about how wrong her choices were. "you are a child, just be a child"

At the same time gaslights me to fuck and makes me accountable for all her emotions because she 'sacrificed her whole youth" for me

Because she married a fucking retard, who gave me shit fucking genes and passed down his generational mental illnesses.

She told me all the fucked up stufff he asked her to do duing sex (why the fuck would u say that to me)

I've gone through her phone and been traumatized seeing ehr chas with other men and my "Dad"'s boss

I don't even like to go outside because people see me as a "loser" because i have a shit clavicle and a fucking aymetrical face (brain hemispheres fucked from trauma)

She won't leave me the fuck alone even when i tell her to stay out of my life, gaslights me saying she feels suicidal.

Was so fucking jealous my my girlfriends when I had theem (about 3), doesn't want me connecting with my old friends.

I used to think i was special because I felt a detachment rom materialistic things and wanted to ascend to a higher realm but upon lurking here i ralized it is every fucking social reject ever, it is a natural coping mechanism.

I dropped out of university because of how fucking invisible I was.

I have been making money online through ecom, IG, trading etc inconsistently

I can't stick to any fucking routine, i have anxiety when ever i impose a sleep time.

Why did those people call me a loser? why? its all because i looked like one, big skull, narrow shoulders, asymetrical face.

No amount of money can really fix all this, and it all feels like a pike dream (oh just moneymax and hardmax bro... but im being realistic...)

Even later in life after school when i joined boi=xing, i was the target for ridicule even among my coaches tho i was wayy better than the average player there

I see naturally good looking people man.

Even my own father called me a faggot loser and claimed even he himself couldnt have birthed loser like me ( why why?? i did not do anything, i aced my exams at school... even genetically looking at me he knew i was going t grow up to be a genetic dead end loser social reject)

I distictinctly remember my own aunt ridiculing me when i was chosen to be the bestman for a wedding, she literally said i was too ugly ( i was 13 at the time)

My own family.

I used to freelance teach, the fucking kids called me a loser. literally referred to me as a "that fag looking loser" (some 5 years back)

With he blackpill going public people feel less of a resistance to treat u like shit

Lookism just gets amplifies when this knowledge is made public

that chadlite stealing the mtb i was supposed to marry and kids calling me a fucking loser was brutal ropefuel and blackpilling

I was just born this way, i wanted to be loved mab, i wanted somene to prioritize me.

my mom says "you are wierdly alone because you dont go tlk to friends"

I tried talking to me "day 1" and he made clown out of me

The only way i will ever be able to get a girl is betabuxx, i dont want to do that

I see people just born and other people already treat them well, because they were born with good proportions

that ex i mentioned, used to be someone i stayed on calls for hours and hours and taught her the basics of ecom and helped her make some money

now she moneymogs me harddd cz of her model earnings


man.

natural selection man, i am supposed to die off, my genetics are not worth being passed over.

People are naturally programmed to treat me and other non gl people like shit bevase biology wants us to die off

I was born to die off

I am fulfilling that

Thank you to everyone who jfld to my shit posts, pray that im not reborn again.

 

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but dont kill urself nigga

 

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[Arminus]

Your mum is some evil force then they say “Women are the most empathetic gender!”

 

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You still with us??

 

[currymaxxer888]

You still with us??

 

[Sonichu]

The moment i am comfortable with them, they turn on me

Adolescent mindset, but yeah sure.

My mom is literally spending her time and money for rich chad (he is european and money mogs my entire bloodline 1000x) what the fuck man.

She lost 20% of a signifiant portion of money "helping a chad out" who then blocked her straight after

She treated me like shit when I argued about how wrong her choices were. "you are a child, just be a child"

At the same time gaslights me to fuck and makes me accountable for all her emotions because she 'sacrificed her whole youth" for me

Because she married a fucking retard, who gave me shit fucking genes and passed down his generational mental illnesses.

She told me all the fucked up stufff he asked her to do duing sex (why the fuck would u say that to me)

I've gone through her phone and been traumatized seeing ehr chas with other men and my "Dad"'s boss

Boomers and early to early-mid gen X are really self-centered and don't have much foresight. Couple that with a narcissistic personality and you've got hell!! Unfortunately I can relate a little bit, the best advice I can give you is just ignore the shit she says, there is no winning an argument with your parents, just "hm", "ok", "then what", "sure", "oh" your way out of the discussion, trust me.

I dropped out of university because of how fucking invisible I was.

What was your major?

Even later in life after school when i joined boi=xing, i was the target for ridicule even among my coaches tho i was wayy better than the average player there

Meh maybe this is your low self-esteem talking. In a lot of those places they just tend to act agressively towards anyone. My parents put me in boxing classes when I was 13 and there was this thing the teacher would do every week where he would choose one kid randomly and FIGHT them, like really try to fight them, while hurdling insults like "you're so tiny", "pathetic" and things like that. It happened to everyone, but it was indeed insane...

called me a faggot loser

said i was too ugly

"that fag looking loser"

Post face.

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