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MY ESSAY, READ IF YOU WANT, DON'T IF YOU DON'T WANT
She has always been like this:
- omg I can't do this, this is hard (for simple things too)
- I can't this I can't that, I don't know this I don't know that
- LITERALLY ALWAYS blames someone else for LITERALLY everything (example: she asks me to go shopping with her; then she says it would have been better if I had not gone with her ''cus I fucked up her entire day and just caused her stress'' JFL
- she also had self-esteem issues in the past (and still does but not to the extend she did before)
My parents are divorced (and have been for over 10 years now) and she keeps yapping about my dad all the time and has been doing this ever since ever since they got divorced (my dad cheated on her).
Lately I have been away from home quite a bit and I've noticed some things about her that were more or less 'normal' in my mind.
I've had self-esteem issues in the past (and this was somewhat because I was skinny, but mostly because I saw how she acted and I started acting like that too (obvious, a kid will imitate what the parents do [in my case I spent a very big majority of my time with my mother], the people you spend most of your time with are the ones you will become most like)
DO YOU KNOW HOW I FIRST HAPPENED TO FIND PORN?
(Right after the divorce)
My mother kept talking shit about my dad and the whore (borderline whore tbh lol, that's true but...) he cheated on her with and she wasn't even trying to water down the words she used when she talked about them (i was 7-8 years old at this point), it was this:
''that fucking whore'' (she used this for both him and her)
''I hope they fucking die''
''She should go work in a whorehouse''
etc. etc....
(My dad is not an angel in this story ofc but I am talking about my mom now)
So... I one day went on the internet (in 2009 when I was 9 yo) and searched up ''whorehouse'' (I heard this word a lot from my mom) and I stumbled upon pornhub.
I then fapped for the first time and I literally didn't even have cum yet, I just had an orgasm but nothing came out.
Ok so let's go back to this
She has always been like this:
- omg I can't do this, this is hard (for simple things too)
- I can't this I can't that, I don't know this I don't know that
..........................
I CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO WRITE ANY MORE, YOU GET THE GIST
SHE WORKS A VERY REPLACEABLE JOB TOO FOR A MINIMUM WAGE AND SHE HAS HAD OFFERS TO GO WORK JUST AS REPLACEABLE JOBS BUT THAT PAY WAY MORE, BUT THIS ISN'T IN THE REGION WE LIVE IN SO SHE IS LIKE ''BUT THIS BUT THAT BLA BLA''.
SHE KEEPS SAYING EVERYTHING IS HARD.
SHE KEEPS BLAMING OTHERS FOR BASICALLY EVERYTHING BAD THAT HAPPENS TO HER.
SHE SAYS SHE HATES HER JOB BUT REFUSES TO ACCEPT THE JOB OFFERS SHE GETS (IN ANOTHER COUNTRY, BUT SHE WOULD BE WITH A FAMILY MEMBER FOR THE FIRST FEW MONTHS).
I NEED TO SPENT AS LITTLE TIME NEXT TO HER AS POSSIBLE, I CAN LITERALLY FEEL HER NEGATIVE ENERGY EVERY TIME I AM NEAR HER
If anyone has/had a similar situation etc say what you did to resolve it or whatever (did you just spend as little time with her as possible... [seems like the best choice].
That's it.
Gonna go listen to some music now and calm down (I just heard her cough and it raised my cortisol levels)
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