My mother is aggressiv

[vampi]

dont get me wrong i love my mother and i thank her for every thing she has given to me.

My mother is way to srs about everything she does, this is cherry picked but still extreme:

My mom brought me to school while i had a fever, per year i had about 10 missing days and those were like routine check ups and funerals.

She made me learn the violin and piano, one i enjoyed, the other i hated.
till today i still play the piano and love every second, but the violin was never for me.
I just couldnt perform as good as she wanted me to be.

For diet she always knows better and critics me about how i eat,

she is unorgenized and blaims it on me.
I ask her for info and never get it, and when i do i get it trough humilation.

I feel like my parents are talking behind my back and that they think im a failure.

I just cant anymore.

Same with everyone in my life, i

have the options but i rarely make action

I just cant do this bro, i am dying inside and it makes me go insane,

All the friends i make leave me after a while so often i just know it is a matter of time

I dont have any motivation to fix what is wrong with me and im loosing hope that i can beat my failures, a bad friend of mine introduced me to porn at the age of 9, i have been struggling to stop since the age of 11, i cant, my life is getting ruined and i cant do anything to fix this.

 

[Resistance.]

Bro, you really wrote a lot.
No one here has the attention span to spend more than 10 seconds on a video — myself included

 

[vampi]

Bro, you really wrote a lot.
No one here has the attention span to spend more than 10 seconds on a video — myself included

i assumed i would have gotten dnr'd anyway,

for me this is mostly so i can lay all this out and look at it objectivly

 

[Resistance.]

As far as I understand, you come from a typical civil servant family.


Another thing is, there’s no need for you to feel unsuccessful — even if your family says so.


Compared to the average person, you’ve improved yourself more than enough

 

[o_Owtf]

dont get me wrong i love my mother and i thank her for every thing she has given to me.

My mother is way to srs about everything she does, this is cherry picked but still extreme:

My mom brought me to school while i had a fever, per year i had about 10 missing days and those were like routine check ups and funerals.

She made me learn the violin and piano, one i enjoyed, the other i hated.
till today i still play the piano and love every second, but the violin was never for me.
I just couldnt perform as good as she wanted me to be.

For diet she always knows better and critics me about how i eat,

she is unorgenized and blaims it on me.
I ask her for info and never get it, and when i do i get it trough humilation.

I feel like my parents are talking behind my back and that they think im a failure.

I just cant anymore.

Same with everyone in my life, i

have the options but i rarely make action

I just cant do this bro, i am dying inside and it makes me go insane,

All the friends i make leave me after a while so often i just know it is a matter of time

I dont have any motivation to fix what is wrong with me and im loosing hope that i can beat my failures, a bad friend of mine introduced me to porn at the age of 9, i have been struggling to stop since the age of 11, i cant, my life is getting ruined and i cant do anything to fix this.

Your parents sound like assholes. My dad came from a family of 3 with parents like yours, he had an older brother and a younger sister. Both of his sibling really got flattened through the difficult experiences they had throughout their lives being war refugees. But he just didn't care about his parents being fucked up, he knew they were acting like idiots. He's raised a beautiful family of three healthy happy boys me included. If you have bad parents you've been dealt a shitty hand, and you just have to trust yourself that they are being unreasonable, even if their emotions are real.