irrumator praetor
Lifting so I can crack nigger and jew skulls
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So it all started when I was in middle school (like 5th grade) and the girls and boys my age were getting the girlfriend and boyfriend labels.
The group of the most popular and prettiest girls started making fun of me for my height: "anon is 6ft2! Ha ha! Tall boy, tall boy!" they even likened me to handsome Squidward.
They were showing the google photo on their phones and laughing. I never got over this.
Then in my first year of top tier private highschool: all the annoying bimbo stacies (they had lip fillers and BBLs and wore tight skirts you would usually only see worn in high end clubs, everyday to school. They arrived in limos listening to demi lovato on blast and popping champage through the top window hatch every day) gathered around and started shaming me for my height and muscles "Ha ha he is 6ft5! Muscle freak" I was hitting the gym for my mental health and as a good hobby.
I was always trying to be healthy and have good habits but these wicked and vile people never left me any peace. I was likened to handsome Squidward again and all the old traumas came back to me in a flash. I was also fighting body dysmorphia and had a very sensitive self image.
This lowkey made me break down in front of the mirror (with jeremih - oui 00:08-00:24 playing in the background, looped, while I took thirst trap snaps with an elite gym pump) and I was cursing out why God made so freakishly tall and how I gained muscle mass so fast that I just couldn't be like the normal boys with small twinkish NORMAL frames and skinnyfat NORMAL bodies. Why did I have to carry the curse of 25in bideltoid width (can't even fit through a door frame, like all the normal boys, what a freakshow).
Then in senior year I was finally able to get over my insecurities and find the girl I love and lose my virginity with her. At least I thought so, because she then dumped me because she "cared too much about her own emotional well being over mine" and because "way too many other girls were apparently eyeing me and those of my female friends fog her to death" keep in mind shes 6ft HTB-stacylite ginger with double D cups thats currently doing tryouts for an elite modelling agency across the atlantic. My female friends were all 6ft1-4 averaging nordic-celtic phenotype and were all stacylite+. What was I doing wrong? I was a faithful boyfriend who gave all his heart to a girl just to be dumped like a worthless piece of shit because, once more, of my looks. FML
Then my female friends tried comforting me but likely used the situation to manipulate and groom me and us 11 (me and 10 stacylites) had a group orgy for 8 weeks straight nonstop at my fathers mansion (so fucking vile and disgusting). I cut them all off after that (I felt abused and neglected. They all went back to their boyfriends after this, I felt like pewking).
So I broke down in front of the mirror again with jeremih oui playing looped, again, while snapping thirst traps, again. Cursed out my 6ft6 frame (at that point) and started reading the bible (started posting bible verses on my IG too, no its GENUINE and not PERFORMATIVE).
Whats worse is they started calling me "big dick tall muscle freak" and I barely survived such labels until highschool ended.
Safe to say, going into college, I have a lot of past traumas. The only time I ever felt like emotionally opening up, I got severely abused. I was a victim of sexual assault and even got raped. I hate foids so much man.
I will be posting an update on what happens to me throughout college. Hopefully this time around I will finally be able to get the much needed emotional and relationship development that I was looking for, and also peer acceptance and a positive body image external validation. What do you guys think? Any similar experiences? Surely I'm not the only one right. This has to be common and wide spread...
The group of the most popular and prettiest girls started making fun of me for my height: "anon is 6ft2! Ha ha! Tall boy, tall boy!" they even likened me to handsome Squidward.
They were showing the google photo on their phones and laughing. I never got over this.
Then in my first year of top tier private highschool: all the annoying bimbo stacies (they had lip fillers and BBLs and wore tight skirts you would usually only see worn in high end clubs, everyday to school. They arrived in limos listening to demi lovato on blast and popping champage through the top window hatch every day) gathered around and started shaming me for my height and muscles "Ha ha he is 6ft5! Muscle freak" I was hitting the gym for my mental health and as a good hobby.
I was always trying to be healthy and have good habits but these wicked and vile people never left me any peace. I was likened to handsome Squidward again and all the old traumas came back to me in a flash. I was also fighting body dysmorphia and had a very sensitive self image.
This lowkey made me break down in front of the mirror (with jeremih - oui 00:08-00:24 playing in the background, looped, while I took thirst trap snaps with an elite gym pump) and I was cursing out why God made so freakishly tall and how I gained muscle mass so fast that I just couldn't be like the normal boys with small twinkish NORMAL frames and skinnyfat NORMAL bodies. Why did I have to carry the curse of 25in bideltoid width (can't even fit through a door frame, like all the normal boys, what a freakshow).
Then in senior year I was finally able to get over my insecurities and find the girl I love and lose my virginity with her. At least I thought so, because she then dumped me because she "cared too much about her own emotional well being over mine" and because "way too many other girls were apparently eyeing me and those of my female friends fog her to death" keep in mind shes 6ft HTB-stacylite ginger with double D cups thats currently doing tryouts for an elite modelling agency across the atlantic. My female friends were all 6ft1-4 averaging nordic-celtic phenotype and were all stacylite+. What was I doing wrong? I was a faithful boyfriend who gave all his heart to a girl just to be dumped like a worthless piece of shit because, once more, of my looks. FML
Then my female friends tried comforting me but likely used the situation to manipulate and groom me and us 11 (me and 10 stacylites) had a group orgy for 8 weeks straight nonstop at my fathers mansion (so fucking vile and disgusting). I cut them all off after that (I felt abused and neglected. They all went back to their boyfriends after this, I felt like pewking).
So I broke down in front of the mirror again with jeremih oui playing looped, again, while snapping thirst traps, again. Cursed out my 6ft6 frame (at that point) and started reading the bible (started posting bible verses on my IG too, no its GENUINE and not PERFORMATIVE).
Whats worse is they started calling me "big dick tall muscle freak" and I barely survived such labels until highschool ended.
Safe to say, going into college, I have a lot of past traumas. The only time I ever felt like emotionally opening up, I got severely abused. I was a victim of sexual assault and even got raped. I hate foids so much man.
I will be posting an update on what happens to me throughout college. Hopefully this time around I will finally be able to get the much needed emotional and relationship development that I was looking for, and also peer acceptance and a positive body image external validation. What do you guys think? Any similar experiences? Surely I'm not the only one right. This has to be common and wide spread...
