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Metalfalls
Chinlet cutecel
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Hello, for some reason my recent life had been so unlucky for no reason, its like something or someone cursed me.
Each time i look in the mirror, i saw someone who i shouldve been, a pretty boy cutecel who is unfazed by the destructive world.
My phone camera exposes the harsh reality of my life. Ive been stuck like this and continue to dream about the life i should've had only for my genetics to fail me completely.
My mom even treats me slightly different than to my sister, my sister who is a makeupcel htb pulling chadlites who’s status is over the top.
Just like the jockeys and the blonde american girl. Meanwhile im here, seeing what should've been my life.. My own genes failed me causing my nose to not even be inherited from my mom or my dad. My lips short and big fucking up my nose to lips ratio.
My recessed supra orbitals making me look more of a female. I wish i could feel somebodies touch.
A love that transcends my parents care. A love that silences my parents insults about me, about how i play games all day knowing that i have higher grades than my sister in her past grade.
Why has God abandoned my name, even in games, i met toxic people, better than me, stronger than me, and im completely hopeless.
I have no control over my life, like a ship with no sails. My friends pity and make fun of me, what i repost, i know damn well they could never last a day in my life.
My parents insults, their constant yelling, their constant criticism. It hurts me… deeply. I resent them in my heart, but it my deepest core of my heart, i still love them. I know they work hard, so i accept their insults as they have done it for me and for my 2 other siblings.
I follow my parents orders, i am an obedient child, a sensitive young man who the world hates not because what he have done, but because he is.
I havent tried to harm my self because i know it would make it worse and i would feel pain, and that i am afraid of. Thats how sensitive i am.
This world was never built for me nor was i built for this world, i simply am a random creation, made by God and ignored after. My prayers goes unanswered but i still patiently wait, i cant bring my self to abandon who made me.
I will always wait.
Each time i look in the mirror, i saw someone who i shouldve been, a pretty boy cutecel who is unfazed by the destructive world.
My phone camera exposes the harsh reality of my life. Ive been stuck like this and continue to dream about the life i should've had only for my genetics to fail me completely.
My mom even treats me slightly different than to my sister, my sister who is a makeupcel htb pulling chadlites who’s status is over the top.
Just like the jockeys and the blonde american girl. Meanwhile im here, seeing what should've been my life.. My own genes failed me causing my nose to not even be inherited from my mom or my dad. My lips short and big fucking up my nose to lips ratio.
My recessed supra orbitals making me look more of a female. I wish i could feel somebodies touch.
A love that transcends my parents care. A love that silences my parents insults about me, about how i play games all day knowing that i have higher grades than my sister in her past grade.
Why has God abandoned my name, even in games, i met toxic people, better than me, stronger than me, and im completely hopeless.
I have no control over my life, like a ship with no sails. My friends pity and make fun of me, what i repost, i know damn well they could never last a day in my life.
My parents insults, their constant yelling, their constant criticism. It hurts me… deeply. I resent them in my heart, but it my deepest core of my heart, i still love them. I know they work hard, so i accept their insults as they have done it for me and for my 2 other siblings.
I follow my parents orders, i am an obedient child, a sensitive young man who the world hates not because what he have done, but because he is.
I havent tried to harm my self because i know it would make it worse and i would feel pain, and that i am afraid of. Thats how sensitive i am.
This world was never built for me nor was i built for this world, i simply am a random creation, made by God and ignored after. My prayers goes unanswered but i still patiently wait, i cant bring my self to abandon who made me.
I will always wait.
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